DISCLAIMER: MATSURI HINO owns her story. Not me.

My first Vampire Knight fic! :) Contains spoilers to the manga so beware! This fanfic is dedicated to my dear sis - Mia who had her birthday yesterday. sorry for the late post sis. :3 HAPPY BIRTHDAY. i love you :*

I watched him tear his wrist with his own fangs, the blood dripping to the ground. The scent of his blood is overpowering. My thirst is not helping either. I tried to picture Kaname in my mind, but Zero's presence is simply hard to ignore.

I brought his bleeding wrist close to my mouth. I could feel my fangs slowly grow as the ache is stirring up. In my mind, Kaname's words are resonating. I love him so I've got to be faithful to him, right? I could not betray him. But, can I?

I felt his lavender eyes watching me as I hesitate. The treat is just too tempting, if only he knew of the battle inside my mind. How I longed for his blood. Deep down inside me, I will never be satisfied with drinking Kaname's blood alone. I looked up to meet his eyes. His gaze is different – it is full of concern and affection. Not the usual look of apathy. I could drown at those deep pools right there and there.

I could not take it any longer. I gripped his arm and swiftly lowered my head on his neck. I could hear his gentle pulse beneath the creamy skin. Compared to mine, my heart is beating wildly with nervousness.

"Having second thoughts?" He whispered, sending chills down my spine.

I turned to look at him. His face is still calm, unfazed. I shook my head, "I..I just want to look at you." We stared for who knows how long.

I swallowed a lump in my throat. "I want your blood, Zero." It's true. Even though I've never tasted it before, my body longs for it. There were times that after I drink Kaname's blood, I still feel insatiated. Now that this sweet scent flooding my senses is in front of me, I could not bare not to part with it ever again. No, I've got to have it now. I need his blood. "I've been suppressing my thirst but I won't hold back now." I said, managing to keep my voice steady.

I cannot contain myself any longer. I grabbed his tie and moved my face closer to his. "Zero.."

"..Yeah?"

"Can you not think of anything else..just for now." I trembled nervously as I spoke.

"It doesn't matter what you'd see through my heart." He shifted his head, anticipating my attack as I lowered my head. "..It won't change anything, us."

"Zero..please empty your thoughts." My voice was throaty. I sank my fangs onto his flesh, savouring the fresh blood coming out from his veins. Even if my movements are inept, I still got my vampire instincts to tell me what to do. I felt that the only beings that existed in the world right now is Zero and me. Zero.. Zero is enough to keep me satisfied.

As I closed my eyes, I envisioned myself walking in a graveyard and a familiar girl's voice called out to me.

"Hey, stop.." Zero's voice was distant.

"..peering inside.." A younger Yuuki perched on top of a tree smiling at me while the shadow of Ichiru lurked behind.

"..my heart." That broke the reverie. I pulled away and licked my lips. "I'm sorry, Zero."

"It's okay." He touched the spot where I bit him. The faint scent of his blood is still lingering in the air.

"Don't worry, I..I didn't see much." Although that's true but by intruding inside his heart, I did sense his deepest fears. A tough man like him hiding those things. But, he can't help it. It's hard for him to open up to anybody else. I feel guilty. I wish that I wasn't a vampire. I wish that we weren't enemies. What I want..

I want to go back like we used to be. But, that's not me. That past is only a part of me. The reality that I'm a vampire and I'm Zero's enemy is painful.

"It can't be helped." He said, reassuringly.

"Thank you, Zero." I never thought that I could have this intimate moment with him. But, I don't feel guilty getting to drink blood that isn't from Kaname. Although, it was my resolve not to show Zero my fangs, but I guess..

I just can't help it.

"Oi, Yuuki." I was sitting in the classroom with the others. Our teacher for Latin had just left. Aidou-senpai's face showed annoyance. Shiki and Rima are just silent, sitting side by side.

"What is it senpai?" Zero has been occupying my thoughts lately. I just saw him on the way to school as he attended his prefect duties. Maria has been very friendly with too. She constantly bugs him until someone would pull her to the classroom. I envy her. Even in front of many people, she could act so normal with Zero, unlike me.

Every time I want to have a normal conversation with him, my heart just jumps to my throat that I'd end up just saying muffled hi's or phrases like, "Do your best." or "Keep it up."

"I was talking about your performance lately. It seems like I need to tutor you again." Aidou-senpai said, poking my forehead. It's true that the lessons of the night class are more demanding than the regulars. Even though I have been tutored by Aidou-senpai at the mansion, it appears that I need to work harder to keep up with the others. But this means that I could spend less time with Zero..

Lately, we have been meeting in secret. He knows my scent too well and ever since the day I drank his blood, I have been more sensitive with his scent. This way, it's easy to meet. Because, every time I want to see him, I would roam around and he'll rush to find me effortlessly. I guess he's just worried that I'd get myself in danger. But still, I use this stunt in order to see him.

"Yuuki has been more energetic lately. I'm glad that the blood tablets we developed have been a good use for you." Sara smiled meaningfully.

"Yeah, they've been a great help Sara-san." I smiled at her.

"I also admire your suppression for fresh blood..relying too much on blood tablets, I won't last that long." She chuckled mockingly.

"What are you talking about Sara-san?" Aidou-senpai must have sensed my recoil.

"I'm just stating the obvious." Sara got up and left, Ichijou-senpai at her wake. She must have an idea that I've been drinking fresh blood. She must have really enjoyed teasing me in front of everyone else.

"Yuuki, let's talk outside." Aidou-senpai got up and I followed him out of the room.

We walked through the corridors neither speaking a word. "Yuuki, you've got to be more careful whenever..er.." Senpai must have known something. Maybe even the others knew it too but they just pretended that they don't know anything.

Aidou-senpai scratched his head and looked sideways. "I saw you two. You drank Zero's blood." He spoke in a low voice. His tone isn't accusing, more like how a worried parent would say to encourage his child to trust him.

"You can't tell me what to do and not to do." All my actions aren't Aidou-senpai's business. But, I wonder how many times has he seen us exchange blood.

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