1First fanfic in about six years, so be nice
" I do not own any of stephanie meyers books or characters etc."
Here I am sitting in my room, looking out the window waiting for a sign that my life will go on, it had been only three weeks since "my so called friend" took what was the one thing that I held the most dear to my unfortuantly still beating heart,...my virginty. Not only did I trust Jacob, I never thought that when Edward came back, that Jacob would see that I would die...well literally one day, hopefully, to be with the love of my life. Edward was my everything, and that day that Jacob came over to my house through my window saying he just wanted to talk, I never thought that this would be the day, I could never even look at a puppy the same way again.
Flash Back...3 weeks Bella's Room 9p.m
Bella's Point of View...
Edward was hunting and unforunately for me I had nothing to do. I grabbed my pajamas that now I think about it, I should have thrown these away years ago. Hmmmmmm... where the hell is my hair band, my hair is really getting too long for comfort. I found my hair band under the clothes that I had thrown on my dresser earlier that day when I got home from school, it had been a freakish hot day. I was beginning to walk out my bedroom door when I heard a thump and nearly tripped over my own damn foot. I turned around and there was Jacob doing his best not to look like a robber he was sweaty, wearing only a white undershirt and blue jeans. He just stared at me like I was his, MATE! "What the hell are you doing here Jacob?" I was pissed, he knew that even though I wanted him as a friend, Edward would kill him and be furious with me to know that he was crawling through my window ,which he now considered to be his territory. Jacob stood up knowing that I had my eyes on him. What he said next shocked me, shocked me so much it knocked me onto my bed.
"You fucking bitch, you were supposed to be mine, not his" he was shaking and I knew he might change "and I swear on my pack that you will be mine now!" Jacob said with such anger it sounded more like a howl or a shreik from some werewolf from the abyss. He threw himself on top of me before I could get to the door. I tried to get back up, but he had me pinned down. Only if I could reach my phone 'Dear god help me'. "Jacob, please, please don't do this Jacob please!" crying I tried to hit him but it was like hitting a rock. He ripped my pants off and I sobbed harder. 'Oh god I thought where is Edward, where is he when he was supposed to protect me? Why was I so stupid?' Jacob held me down with just one of his gigantic hands, as he got frustrated trying to take his pants off. I was kicking and kicking and I could tell the more I struggled, the more he got hard off seeing me crying, wanting Edward. All of a sudden I felt such a pain, ripping me a part, it felt like a metal rod in and out of my vagina, I couldn't handle it. I just gave up, motionless and silent, just laying there on he floor where he had dragged me off the bed, knowing that I was going to die on the bedroom floor. Jacob looked over and saw me laying motionless, and started screaming and hitting me in my ribs and face while still thrusting harder and harder into me "You will enjoy this, I got to you before he did, haha I will make him pay for taking you away from me. What do you think of me now Bella? Am I a monster enough for you now??" I started screaming, screaming for my life how could he think thats what I wanted in a man? I wanted someone who loves me unconditonally and loves me for all my flaws. Even now Jacob was full of himself. Finally he stood up and then kicked me across the room into the door, pulled his pants up and jumped through the window he was already half way changed.
BACK TO PRESENT
I knew Edward would eventually find out about it and Jacob will pay, but until then its my dark, dark secret. I went inside and grabbed a packet of cigarettes laying on my bed, I took out a marlboro light and some matches, lit it, and deeply inhaled. I had quit smoking before I came to forks, now look at this shit again, back to the same old habits. Another drag and another Bella relaxed just enough to make sure that Charlie was asleep, this week was his early shift and he was always home before 8, unfortunately for me the week Jacob decided to visit was the week that good ol' dad worked the grave yard shift. Bella walked over to her bed and laid down. She knew Edward would be back tomorrow in his shiny Volvo waiting for what he thought was a happy Bella pulling into school in that ol' 53 chevy , if Edward only knew how much pain I was really in thought Bella...sleep over took those emotions.
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CHAPTER 1 HAS BEEN UPDATED PLEASE REVIEW AND LET ME KNOW IF IT SOUNDS BETTER AND YOU LIKE IT :)