Heartless

An LxRaito ficlet

Chapter 1: Heartbroken

You are supposed to listen to the song Heartless by Kanye West. Thats where I got the inspiration for this.

A/N: Okay, before people go asking, they DO NOT have the handcuffs on, L has temporarily freed them to avoid injury. Yes, Kira is in here, but this time round Raito was NOT the original Kira. He was forced into it. Its gonna be pretty short, 2 or 3 chapters. This was started at 1:19am, so if there are any errors that I missed or it totally suxorz, I apologize. Im trying my best on this. I need reviews on this before I can get cracking at any other of my fics, Im at a writers block.

WARNING: HARD YAOI (Buttsex, two guys) U DONT LIKE, GET THE HELL OFF THIS PAGE CUZ I DONT WANT FLAGGERS OR FLAMERS. I DONT OWN DEATH NOTE, JUST THESE FICS.

Thnx, enjoy XD

The rays of moonlight filtered through the drawn curtains, bathing the room in a gentle light. The bars of blue stretched along the floor until its light illuminated the black of a silk comforter. The bed, barely visible in the dark light, was a king size. Upon it, two sweaty figures slid against each other. The one on bottom had smooth naturally bronze skin, as if the sun was constantly upon him. He was void of clothes, his sweat-slicked skin glistening under the moon's silent gaze. Body well-toned, a swimmer's body, a model's dream. His chocolate mocha hair stuck to his forehead, his iridescent gold eyes narrowed to slits. His cheeks a deep red. The teen's chest heaved up and down as he gasped into the dark room, biting on his knuckles to stifle the sounds.

"Nnh!...Haa...ahh ah! St-sto...op...pant pant..." The teen writhed on the bed, his free hand grasping the sheets tightly. "No more! Aaahh..."

The other man drew back from his position between the teen's legs. His eyes, an onyx black with specks of midnight blue, stared at the writhing boy beneath him. His eyes were half-closed, a sultry grin claiming his lips as he continued stroking the boy's hard member in a lazy manner. "Raito-kun is adorable when he is embarrassed. Such a beautiful blush. Do you really want me to stop?" He asked, dipping his head down to nip Raito's thighs, His raven black hair brushing Raito's leg gently.

"Nn! Shut up...Ryuu-zaaakiii!!" The name became a moan as Ryuuzaki took Raito's cock into his mouth once more. "Aah ah!! R-ryuuzakii.....hah pant...Im gonna...-" He cried out in dissatisfaction as Ryuuzaki let the organ slide from his lips. "Not just yet, Raito-kun." He reached over Raito to the nightstand, pulling a bottle from the drawer. Raito's blush deepened as he saw what L was holding. "And you keep strawberry flavored lube in the nightstand...why??"

"I like the taste of it." He covered his fingers in the slippery substance, put one of Raito's legs over his shoulder, and pressed one to Raito's entrance. He received a shallow nod from Raito, signaling that he could continue. Ryuuzaki hesitated, seeing the anxiety and nervousness in the younger man's eyes. "Are you sure you want this, Raito?" He was annoyed with the boy's display of weakness and would be pissed if Raito backed out when he was this close to getting laid, but he didn't want to be accused of rape. The boy blushed at the lack of honorific, but considered L's words. Did he want this? Did he want his first time to be with the annoying detective?

"...yes...I'm sure." He took a deep breath as Ryuuzaki pushed the first finger in. The sensation was strange and uncomfortable, but not painful. Ryuuzaki thrusted the finger in and out a few times before adding another. He saw Raito wince at the intrusion and turned his head to the side to place butterfly kisses over the creamy thigh. While Raito was distracted, he added the third finger, causing Raito to cry out in pain. He moved his fingers around inside the writhing, whimpering teen, looking for the spot that would make him scream. His fingers brushed against the sensitive bundle of nerves, Raito crying out in pleasure rather than pain. L smirked and pushed against the spot again, feeling Raito buck his hips.

Deciding he was as prepared as he was going to get, he applied a liberal amount of lube to his own member, moaning silently as his neglected shaft was stimulated. Ryuuzaki then grabbed under the knee not on his shoulder and maneuvered it so it was bent and angled away from the young man's body. L moved his hips forward so the head was lightly pushing against the tight virginal entrance. Raito took a deep breath as he felt Ryuuzaki push into him. He flinched as the thick organ stretched him wider. Honestly, he wasn't surprised at L's size. He kinda sorta(1) expected that not only was L the best detective in the world, he was also hung like a horse. Raito was jolted from his thoughts as he felt a sharp pain hit him and he whimpered. Ryuuzaki, hearing the arousing sound, involuntarily jerked his hips, entering Raito fully.

"AGH!! Ahh...pant pant pant...Ryuu...i-it hurts!" Raito cried out, feeling tears leak from his eyes. It hurt so much. L's jerk hadn't helped any either. He felt Ryuuzaki kiss his face, lapping up the tears with his tongue. "Shh, it's okay, Raito. I'm sorry, it'll feel better soon, just bear with me." He slowly pulled out and pushed back in just as slowly. Raito whimpered in pain, blood from the hand he had bitten flowing into his mouth and down his chin. Ryuuzaki changed his angle and thrusted into the younger boy again. He must have found Raito's sweet spot again because a soft moan rolled off his tongue. He angled himself so that the head of his cock pushed against Raito's spot.

