'Setting goals is the first step in turning the invisible into the visible' - Tony Robbins
"See you tomorrow Tanha,ignore what happened today , their all stupid!" A friend of mine said patting my back . "Yeah , if they say another word , I'll beat the holy hell out of them!" Another friend of mine jeered in . We all were a big group , no one really bothered to say a word to us when we're together but if we're seperate . We're in big trouble and today , sadly , I was the victim of my classmates taunts. "See ya later , Tanha." I waved back at them , before stumbling off out of the gates , with some of the boys making faces , being stupid and doing what idiot boys did . I went with it and walked past them , with my head down low .
The rain was soon falling , at first it was little drips and then it became heavier by the second.
It didn't really matter to me anymore , I wish I could of just fallen in a hole , that was so embarassing! I followed the pattern of the rain as it dripped on the ground hungrily ,tip-toeing slowly. I hated my life! You see , I don't have the emo-queen life of parents dying , actually I have a pretty good life to what most people would see . But for some reason i feel invisible .No one takes a second look at me and when they do I usually say something really stupid! Like just a couple of minutes ago i wrote the one I had a stupid little crush name on a piece of paper , making it all fancy and with flowers , hearts stars and then people start noticing me , what the hell? What is wrong with the world... Do you know? Gah! Oh yeah I'm -
I stepped in a puddle, can't I tell my life story without facing some horrible event . I'm Tanha , I live in England, I'm from an asian background , I guess you could say but i've lived in England most of my life.I'm kind of short , not too short , but most of my friends are taller then me . I have messy but straight black hair which is layered, my fringe sort of curved one side of my face so it was hard to see the left part of my face and I also had tanned skin , my eyes are large and i mean i'm not super model skinny , but i don't mind my size , I'm 13 years old, but I act a lot more mature then most 13 year olds i know. I do complain a lot , it's like my hobby . Well actually I love drawing though I do feel drained when I see other's artwork , it makes me feel all small . Im probably weak , although I look strong on the outside since i'm quiet and for some reason I scare some of my classmates , I wouldn't admit it out loud ,but i'm probably all talk and no action .
"Hey Tanha , want something to eat?" A local shop-keeper smiled , I shook my head , he offered some sweets in his hand , I still shook my head . "Had a bad day , sorry." I apologized. He still smiled , with the sweets his hand , still offering . What the heck , i took one out of the packet . "Thank you , " Well i guess i'm not invisible to him ,walking back from school wasn't fun ,because I lived further then anyone , if I didn't I'd have someone to walk home with , but at the moment I didn't feel like a talkative person. I tied my hair up quickly in a messy pony-tail , strands of hair falling out . Quickly rumaging in my blazer pocket , I put on my headphones and I started to make my way into an dark alley way , there was a step . It was an more adventurous way of getting home , i stepped on and heaved myself onto the next step and starting walking like i was on a tightrope .
Although i don't look it , I'm all into the action , like in shonen manga where their all cool and sly ,speaking of manga my friend lent me this one manga , it's prrobably getting wet by the second . Then you have those shojo manga, when the girls are all super strong or super i wish i was kind of like that , you know going for a goal . But at the moment , I don't think I have a goal I want to achieve . Have the longest hair ? Nah, win a peace prize? Please! Me and peace don't even get along. I loved thinking about life , the universe , like why it exists ? Or is this life real? Or if theres other universes that we haven't even found yet? What is that all like? Maybe if I died right now what would hap-
With all that thinking going on , i fell .
Hard,i fell so hard , i swear blood was coming out of my ears because I could feel pain and liquid falling out of my head or something . It hurt so much and i couldn't scream , nor could i move or cry . I was like a statue and my whole body just went numb. I really am invisible , no one could see me , no one could find me . I didn't worry anyone , no one cared . Not my parents , not my friends . Not even me . I didn't care , I wouldn't mind dying now , who would care , right?