Ok this is new for me. I'm used to the people talking to themselves inside their heads... you do it to, admit it! But I hope you like this. If you don't, such is life. lol R&R!
They say I have the 'gift.' Somehow this is a good thing. 'This is such an honor, Yuko! You should be happy!' Why should I be happy that my so called 'gift' is dying? I never wanted this 'gift.' I don't want to just die. Every time I try to tell someone that this isn't my calling, they tell me what an honor it is to be able to defeat Sin. I just want to scream! Does no one care what I think? Father and mother are so proud of me, though. I've always been a disappointment to them. Ever since that Yevon priest proclaimed that I had the 'gift,' they have been bragging to others how their daughter is going to defeat Sin. They have already decided who are to be my guardians! I want them to be happy, but I just don't want to become a summoner.
Maybe I can go along with this charade for a while. I could become a summoner and start my pilgrimage. It might be fun. I would get to travel all across Spira. I could get as far as Zanarkand and just renounce my pilgrimage! No… that wouldn't work. Father and mother would get word and would be ashamed. There's no way out of this! Say I did become a summoner, I'd be famous. People would treat father and mother nicely, most likely bringing them tons of gifts. They would be happy. Sister would be well looked after and could possibly afford the surgery. She might even have the chance to see again… How can I say no to her? This 'gift' of mine might as well be a curse.
They're all expecting me to be someone I'm not… but I will be that someone. I will become a summoner! I will defeat sin! Sister will get her sight back! Father and mother will have a reason to be proud of their daughter! But can I do it? Will I be able to do what others have failed to do many a time? Can I truly defeat Sin? I can and I will! Nothing can keep me from this path. I may not like it, but that doesn't mean I won't do it! I want my family's lives to be rich and joyous. I have a chance to make it so. I guess this 'gift' is really a blessing, for my family at least.
There are some pros to being a summoner. For one, you get to have all those awesome aeons! Who doesn't want an aeon? There's also the factor of the guardians. My guardians-to-be are quite good looking. My parents had originally considered Taizo, the third son of Takeshi; but Takeshi was unbending like a bamboo tree. They finally settled on Ryuu and Taichi. Ryuu is as fierce as a dragon and Taichi is just plain huge! Everyone calls him the 'Big One.' They work really well together and they're really quite kind. I might just have some fun. It won't all be 'doom and gloom.'
Well, maybe I'll like it! I'll have some awesome aeons at my command and great guardians that will keep me from harm. I guess I'll just go with the flow for now. My family deserves that at least. I'm going to make them proud using this 'gift' of mine. I just hope that I won't disappoint them or all of this will be for naught.
I'm scared, but I think that's normal for a summoner-to-be. It is weird, though, having people that have ignored me before coming and congratulating my family and me. People can be so fickle. Oh well! I've got to go find that stupid priest and get some information on how to use this oh so wonderful 'gift' of mine.