Hi=) This is my first attempt to write something longer than a one-shot. Hopefully, you will like it.

I don´t own Marauders, Lily and other JKR characters=) However, this story is mine=)

Ginnyjaffa - thank you for your beta reading.

Lily sat on her legs in her favourite red armchair in front of the fireplace in the Head common room. It was slowly getting dark and she was trying to finish her Transfiguration homework so she could finally go to sleep. She rubbed her eyes and put the one disobedient strand of shining dark red hair back behind her ear. She needed to write two more inches and she was totally exhausted. Transfiguration, although she always got an O, wasn't the subject "of her heart". She loved Charms because she liked to make things move or do something. This was the real magic that she imagined like a little girl...but Transfiguration? Ew. Nothing really interesting, you just have one thing and change it into another - you can't create anything from nothing.

Of course, James would disagree. He and his friends, who liked to call themselves Marauders, used to change her school things into rats, bugs, snakes and other unpleasant animals. She freaked out every time and yelled at them so loud that the whole school heard her. She sounded like a banshee.

Ugh, I hate rats so much! Our relationship (rats and me) is even worse than this one with Petunia, Lily thought.

However, James didn't seem to repeat his actions this year. Sirius, maybe, but not James. He was made Head Boy and Lily noticed that he behaved more responsible and mature. He was polite towards her and showed his respect to the teachers, helped her with their duties, he actually tried to do his homework in time. He hadn't got detention since the beginning of the year and it had been almost two months now. He still pulled pranks with Marauders but he has never hurt anybody. He didn't hex anybody in the corridors like he used to do when he wanted to show off, he didn't even pick on Snape like usual. Lily had to admit, she had been impressed.

James, Snape? Where did this come from? They used to be Severus and Idiot two years ago. Strange, how things could change. When did it happen? Lily was pulled out of her meditation by falling billet in the fire. She stretched, yawned and looked at her watch. Eight. Only? She is tired as much as a miner every day after work. It must be the weather, she decided, autumn has already started and dark evenings made her always so sleepy.

"Come on, Evans," she whispered to herself," just two more inches and it's over and you are going to have free weekend."

Shadows crept in the room inconspicuously and she could barely see her parchment. She fixed that with a flick of her wand when she turned on the candles in the room. She wrote another sentence, but she just couldn't concentrate.

"Ugh! I wish, James was here," she signed. "He would certainly help me."

Yeah, James and his nice smile that makes you weak in the knees and you want to melt right here and right now. His unruly hair, so silky, that you are just aching to run your hands through it. His hazel eyes, so intense and sparkling with mischief every time. Yes, he has wonderful eyes. They are honest and caring and when he looks at me, I know, I would do anything for him. Finally, we come to his muscular tanned body...

Lily blushed, when she realized, what she was thinking. However, she had to admit that James was so handsome and sexy in every point of view. He attracted her, her stomach did flip-flops every time when he looked at her, but she definitely wouldn't admit that out loud. She might have a little tiny microscopic crush on him, but that was all.

She tried to persuade herself to calm her down. It was nothing and her feelings will disappear soon. Besides, he was over her now, she was sure, although she hadn't see him with any other girl. He spent most of his time with Marauders, his brothers. She can't lo—NO like him when he didn't feel the same. She just had to get over it like he did and move on.

And right there was the problem. She had tried but had never succeeded. However, Lily was determined and whatever was on her mind, she solved it. She just needed to try harder. If James forgot her, she would manage to do the same.

She couldn't help but feel a little sad.

This is your own fault, so don't try to complain. The voice in her head said.

Like I didn't know it before, thanks for stating the obvious. She replied sarcastically. Oh, I am going crazy, I am arguing with myself in my head. Someone save me!

Lily shivered. The fire had died out during her thinking and an unpleasant coldness surrounded her. The windstorm outside was crooning, pounding on the windows. No wonder today was Halloween. It was quite scary. Lily saw trees without leaves bowing their branches because of the wind and it looked like something from a horror movie.

In one moment, she caught sight of big black dog in the middle of Quiddich pitch. She has never been superstitious but she couldn't help it when she remembered what meant this vision. Death. She certainly didn't like it. She suddenly felt very lonely.

A feast was taking place in the Great Hall, all her friends were down there together and smiling, maybe wondering where she was, but she wasn't in the mood. Alice had tried to persuade her to loosen up a bit, but she hadn't succeeded. She gave up after two hours of attempting to persuade her.

Lily would rather stay here with her confused mind and try to pull herself together.

The Marauders are going to be there, I am sure. What if James flirts with some brainwashed bimbo? I couldn't stand that.

I would do something inappropriate what I would be sorry for later. I would embarrass myself by punching her in her perfect nose and I don't think James would take my side. She shook her head sadly. I'm hopeless.

She started to tremble. She didn't even know why, if it was caused by cold or her unpleasant thoughts. She guessed the second. I screwed it up badly, she thought miserably.

Suddenly, someone spoke up: "Are you cold?" She froze. She knew that voice.

That´s all for now. Two pages in word, this is my record. I promise, next chapters are going to be longer. =)

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