Note: All the characters and the story itself are in AU. Well I'm trying my best to stick with originality of characters but they can get a bit overboard and may also go beyond their usual streak. Further I always prefer to tell my story in the form of conversation, like you can see the characters, see their emotions but yet what's inside their mind will stay under wraps.
We start of where we left. April and Matthew's wedding didn't happened. Arizona and Callie are in frazzled state of their relationship. April is still unsure about where she & Jackson go from there, so she's inclined a lot towards Arizona. Also there are some hidden details of their friendship that are about to surface.
CRAZY EVER AFTER!
At Hospital:
Callie & Arizona walk in together to work, discussing the details of the impending board meeting about the latest proposal by April Kepner to open a PTSD cure unit in GSMH. April has pitched the idea to Arizona who has further introduced it to the board members. The board is to take a vote today. While everyone is susceptible to the idea of wasting money on something that isn't a life saving cause, Arizona & Cristina are in favour of its requirements.
Callie - I'm still not convinced, we have visiting trauma counselors for cases of PTSD, why spend millions in creating a separate unit?
Arizona - At least give Kepner a chance. She has an agenda. And it's a good one.
Callie - Look the board is busy, we're doctors. We can't afford time, just cause your bff has a so-called 'agenda'.
Arizona - Stop snapping!
Callie - I'm not snapping. Okay whatever. You're gonna attend the meeting or not?
Arizona - I am already in favour of this. April has my vote. I have a surgery, I'll see if i can make it.
Callie - Good day!
Arizona - Good-Day!
~April makes her way to the NICU looking for Arizona
Arizona - heyy what happened? Didn't went well?
April - Yes & No. God I'm screwed!
Arizona - Why? What happened?
April - The board has agreed to fund the unit, but only after they study a past case and how my counseling helped them.
Arizona - well that's a good thing.
April - No! Cause when i showed some of my past cases, they chose the full study of patient X as ideal candidature to broadcast my counseling process. They want to see the full counseling of Patient X in person.
Arizona's face went white in an instance & April knew exactly why. She continued - "Look it will be anonymous. The board wouldn't be aware of patient's identity. It'll be recorded and then we can even disfigure patient's face the video. We can even bring in voice modulation. I promise complete anonymity.
Arizona - No. No. No we can't... It's infidelity…what if...oh please no...Callie...no!
April - Look I'm a trauma surgeon. It's what I'm good at. I failed my board once, i don't do ground breaking surgeries, this project is my everything. Please!
As if Arizona couldn't bring herself to say anything, she walks off looking confused, shocked and scared.
At The Apartment
Later at their apartment Arizona finds Callie merged in some old case files of brain mapping. Callie is literally surprised to see Arizona home, cause ever since they kissed last week, Arizona has come really late at night, mostly after she's asleep or rather she was kind of avoiding to get in closer proximity with her. It was kind of confusing for her, cause she believed Arizona craves that kind of intimacy.
Callie - huh? How come you are early tonight?
Arizona - what do you mean?
Callie - Nothing...just... I'm not blind to see that you are avoiding me.
Arizona - I'm not avoiding you. I'm just...kind of busy.
Callie - Yeah sell that story to someone else...whatever Congrats! Kepner is most probably getting her funding.
Arizona - yeah about that...can you ask the board to study any of April's other patients for consideration?
Callie - Why?
One look on Arizona's face and Callie understood from where Arizona's negotiations are coming from.
Callie - oh i get it. Patient X's PTSD involves infidelity...is that's what making you uncomfortable?...it just didn't have to... I'm sorry if hits close home.
Callie knew instantly that her words went a little harsh...it was written all over Arizona's face. She stood up & went closer to Arizona. Arizona was looking down, she knew what Callie was saying was true but still hearing it aloud from her kind of daggers her heart. Callie inched a little closer and cupped Arizona's face, she could see the glitter of tear in her eyes and it caused as much pain to her as much it was causing to Arizona.
