Author's Notes: Yipee! This is my second Fruits Basket fic, a sequel to The Reason for Fighting. I hope you like it as much as you liked the prequel. There might/will be a sequel – the third installment to end it all. Anyway, please read and review!
Dedication: To all those who reviewed my prior fic, thank you for making my day.
Disclaimers: Fruits Basket and all its characters don't belong to me. Only the story line is mine.
The Reason for Hating"Eh? Yuki-kun perfected another exam?"
I fought the urge to snort at what Tohru said. Of course the nezumi would get another perfect score. You had always been the smart one in the family. The one the family always favored.
And I hated him for that.
I hate the way you would beat me in everything – studies, martial arts, place in the family. I hate the way you would know the little things that make Tohru smile, the little things that make everyone smile. I hate the way your eyes would capture everyone's heart and sympathy. I hated you for everything that you were.
But what I hate the most is the fact that I find myself hating you not for those reasons only, but also for others as well.
And it's the others that make me doubt my sanity.
Damn you, Yuki.
Damn you for not even realizing that your smiles make me crazy. Damn you for not realizing the way your eyes drown me every time you look at me, especially when they're intensely angry at me. Damn you for not noticing what your mere presence does to me.
Damn you for not even feeling that I'm slowly falling for you.
Dammit. Dammit. Dammit.
I wanted to slam my fist on the table but I remembered that I was inside the classroom and in doing so, I know that I would attract attention. Especially Tohru's. And that was one attention I didn't like having when I was thinking about the nezumi.
Ha! Thinking about you now, aren't I?
Dammit. I was not supposed to be thinking about you, baka nezumi!
But not thinking about you was a very hard thing to do especially when I get to see your face almost 24/7.
If only I could center my thoughts on defeating you, then I'd be happy.
Yeah, that's right. Defeat you… that's all I need to think about.
Yeah. I'd be really happy.
Right.
Somehow, I sound like a liar.
Ok. Think of other things. Think of Tohru. Think of the way she smiles. Think of the way she's so concerned about me.
"Why do you hate Yuki-kun that much, Kyou-kun?"
Argh! Not that!
I sighed mentally. Guess there's no way to escape your charms, ne Yuki?
My eyes flitted towards Tohru and you, wishing I was the one you were talking to in a pleasant manner. I wished I was the one you were smiling at. I wish I was the one you were concerned about.
But I wasn't the one in Tohru's place. I wasn't the one you were smiling at. I wasn't the one you were concerned about.
And I hated that. I hated you for that.
"Why do you hate Yuki-kun that much, Kyou-kun?"
I remember not answering the truth, that one night that she asked it. I couldn't bring myself to say the real reasons why I hated you. I just said that I was the cat and you were the mouse. What more explanation did she need?
She just sighed, smiled but remained silent.
I tore my eyes from you and Tohru and closed my eyes.
But it wasn't that.
The reason I hate you went beyond the neko and nezumi thing.
The reason I hate you was because of these feelings that I have you inside. These feelings that I know you will never return.
The real reason for hating you was because I loved you.
Owari
30May2k4
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