Chapter 1

My father was a respectable man-of-the-law. Being successful in his prime, he was quickly promoted to the chief of police. One day, while he was on duty, he met a young lady whose cat was stuck up a tree. My dad, climbed up the tree, even though the one thing he was scared of was apparently, height. Why? Because his only thoughts were of the beautiful woman whose

cat was stuck up the tree. Pretty pathetic attempt at bravado since he lost his balance soon after and broke his leg. Obviously, afterwards, Renee, aka beautiful woman and now aka, MOM, went to visit him out of guilt. And slowly, well, pretty quickly, the feelings developed. And in the end, with no drama involved, they were happily married. And a year after, I was introduced to this world.

20 years had passed since then. Sigh, the nostalgia.

I never really did go to college in the end. What's the need of it if you are going to the police academy straight after? Apparently my dad didn't see the need. I could had settled for a more peaceful job but no, everyone had expected me to follow in my father's footsteps. "Make him proud!" Everyone of them said. So, being the spineless creature I was, I stopped pursuing my dreams, which was to be a writer, and ended up in the police academy.

This was what was supposed to happen-

In the police academy, I did fabulous. everyone praised me for being quick-minded and congradulated my father for having such a wonderful daughter. i graduated from the academy with gold honours. And during my first duty, I kicked butt and got promoted soon after. Then, as I thought my life couldn't get any better, it did. A fabulously hot guy came along in my life one day and we soon fell head over heels over each other. And now I have a perfectly perfect life.

Sometimes I thought that this kind of life is not possible. And you know what? It really is impossible. I would like to think that the above was my life and not the reality. In the reality, everything sucks...

I was a lousy police trainee, often because of my balance cordination problem. My father got no praise since I came to the academy. The last praise I heard for my father about me was from the dentist when I was 13. "She's such a brave gal. Didn't even scream when i pluck her tooth straight out without the right tool. Hahaha." Which by the way, scared the shit out of me that I can't even find the strength to scream. And I barely graduated, which was pretty pathetic since my father was the all reknown and famous chief of police. If I was an outsider, I might had find it comical to have the chief of police hand over the graduation badge to his only daughter, who came last of her batch. Sigh...

Well, at least I a boyfriend. That's the best thing that have happened to my life so far.

Jacob...... I sighed. He wasn't drop-dead gorgeous but at least he was decent. I met him when I was in high school. We had been high school sweethearts. It was a fun time, before he had to go to college and we had to start this long distance thing. And I should say, long distance sucks. Since I like Jake very very much. It was hard for me to be away from him for long. At the beginning, we had talked everyday on the phone. I thought everything would be the same, but slowly, after a few months passed, I felt him drifting away from me. However, I stupidly clung on to the fact that everything would be alright once we meet.

But, I realized, from the worst possible method, that I was, apparently, not satisfying him much.

What's the worst possible method?

-Flashback-

I was on my way to a surprise visit to Jacob's dorm in Seattle. Exhilarated that I would get to see him again, I drove down to Seattle like a crazy maniac even though my car's engine was desperately whining in protest. I hoped it won't die out on me. I wonder if Jake would be surprised. What would be his reaction? Would he sweep me up in his arms and kiss me? Oh how I miss him so...

I sighed in content. I would be meeting him soon. Very soon. I smiled. It had been a few months since I had last seen him. And a few weeks since we last contacted. I was quite worried and thus, being paranoid and sentimental, I drove down to meet him.

In less than a few, I was at his door. I was practically squirming with excitement and longing as I reached for the doorknob.

"Ah! Ah! Ahh-" I froze. Was that? I raised my eyebrow. Jake's roommate certainly has no control, since it's apparently in the middle of the afternoon. I shook my head, disgusted, when I heard-

"Yes! Yea- Ahhhhh! Jakey! Jaaakiieey! Right there! Fuck me. Hard and proud! Ha-Harder! Jakins!" What the? I thought his roommate was Mike Newton? Isn't it Mikey instead of Jakey? Unless...

I flung the door open.

"God! Knock will you? You bloody fuc-" His eyes bulged in utmost horror once he met my eyes.

"Isabella!" -Okay, now it's Isabella isn't it? I thought I told him its 'Bella'- "What on Earth are you doing here?" He sounded flustered and guilty.

"I definitely did not plan to catch you in bed with this fucking vixen! WELL NOW, SORRY FOR BOTHERING YOU! YOU JACKASS DOG!" I screamed and slammed the door.

The same scene kept burning in my head. Jake was bloody naked, with the stupid bitch under him, naked too. Jolly happily fucking each other aren't they? And here I was, rushing all my way down to meet him. Just to catch him fucking a freaking slut!

Wait a minute... The slut seemed familiar now that I think of it. Who was it again? Laurel? No, Laura? Ah yes, it was Lauren. I rolled my eyes, tears threatening to pour. Isn't it just dainty... Lauren the head cheerleader from high school. I thought Jake had hated her sluttish ways too. Now, it obviously seemed like a lie, since all I saw back there was him trying to get into her pants. And she had let him all too willingly.

This had all been a mistake. It all sucks… my job, my dreams, my life... I'm sick of all these. i will NOT cry! From now on, I would focus on my stupid shitty job. I would definitely not let anyone, anyone at all, hurt me. Never again...

Was that alright? I thought it was a little weird for the starting to be so abrupt. And this is the first time I'm doing an M-rated fic. Thanks for reading and if you hadn't, i suggest you check out my other stories: Rising sunset for twilight or other Gakuen Alice fics.

And trust me, there would not be too much hurt and despair all that blah blah blah... But I do need to learn cuss words. They are essential to this fic! If everyone would just introduce to me one cuss word each review... I would be glad. (I know that sounds weird but i think it's also lifeskills to learn how to cuss properly. I'm so sick of being ladylike, I need a fresh change!)

And if there's any errors in this chapter, I'm all so sorry since this chapter was not edited!

All in all, please please please review!!!!!!!!!

L0vwe, huwgs, kwisses,

-The author XD

Disclaimer: I do not own the original book! It's SMeyers!!!!!! Lol... how i hate disclaimers...