Sitting on her couch, with Sheldon inches from her, she had two choices. Do I kiss him, or do I walk?

*earlier that day*

It was a Saturday, and Amy had spent the morning tidying up her apartment as she was having the gang over for dinner later. Everyone was dressing up and bringing wine, so she was excited to be the host for once at one of their get togethers. Whilst she was setting up her table with forks and knives and preheating the oven, all she could think about was Sheldon. He'd been acting distant for the past few weeks, seemingly reverting back to his usual self with her. He didn't want to go out, he had stopped holding her hand at the cinema and he outright hated the 'formal' dinners the gang put on. She didn't feel like a girlfriend anymore. More like a friend who's a girl, like they were before the relationship agreement. But unlike two years ago, she was bothered by it. She knew Sheldon could be kind and considerate-she just wished he showed it more often.

She pushed these thoughts to the back of her mind as she began making dinner from scratch-lasagne with garlic bread. She'd mainly chosen it because she knew Sheldon enjoyed it when she'd cooked it for him once. But, it was pretty simple to make and that's what she wanted.

Putting the lasagne in the oven, she went to check her phone. She had a message from Penny:

"Hi Amy, Sheldon keeps saying he doesn't want to come tonight. I'm obviously giving him hell but you know Sheldon xx"

Amy sighed. She had expected this from him, but she didn't think he would go around telling everyone else he didn't want to come. At least her bestie was 'giving him hell'
Amy texted back:

"Is there a reason he doesn't want to come? xx"

Within a minute Penny replied:

"He says he's got work to do and some crap about needing to sort out his socks xx"

Amy could feel anger rising inside her.

"Tell him that if he doesn't want to come, text me. And I want a real reason why xx" Amy angrily typed back to Penny. She decided to take her mind off things by sorting out what she would wear tonight.

Five minutes later, as she was setting out her outfit on her bed, she heard her phone ring. She picked it up and found Sheldon was calling her. She gulped and answered.

"Hello?"
"It's Sheldon"
"I know"
"Oh"
"Is there something you wanted?"
"Um..yes..I'm really busy so.."
"You can't come tonight?"
"Yes, exactly"
"I don't believe you"
"What?"
"This isn't because you have work. It's something with me, isn't it?"

"Look Sheldon, if it's something I've done then I'd like to know"
"It's not you"
"Then what is it?"
"...I have to go, bye" and he hung up.

Amy stared at her phone. She felt sad now, because whatever it was, Sheldon didn't feel he could tell her. Did he not trust her? Amy felt like they had a very open relationship where each person had the right to express their opinion. Maybe not.

7 o'clock came, and the gang, minus Sheldon, arrived at her apartment. Everyone was in good spirits, joking and chatting about the days events. All the time, no one mentioned Sheldon.
Dinner went well, everyone praised Amy for her lasagne. They ended the night by sitting in the living area drinking wine and discussing their weeks events.

Soon enough, everyone left one by one. Penny and Leonard took a tipsy Raj home and Howard and Bernadette left shortly after. Closing the door behind them, Amy let out a sigh. She was happy, because the night had gone so well without any arguments and everyone had a good time. But she was confused. No one had mentioned Sheldon. Not even when Leonard was talking about his latest achievement, someone would typically say 'if Sheldon was here...' But they didn't. It was as if he didn't exist.

She began to clear up the glasses and plates into the sink when there was a knock on her door.
'Maybe someone left their coat or bag' she thought as she looked around the room whilst walking to the door. She opened the door and there stood Sheldon. She looked up to his face; it looked tired and sullen.

"Hello" was all she could say.
"Hi" Sheldon looked at his feet.
"..would you like to come in?" Amy asked
"If that's ok with you" Sheldon replied
Amy opened the door further and let him in. He walked straight to the sofa and sat down.
Amy shut the door and sat next to him. They sat in silence for a moment until Sheldon spoke up.
"I came here to apologise"
Amy snorted "Did Penny make you do this?"
Sheldon looked up at her "no, of course not"
"Oh"
"I came to apologise for the way I have been acting. I have not been my usual self recently but that doesn't mean I should be the same with you"
Amy sighed "I thought we could trust each other. If you weren't feeling yourself then why didn't you come to me?"
Sheldon looked at the floor and Amy realised why.
"It's about me, isn't it?" She said
Sheldon nodded.
'Ok, that explains a lot', Amy thought.
"So why are you here?" Amy asked "you're not just here to apologise?"
Sheldon looked up "you are correct"
Amy nodded "just say what you are feeling, I won't say anything until you are finished talking"
This seemed to slightly relax Sheldon. He gulped and began:

"I realised that the reason I haven't been feeling myself is because of how good our relationship is. We've been getting closer and closer and whilst I am very fond of you, it seems we're getting too close, too soon. I guess my reaction to this was to avoid all closeness with you. But, when I was talking to Leonard and Penny, and how they told me you were nothing but concerned about me, it made me think. All this time I have been the worst boyfriend ever, anyone else would have left. But you didn't. Even when I made up excuses to not to on dates or hold hands, you understood"

"All I've wanted to do is hide, run, not take on the world. I know it didn't make sense to you how it could make things better for me, but I think I knew you'd understand. I was sure of that when I called you tonight and yes, I could tell you were angry but you didn't force me to come" Sheldon stopped and took a deep breath.

Amy was stunned. Sheldon had just understood everything she was going through with him. Yes, she knew they were closer, she knew it was too much for Sheldon. But she knew to understand him. That's why she didn't push him. It was only tonight that it had finally got to her.

"Sheldon, I understand" she said "I know we're moving on and I know this is hard for you. It's hard for me too, you know. I'm on the same boat as you. But I want you to be honest with me. Yes, I'll understand if you don't want to touch or do anything special, but you need to let me know, ok?"

Sheldon nodded "agreed"
Amy smiled "ok, now that's sorted, what do you wish to do?"
"I think I want to kiss you" Sheldon said
Amy laughed "bazinga?"
Sheldon looked at her "no, I'm very serious"
"And why is that?" Amy asked
"Because I feel I owe you it after the past few weeks"
"So you don't want to do it, it's just for my benefit?" Amy asked
"Well I'm not sure yet. We've only kissed twice before"
Amy was stuck. Of course she wanted to kiss him, she wanted much more than he'd ever know. But it didn't seem right. Sheldon didn't seem to want to do it, more of it was an obligation to his girlfriend. She didn't want that. But maybe kissing him would be the breakthrough that Sheldon needed to realise them being close was not something to fear, rather enjoy.

What should Amy do?
Let me know in the comments!