Dear Journal,

I have a secret that I'm afraid that I can't tell anybody especially my husband. He wouldn't understand and it would only cause him pain to hear that I've been fantasizing and lusting about others.

My secret...the secret that I can only share with you for now, is that I am bisexual. I've tried to deny my feelings for the other woman in my life, but it is getting harder not to give in to the temptation that I feel whenever they are near.

There are three woman in particular that drive me absolutely wild with desire. The first woman that I've ever been attracted to was Blair Cramer. I know it's silly, she hates me and I hate her...we've been enemies for so long now, but there's a thin line between love and hate. There's always such a burning passion when we fight that it's impossible for me not to get excited. The last time that we argued, I almost kissed her. What am I going to do with myself.

The second woman that gets under my skin is Tea Delgado. She is such a passionate, beautiful, strong woman who would do anything for the people that she cares about. Tea and I haven't always gotten along because of our histories with Todd and Victor. When she married Victor, I was extremely jealous. I tried to pass it off as natural feelings because Victor was my ex, but after several erotic dreams of me and Tea getting frisky I know that I'm jealous because I want to be the one that Tea holds in her arms every night.

Last, but not least. The fiery redhead Natalie didn't only steal John's heart she stole mine as well. When we argue...it's like the most erotic foreplay and it leaves me, not only breathless, but extremely wet between my legs. I would give anything if Natalie would touch me there, even if it was just once, but it can't happen because my husband is extremely possessive over me.

I don't want you to think that I am a lesbian because it's simply not true. Some of my most erotic fantasies have been about Victor as well. In fact...a threesome with him and Tea would be a dream come true. Then there is my husband Todd. I love him and I've always been attracted to him like a moth to a flame, but that doesn't mean that there aren't nights when I don't find myself thinking about getting naked with Blair, Tea or Natalie.

-Marty Saybrooke Manning