Callie - heyyy look...look at me
*Arizona looked up*
Callie - We're trying...and...Maybe this will help...maybe it'll help me understand things better...understand YOU better...just don't worry okay...
Arizona - I'm sorry you are right...just...it's okay...i'm fine...
Callie's hands were still on Arizona's face, they were looking into each other's eyes and then suddenly they sensed the touch, the feel that was sending sensations down their bodies. As if to feel that touch more, to calm those burning sensations down, that were making her knees fluid, Callie inched her face a little closer, guiding her eyes back and forth to Arizona's eyes and her lips. She could feel the heat rising to Arizona's face on her own hands; she could see the fire in Arizona's eyes that were telling her that this mere touch was doing the same wonders to her too. Callie lowered her lips to Arizona's, which were already parting, trying to catch a breath. As soon as their lips touched, Arizona gulped and backed off, breaking their touch instantly. She was out of breath and the way Callie was looking at her, weren't exactly helping her. Callie got confused.
Arizona - I'm sorry...i think...i mean...i have this patient...a little kid...i didn't check his post op...I need to go.
Callie - yeah i can tell when you are lying...
Arizona - No...I need to go...and...We're not there yet...I'm sorry
Callie - We will not be there unless we try to Arizona. You can't just walk away every time we try to move forward.
Arizona - i know...i know that...it's just too early. We need to talk first.
Callie - And that's gonna happen with you staying at the hospital all the time? What do you think I'm trying to do here? I'm trying to break all these walls around you Arizona...so i can see you...
Arizona - You don't wanna go there Callie...there are parts of me behind these walls that aren't that pretty. You won't like them...
As Callie opened her mouth to reply, Arizona's pager goes off and she walks out. Callie's sure she's not gonna return tonight.
Next day: At Hospital
April has been closer to Arizona for a long while now. Ever since her wedding was called off, Arizona has been completely supportive to her. There were never many people around her besides Jackson that really were close to her, but ever since she & Arizona became friends, they have gotten really close to each other. They have shared problems, laughs, happiness, dilemmas, everything with each other. And now April really wanted to help Arizona with her fragile relationship with Callie in a big way. Not that she was sure that Arizona will allow this kind of interference in her personal life, but still April was determined to take things overboard for once and for all and see if this could help Arizona save her marriage. She has learned that it always takes 'two to tango' and the fact that Callie has no idea about her part in her fallen fragile marriage with Arizona is a big thing to consider for April.
So, instead of showcasing a recorded version of case study of patient X, she has arranged a live broadcast for the board members in the counselling room itself. She reached the counselling room and took a moment to admire her preparation. The room was divided into two rooms with a glass wall. On the left side of the glass wall, a small table was set for her & Patient X. On the right side a long conference table was set for the board members. Two separate chairs were placed on one hand side of the table, closer to the glass wall for family & friends of Patient X. The glass wall was see through from the right side but opaque from left, so that the board members can see the counselling clearly but still the patient won't have any idea of anyone else being there. April was setting the copies of case file of patient X for everyone when Derek walked in.
Derek - Morning Dr. Kepner seems like this is gonna be a long day.
April - *smiling* Indeed it is.
*Derek took a seat and then Meredith, Cristina & Callie walked in and took their seat around the table*
Meredith - Where's Jackson & Arizona?
*Webber, Jackson & Karev walked in.*
Callie - Karev? What are you doing here?
Karev - Robbins is sitting this one out, she asked me to step in.
April's face went pale as Callie pulled on a pissed off expression on her face.
Cristina (Looking at empty chairs on family's section) - No one from the family? Come on! No friends?
Meredith (to Callie) - Why's Arizona not here.
Callie - Case of infidelity...must be uncomfortable for her...huh?!
