Hey everyone, emraldshade here. This is my first story I have ever created and I hope you enjoy it.

Summary: After things take a turn for the worse in an alley and one of their brothers has been killed, Leonardo, Michelangelo, and Donatello embark on a journey to try to get their brother back. WARNING: Blood, gore, and swearing.

Rating: T for swearing and violence/gore

Disclaimer: I don't own any of these characters, only the story line I guess. BUT SOON I WILL MAKE IT MINE MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

"RAPH! NO!"

Michelangelo screamed as he watched his brother's throat get slit right before him. The three remaining turtles watched in disbelief as they watched their brother fall to his knees, then the floor with a dull thud, the blood pooling around his slashed neck. Shredder smiled, congratulating himself on a job well-done before disappearing back into the shadows.

Raphael had fallen facing his brothers, his dead body being all they were able to see in the dark and barely lit alley. Mikey choked as he looked over the body of his older brother, his mean older brother with a temper but with a soft spot reserved just for him. Light green eyes had now become dull, but nonetheless there was a slight smile on Raph's face. Mikey fell back in fear as he realized that the blood -Raph's blood- had painted his hands a crimson red. Leo and Donnie had both fallen to their knees, watching as their youngest brother, typically filled with joy and goofiness, broken over their loss. Mikey sobbed, burning tears falling out of his eyes and dripping down his cheeks as he prodded Raph.

"Hey bro, you can't be dead. Raph? This isn't funny. Cut the jokes." Mikey let out a broken chuckle that was silenced with a sob. "I'm the one that makes the jokes Raph, you can't-…Raph please. Wake up please. Raphie this is not okay! Do you see me laughing?!"

"We…we didn't make it in time…" Leo muttered in disbelief. His eyes cast downwards to his hands that had begun to shake. Hot tears brimmed his eyes, threatening to spill over onto the asphalt. No. This isn't the time. I…I can't grieve yet.

The last words of Raphael played over in his head, and Leo felt his shell heat up, eventually a red haze settled over him as he remembered what Raph had said right before Shredder had slit his throat.

"Don't worry about me when I'm gone, just look out for yourselves you idiots. Don't cry or mourn, just come back to me later. It should be me."

"…you idiot…why. Why did you think it had to be you?! Why didn't you let me handle it?! HUH?! YOU SELFISH ASSHOLE!" Leo screamed into the night, the tears finally falling down his face as he felt anger towards himself for not getting there in time, anger towards Shredder for murdering his brother in cold blood, and anger at Raphael for being such an idiot. Who the fuck says I can't grieve now? Raph's…DEAD.

The cries of Michelangelo weren't slowing, his baby blue eyes filled with complete and utter despair and sorrow. Donnie knelt next to him, rubbing Mikey's shell while Mikey continued to try to wake up Raph.

"Mikey…he's gone." Donnie looked at his younger brother the sadness in his dark eyes piercing Mikey, he was trying to remove him from Raph's unmoving body.

"You don't know that Donnie," Mikey ground out amid his sobs. "You didn't check for his pulse yet."

Donatello visibly paled at what Mikey was suggesting he should do. Donnie looked towards Leonardo with frightened eyes but Leo just looked away towards the ground.

"M-mikey there isn't really an area on his n-n-neck to really…I can't do it." Donnie backed up as Michelangelo whipped his face towards him, relentless anger burning in his eyes. The look of Mikey's face alone made Donnie flinch, but then he began to yell.

"CHECK HIM DONNIE! CAN'T YOU SEE HE ISN'T BREATHING?! HE'S BLEEDING AND HE MIGHT STILL BE-!"

Mikey faltered as he looked back at Raph. Mikey's eyes trailed up his brother's bloodied plastron to his neck and he flinched. Raph's jugular, along with his esophagus, had been sliced open. There really was no way that he could possibly be alive. Mikey turned to the side and hurled. He didn't understand how Raph could contain that much blood.

"C'mon Mikey, we gotta get home. It's late and we need to…we need to let Splinter know that Raph is…" Leo held out his hand for Mikey to take. Mikey wiped the side of his mouth and took Leo's hand to haul him up.

"B-but Leo. Who's going to carry him back?" Mikey looked at Leo with his wide fearful baby blue eyes. I've gotta carry him. They can't take it. Leo looked at his brother and gave him a slight reassuring smile.

"Don't worry Mikey, you won't have to carry him. I'll do it." He visibly relaxed at his statement, his shoulders sagged and his gaze softened a little.

"Go head home Mikey, take Donnie with you. I'll catch up after." Mikey furrowed his brows under his mask, not trying to stop the small trail of tears coming out of his eyes.

"No Leo, I know that you're hurting just as much as the rest of us. We go together." Leo nodded slowly, secretly thankful, before walking towards his younger brother's limp body. Donnie opened the nearby manhole cover for Mikey, who silently slipped in. Leo picked up Raph's body and carried him on his back. Leo gagged when he felt his brother's broken neck tilt at an unnatural angle due to the slice in his throat but tried to ignore it. But how could he ignore the blood that was dripping down his right shoulder, coating his entire right side with Raph's blood.

Leo slipped into the sewers with Donnie right behind him but moved off to the side to allow Donatello to pass. Leo tried to make it nonchalant, but Donnie silently thanked him while understanding it was because he didn't want him to look at Raph during the trek home.

They moved swiftly and silently throughout the sewers but as their journey continued, Leo was having a difficult time carrying the burden of his younger brother's weight. The blood dripping down his right side constantly making him remember the night's events. How did everything get so complicated so quickly? Why did everything have to get so complicated? But most importantly…why did we have to get into another fight?

Uhh, hope this is okay! I'll try to update weekly but just bear with me! Each chapter is probably only going to be around 1,000 words each so I know that it's short but I hope you enjoy it!

Thanks for reading and please don't forget to R&R!

- emraldshade