Raito felt the sparks of pleasure through the haze of pain. His strained groans slowly turned into moans of pleasure. Encouraged, Ryuuzaki started a steady rhythm once he was sure Raito wasn't going to make him stop. "Ah...ahh hah! Ryuu......gasp...ohh, Ryuu, faster, please!" Raito moaned. L complied, speeding up his thrusts and bending both Raito's knees to his chest, making his cock go deeper into the boy. "Ahh ah ah...oohh oh ah! Ryuu...zaaahhkkiii!! Oh God, harder, faster, please!! Aahhhn agh...hiii aahh!!!" He screamed, feeling L slam into his prostate head-on. He could hear L's groans from above him, hear the headboard creaking as his hands gripped onto it for dear life. He shouted when he felt Ryuuzaki grasp his neglected member and started stroking him in time with his thrusts. He was close to his peak, and he knew Ryuuzaki was as well by the way his cock throbbed within him. His hands released the headboard to wrap around Ryuuzaki's shoulders, seeing L's surprise at the action. His left hand tangled in L's raven tresses, dragging the man down into a passionate kiss.

"Oah ahh ahn oohhh...Ryu-zaki...gasp... almost... ahhah...I'm so close...mmn....oh God! L~~!! I love you!" Raito screamed L's name as he came violently on their chests, shouting again as he felt the older man's cock throb inside him before he felt the rush of the searing liquid passion. They collapsed on their sides, trying to regain their breath. Raito shyly moved forward, laying his head on the detective's chest and grabbed one of the elder's hands. He looked up at Ryuuzaki and smiled. "I love you, Ryuuzaki." A few minutes passed and his smile faltered a little at Ryuuzaki's blank stare. Ryuuzaki sat up and moved to the edge of the bed, looking back at Raito, who was now watching him with a frown. "I'm afraid I cannot return your feelings, Yagami-kun." That one stung. "While I admit that you are breathtakingly beautiful, and I desire you, it is purely physical. This will most likely only be a one-time thing. You are my number one suspect, and I the detective. Therefore, any pursuit of a relationship between us would only end miserably and painfully. On the other hand, there is a chance that you are attempting to seduce me into giving you my real name, letting you kill me, and continuing your reign as Kira." L said in his usual monotone. He was facing away from Raito, but when he turned around he saw the absolutely devastated face and the tears streaming down the younger man's face.

"S-so...that meant nothing to you?! You just did it for a convenient fuck?! I was never trying to seduce you into anything and how fucking dare you suggest that!!" He screamed. "I had noticed my growing affection for you a week after you put the damn handcuffs on! I thought it was just a crush, but I realized that the crushing feeling in my chest when you did something reckless, the warm feeling in my chest when I saw you smile, meant that I was in l-love with you...hic...b-b-but then you go and throw my feelings in my face like I'm nothing but a convenient source of sexual relief. I can't believe I let someone like you be my first." L's eyes widened. He hadn't known the teen was a virgin. Seeing L's face, he couldn't hold back his sobs or tears anymore. He jumped up, throwing on a pair of boxers and a pajama shirt. Ryuuzaki attempted to grab his arm, but he just violently shoved the man away. "Don't touch me!! Hic...I can't believe I fell in love with a heartless bastard!" He ran out the room into the bathroom, where he locked the door and curled up with his back against it. He wrapped his arms around himself as he continued to cry his heart out. It felt as though the pulsing organ had shattered, leaving a gapping, bleeding void where it once was.

L sat on the bed, face in his hands as he listened to the teen crying his eyes out in the bathroom. Each sob was a sharp pain in his chest. He hadn't known the teen was a virgin. He should have known, seeing how nervous he was. He had pondered not long ago about the boy's recent behavioral changes around him. The way he would blush, or stutter, or try to avoid eye contact. Little signs that his mind had not connected. No, he had taken the confession as a trap, his paranoid mind insisting that was what it was. He had basically torn Raito's heart out, tore it to shreds, smothered it in salt, and shoved it back into the wounded chest. L did not know what to do. He had never really dealt with this before. He also realized his comment about detective-suspect relationships. He groaned miserably. He needed to fix this somehow. Ryuuzaki got up, now dressed in his pants, grabbed his cell phone and dialed Watari. Riiii-click.

"Yes?"

"Watari, I would you to inform the task force that they have tomorrow off. Tell them that we all need a break from the case."

"Of course, L. Is there anything else?"

"Watari......I did something really stupid, and I want to fix it, but I don't know how." L said, depressed. He then informed Watari about Raito's confession and his rejection, although leaving out the sex part.

"L, you indeed did something very foolish. If you truly did not feel the same for Raito-san, all you had to do was say so. As for interpersonal relationships between co-workers, you know that you never follow the norm among social conduct. What you can do now, is think for a moment. Decide whether or not you return Raito-san's feelings. Then you should apologize to him and explain why you rejected him in such a way. He may not forgive you, but he will appreciate the explanation. Then, you can inform him of your decision as to where your feelings lie. Just follow you heart instead of your mind for once. For it won't lead you astray."

"...Thank you, Watari."

"No trouble at all, L." Click

Ryuuzaki put the phone on the nightstand and decided he would try to talk with Raito once the teen calmed down.

Raito's choked sobs and hiccups continued to sound from the bathroom for the rest of the night, until finally, he collapsed from exhaustion and fell asleep against the bathroom door.

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That's it! Yay! Pretty short I guess, but I only have so much brain power at 2am. Did you like it? Please press the review button so I can mend Raito's shattered heart.