By far the sickest of all
Chapter 1
I walked down the street, it was dark and cold, ugh. I hate the cold, plus its around 1 am… Not my thing. Plus I'm not even dressed for the cold! I have arm warmers on… fishnet arm warmers and my short black leather skirt isn't helping either, but I guess its what I get for sneaking out to get away from my boyfriend. God, he's so annoying, and he thinks I'm sooo though, just like everyone else… I guess I do seem pretty, scratch that, really tough on the outside. So people think when I snap I get violent, but I don't, I cry, its actually quite a nice stress relief method.
I started running down the dark streets only lit by the flickering streetlights. I knew this place by heart, but I couldn't seem to focus tonight. I just kept getting lost in my thoughts. Somewhere off in the distance I could hear music blaring.
"Did you scream enough to make her cry?"
Just from that one line I heard, I knew this song. It was she's a lady by forever the sickest kids, or forever sickest kids, I could never remember not that it mattered… But whatever. See what I mean by getting lost in my thoughts, happens all the time. But this just had to be the night I just couldn't seem to find my way through the dark smelly alleys, and it was getting annoying. It took me forever to realize why I couldn't find my way, but it hit me after a bit. I went the wrong way when I was leaving the club, smart me. And now I'm nowhere near where I live, shit. I really hate being retarded, but I hate being paranoid even more. Every few minutes I would think I saw something out of the corner of my eye, but when I whipped around all I saw was my purple and blond hair sticking to my face. It seemed determined to annoying my out of my mind, damn hair.
I had just started to speed walk and strut my ass off till I found someplace I knew when I heard the thing that made me want to sleep out here, rather than seeing the source. "Damn it Lacy!! Where are you?!" Danny shouted. God, I had hoped it some cereal killer found me before my boyfriend did. He came sprinting around the corner and slammed into me. I screamed still hoping it was the cereal killer, not Danny. I really only screamed because it was him, ack. "What are you doing way out here, you scared me to death!" Danny screamed in my face. Intolerable, that's the word, if I lose my hearing, I'm going to blame him for it, I don't need hearing aids… yet. " What are you wearing?? Lacy what did I tell you about staying at clubs after midnight!?" he barked at me. Your not my mom damn it, I thought. "Shut up, I just couldn't sleep, what's up your ass?" I barked back. I truly didn't care how many people questioned my sanity, but he was defiantly one of them. "Will you just listen, you have to try not to do that, especially when we all know your going to get lost and-" I cut him off before he could insult me further and pushed him away, " Shut up, I don't care if your questioning my sanity or taking advantage of the fact that its not there, so go away!" I snapped at him and started walking home in the wrong direction.
He quickly stopped me and pulled me in the right direction, I would have slapped him if he hadn't been dragging me by my arms. Now I guess you can understand why people think I'm so tough, but I'm really all smashed inside… mostly due to Danny. Kind of like that vase I threw at my neighbor when I was 13… But ya, so continuing on. He dragged me home against my will and I smacked him when I got there for the recently acquired bruise from him pulling me. I didn't say anything though, because if I did he would just blame it on me pulling the whole way then we would get into a fight about our relationship and bla. So I would go to my room and cry myself to sleep while he drank himself into a comma, not that I particularly mind but whatever. I decided I was going to drown out my crying with the radio and pillow.
It worked and I was lost in my thoughts up until she's a lady came on. That was when I remembered nobody had seen me cry, nobody knew I cried when I blasted the radio. They thought I was drowning out my screaming while punching the pillow, not to drown out my freaky little sobs while I curled up in a hopeless little ball under a bunch of blankets. Oh well, not like they need to know that. When I woke up the next morning I stood in front of the mirror for awhile before realizing how weird I looked with blond hair and purple highlights, not the warm caramel color I used to have, but since when have I cared. I put ipod in its speakers and blasted it. The song that I had been listening to last had been one of my favorite songs, it put me in a good mood.
Of course my almost extinct good mood vanished completely when Danny came strutting in the room like he was all that, sick. "Hey babe, how you doing?" He asked in the sexiest voice he could manage, still made my stomach churn. "What?" I asked sourly. "Aww, don't be mad about last night hunny." He hugged me tightly so I could smell his cheap cologne, but I'd say it was perfume. God I need one of those mirrors on the wall to tell me what I need to hear from someone so my tiny opinion doesn't stand alone. It would tell me that I might not be the fairest of all, far from it of course. But he would be, by far, the sickest of them all. And I would giggle, because it's true.
I really need to dump Danny, ack, yes, that sounds great. But there is this really hot guy, Riley. Oh my god!! He's so hot, but if I even talk to him Danny's going to be all over me… It's super annoying and disgusting. So I'm going to dump him eventually, but its more complicated than that. I just blasted my ipod and shoved it in my pocket. I had to hurry to school, psh, screw it. If I want to, I can walk to school. Not like anybody cares anyway, well Danny does, but that doesn't count. Hope he accidentally flushes himself down the toilet or something, I would laugh. Well, enough about my feelings.