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A/N I know you won't be able to believe this but I'm going to write a semi trily fic! Yay! Although I'm warning you that judging by my past fics it could end up rily. I don't even know myself so don't ask me.

"I love you Ray," I yelled through the crowd as I watched Ray being pulled away by Grace. I saw him turn around and his eyes connected with mine for a moment. His face was a mixture of surprise and another emotion that even after almost a lifetime of friendship I couldn't read. I watched him stop Grace from pulling him any further and held my breath wondering, will he go with her? Will the fact that I just told him my feelings for him change his mind? He looked at Grace and then looked back at me with an apologizing glance and left.

It was then that I ran. I pushed my way through the crowd and towards the backstage exit. I ran past Parker and Meagan until I got outside into the night. It felt almost like I couldn't breath and I realized that I was crying. I kept running, still holding my guitar, until I got to my house. I pushed open the door and ran to my room and fell onto my bed tears still coursing down my cheeks and onto my guitar. Suddenly the phone rang on the nightstand beside me. Startled I picked it up.

"Hello" I said trying to sound normal.

"Hi it's Travis I was just wondering if you were okay. You seemed pretty upset when you left Sound Wave." Travis said, his voice full of genuine concern.

"No I don't feel okay at all," I replied honestly.

"Do you want to meet at Mickey's and talk about it?" he asked me.

"Sure, I'll be there in half an hour," I said and immediately wondered why I had agreed.

"Okay see you then," Travis said and then hung up.

I put my guitar back in it's case and went into the bathroom and splashed cold water on my face until I looked slightly normal again.

"I'm going to Mickey's," I shouted as I walked out the door and into the night air.

When I arrived at Mickey's Travis was already there sipping what I guessed was green tea.

"Hey Travis," I said as I sat down in the chair across from him.

"Hi Lil, I got a hot chocolate for you, I thought it might cheer you up because you sounded so upset on the phone," Travis said gesturing to the large steaming mug in front of me.

"That's so sweet Travis, how did you remember that I always drink hot chocolate when I'm upset," I asked.

"I don't know, I just kind of pick these things up," he said shrugging "Anyways I heard what happened with Ray and I wanted to tell you that I admired what you did, it takes alot of guts to tell someone what's in your heart and have them turn you down. I should know," Travis said.

"What do you mean?" I asked "Did something happen with you and Bridget?"

"I told her that I loved her and then she said that I wasn't ready for her," Travis replied, looking like he was close to tears.

"I'm sorry Travis. I guess we're both in the same boat now," I said sighing. We sat in awkward silence for a few minutes.

"I was so stupid to not tell Ray my feelings for him earlier." I said breaking the silence. "I mean it's like everytime either one of us tries to tell the other something happens to stop it." I thought outloud.

"I think sometimes you just have to move on," Travis said thoughtfully "It's like buddha once said 'do not dwell on the past or the future, concentrate on the present moment."

"Yeah I guess your right, maybe I should just move on and go back to just being friends with Ray," I said as I finished off the last of my hot chocolate. Talking to Travis had helped me look at my situation in a different perspective. No matter how painful or hard it was I would just have to move on.

"Omygosh" I said as I looked at my watch. It was ten o'clock and I had at least two hours of homework to finish for tommorow. "I've really got to get going," I said "thanks for helping me and cheering me up, I really appreciate it."

"No problem, anytime you need to talk to someone I'm here," Travis said.

"Thanks Travis," I said "I'll see you tommorow at school."

That was the first time I had actually talked to Travis since he started going out with Bridget I thought as I tried to concentrate on my math equations later that night, maybe breaking up with Bridget had changed him a little. Who knows I thought to myself, but something is definitely different about him.

The next day at school

I got up the next morning and got dressed, dreading the coming day. I had a feeling that it would be filled with more then one awkward confrontations about last night. I grabbed my bag off of the table and after eating a quick breakfast I headed off to school. I had left early because usually we walk to school together and I really didn't feel like facing him first thing. That could wait until I got to school.

Since I got to school early I was one of the only ones there. I decided to go to the cafeteria and study for the big science test we had today. When I got there I saw Travis sitting alone at a table reading a book on buddhism.

"Hey Travis," I said as I walked over to him "I didn't know you got here so early."

"I guess I'm just in the habit," he said "Bridget and I were both early risers so we'd come here every morning and discuss philosophy and stuff," Travis said with a far away look in his eyes.

"You must really miss her," I said sympathetically.

"Yeah I do, but I need to move on," Travis said going back to his usual calm buddha quoting self. "Anyways have you talked to Ray yet?" he asked me.

"No," I said sighing "I just feel really stupid, I told him how I felt and he just walked out with Grace" I said.

"Well you're going to have to confront them both sometime," Travis said and I knew he was right "the sooner you start talking to him again the sooner you can move on and get back to normal."

"I guess your right," said as I spotted Ray across the cafeteria "I'll talk to him right now. Thanks again for the great advice Travis."

I got up, grabbed my bag, and headed towards Ray. I had a sudden urge to turn back when I saw Grace was with him but he had already spotted me.

"Hey Lil. Can I talk to you," he asked me when I got closer.

"Uh sure I wanted to talk to you too," I replied nervously. He said something quietly to Grace before we walked over to a table and sat down.

"Lil I'm sorry about what happened last night," Ray started but somehow I didn't need an explanation.

"It's okay Ray, I shouldn't have tried to mess up things with Grace when I knew you were moving on. Can we just go back to being best friends again?" I asked.

"Uh okay Lily if that's what you want," he said. It sounded like he was going to say something else but the bell rang. "Well I better go then Ray. I'm so glad we're friends again," I said giving him a quick hug before going to my first class. I would be able to confront Grace later but for now I would just have to concentrate on trying to forget about my feelings for Ray and go back to being friends. Although I wasn't really sure if that would be entirely possible.

A/N Soo what do you think? Please do me a favour and review if you like this story (and even if you don't) because I'm planning to have at least six chapters (if I get enough reviews hint hint) and don't want to waste my time if nobody likes it. It really isn't that difficult to press the little purple button and write a two sentence (or longer) review is it?