So for this story I thought what Tsuna's life was like before guardians so there will be no characters like that in this fic other than Yamamoto, Hibari and Kyoko. ❄️ Enjoy.
Warning, there may be self harm this why it is rated M. Attempted and thoughts on suicide will also appear in this story, thank you.
It will also include a somewhat smart Tsuna.
(Will always be in Tsuna's PoV)
My legs hurt, my head hurts, my arm hurts and...
My heart hurts the most...
Everyday, it's the same routine... I walk to school then get beaten up somewhere at a random time. Then when I get to school, I'm late most of the time, meaning I always get 'bitten to death' by Hibari-San. Later I have my classes and my teachers even pick on me... After classes finish, I normally Bee-line to the bathroom. I only had one thing to do there, it's the same old routine, I take the sharp blades from my scissors an draw and write with it on my arm. Once the blood starts tricking onto the ground I head to the nurses office. To this day I still have scars, actually I never really stopped doing that...
When I get to the nurses office, the nurse wouldn't notice me and ignore me... I didn't really care though... She wasn't the only one.
After school, I walk home by myself, sometimes gaining a few smiles and goodbyes from Kyoko or Yamamoto other than that, nothing. Once I get hope I just think and today, I thought about my life. And on rare occasions, Mum would ask how things are and I would brush it of and say, 'it's ok'.
" is it worth living?"
"Would anyone care?"
"Am I that much of a 'dame-tsuna' "
I whispered, heart beating and chest raising up and down at a irregular pace and pattern.
I saw the rope laying there, soo innocently. I tied it around the ceiling fan and my neck. I stood on the bed, ready to jump off! The rope tightened and my ma walked in, rope around my neck off the bed now hanging in the air.
All I remembered was beeping and a muffled voice and screaming.
Strange
Strange indeed
After a while, I was able to hear the voice, it was gentle and comforting. My body felt warm and my eyes opened, I was greeted by a light and a smell of despair and cleaning products. My vision was still blurry but I managed to sit up. I also managed to hear a small
"HE'S AWAKE!"
My head started to pound and a doctor walked towards me, or I think it was a doctor.
I ask him, " how long have I been here?"
His face crumpled up just for a second and simply replied,
"a week... Besides that, I'm here to talk about your condition and- What happened."
My eyes widened, I had been in a unconscious state for a week? What's more, he wants to know what happened...
'Tell him, it's ok'
What was that? That voice...so- so soothing, so familiar. I decided, I opened my mouth to speak but closed it, unsure.
'Don't worry. I'm here'
" what would you like to know doctor?" I asked, hesitant.
"Oh? Oh! Right, I am fully aware what happened from your mother's words, but I would like to hear your side, starting from the cause of it."
He smiled sadly
And so, I told him, told him everything, from the bullying, the self harm and the things they said to me.
To say the least I broke down... I cried.
I'm not as stupid or dame as they think, do they really think that I didn't or never got the most easiest questions correct? Heck, if I said I didn't know what 1+1 was, they might even believe me!
I heard the door creak open. I was still crying so I didn't bother to look who it was. However, the doctor did.
"Ah! Glad you could make it!"
"It's no problem" said the voice.
The voice was familiar, way too familiar. Then I remembered, the picture that was always by Mama's bedside... If I remembered correctly, it was of a stereotypical construction worker with some penguins.
~flash back~
"Mama!"
"Hm? Hai Tsun-kun?"
" who is that?" I asked, pointing to the image besides Nana's bedside
"Ah, that's your Papa!"
I scrunched my eyebrows and said,
"I don't like papa, he left mama alone!" I screeched and ran out the room.
(A/N um, this was badly written...Gomen.)
~end of flash back~
Papa...
"Sawada-San! Glad you could make it, I've written everything you need to know on this piece of paper. If you need anything else, don't hesitate to ask."
"Arigato! But for now I have to say goodbye, C'mon tsuna."
I looked to the floor and wiped my tears then proceeded to walk to to him, still looking at the grey floor.
I hate this man and that will never change.
Teh end.
How was it, I'd gladly make this one-shot into a series. I'm thinking of putting my 'The sound in my soul' series up for adoption or put it on hiatus please tell me what you thought and whether you want this to become a series of not.
-TTokll
(Space turtle)