Title : Saving Her
Author : Katiyana
Summary : A bittersweet account in Cassie's diary.
Disclaimer : Just writing based on characters I did not create.
Notes : This is my first SG-1 fic. Please let me know what you think.
Dear Diary,
Something more strange than usual happened today. It's true that working at the SGC means that strange things happen all the time. But this made me feel so many different things. I still don't know whether to treasure this memory or do my best to convince myself that it never happened.
Really, who am I kidding? I can't. I know I can't, for better or for worse, there's no way I can for get this ever happened.
Diary, today I saw my mother again. Alive, well and just so alive. After all these years, I got to see her, hear her, touch her, hug her. But I had to let her go. She was my mother but all the same she wasn't. She had me, but a different me. One who didn't have to bear the pain of losing her. A me who got to keep her in her life and not have to lose another mother. I'm so incredibly jealous. I hate the other me, who got all the things I will never have.
I'll tell you what she had. Not only did she not lose my lovely mother, she gained a family. A father, she got two parents! And to top it all off, she also had twin brothers and a sister. Imagine that! I would have settled for just having my mother. That other Cassie had a complete family!
Then again I'm not sure who it was worse for. Me or Daniel. Because we found out that she married him in that reality. She survived the staff blast because he managed to grab her and they were both hit. But it meant that she didn't get the full blast and so she lived. He saved her and she lived.
Diary, I can't help but feel angry that he didn't do it in my reality. I know he would have done so if he could. It's just one of those things that happen. But I miss her so much. Why hadn't he saved her?
Daniel looked devastated when we finally figured out when our realities diverged. Up until then it had seemed exactly the same. I could see the guilt building up in his eyes. Now he will have to live with the fact that he might have been able to save her. In fact, in another reality, he did.
In the other reality, they both realized that life is way too short to pass up on the chance to love and be happy. They decided to risk it and place their hearts in each other's keeping. It appears that it was not something that they ever regretted.
They built a family. And I was a part of it. A big part from what I could tell of what my mother told me. She's not my mother. But oh she is. She is and she's not. Oh how I wish he had managed in saving her.
The End