April - As most of us are here now, and we are about to start, I would like y'all to sign the papers in front of you that abides you with keeping the patient's identity anonymous and details of this counselling should not leave this room. Failing in which will be a breach of protocol and could lead to malpractice suit. Further, you would be able to see my conversation with the patient through this glass and hear it all through the intercom. Once the counselling starts, it will not be stopped until mid session for a one hour break. You can have any kind of opinion here; your voice will not be reaching that room. Under any circumstances I won't stop the counselling mid way. The Patient has done this counseling once; he/she has agreed to do this again on special request by me.
*Owen & Bailey walked in*
April - As chief of surgery, I have requested Dr. Hunt to sit in. (turns to Callie) Dr. Torres I 'm sorry but you can't have a vote in this project, Dr Bailey is gonna step in for you. You are kindly requested to sit on this side of the table.
Callie was confused, before she could say anything, April open the glass door on the glass wall and went to the other room. The room which was in darkness until now, got illuminated and Callie's face went white. Everyone got shocked. Callie stood up and made her way towards the closer side of the glass to see clearly, something that was already so clear. Arizona was sitting in there. April made herself sit in front of her. It was all so confusing for everyone as gradually it settled that Patient X is Arizona. Callie was in shock. She couldn't believe her eyes. She still couldn't process anything. Why's Arizona in there? PTSD? Arizona? No?
Callie - What's?... What's...? What's going in there? Why. Why's she there?
Meredith (holding Callie's hand & making her sit down) - Callie...Arizona is Patient X...she had PTSD?...you ? ...how come you didn't knew ?
Cristina - How come none of us knew ?
Derek - God ! She had PTSD ? It never looked like...
Karev - Come on...this is crap...she's still nailing surgeries like a boss
Owen - Seems like her PTSD was different. It's not always visible... Maybe it has some triggers...
Webber - She had PTSD since the plane crash ?
Bailey - They all had PTSD post crash, her's was not addressed...
Callie (fumbling & panicking at everyone's thoughts) - NO ! No she doesn't have PTSD. ...And NO. I won't let anyone have a show of her miseries...our miseries...She doesn't even know that we're watching all this...No...I'm calling this off.
Meredith (Pinning Callie's hand) - Callie...her miseries were already a show...YOU showed it to us...you showed us your side...let her show hers.
Callie went speechless. What Meredith was saying, took her back to the moments when she told everyone that Arizona cheated on her.
On The Right Side of Glass -
Arizona - heyy we can keep this casual right...like my previous sessions ?
April - course we can. I'll edit out any casual other stuff we talk about. Don't worry. Just be yourself. Vent out your heart again.
Arizona - This is awkward...
April - You can do this. Just keep answering my questions honestly. Straight how you felt, how you feel and what you think about it now. I know your whole story, and the questions will be modulated accordingly. *Arizona nods*
April - So, Dr. Arizona Robbins! You lost your best friend last year, then you were in a plane crash...stranded in woods for a week with a painful open femur fracture, then you have to undergo an above knee amputation on your left leg, then you planned a family with your wife but faced miscarriage. That's a boatload of trauma to handle.
On The Left Side of Glass -
Meredith - wait !? Miscarriage? When did that happened?
Cristina - she was pregnant ?
Derek - Say something Torres?
Callie - *confused & hurt* we wanted another baby but then we lost it. It was all so awful. I don't wanna talk about it...
Cristina - I'm sorry ! Talk about it ? Talk about this ?!...Arizona went through a miscarriage and yet you took off with Sofia that night...for what ? A mistake she probably made when she was out of her mind ?
Callie - YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW IT WAS AND IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS...
Cristina - Oh i know exactly how it would have been...*looks towards Owen*...i know what it is to hold unaccountable pain inside & than lose it all...
Meredith - It is our damn business Callie. Cause you were both our friends & when we were left to choose sides...we choose you...cause all we could see was...your pain...the pain that Arizona gave you...we were never able to see what it must have been for her...
Callie - *holding back tears* SHE CHEATED ON ME ! How am I the bad guy in all this ?
Derek - You are not ! And it seems like...neither was she.
On The Right Side of Glass -
April - So when exactly do you figured out there might be something wrong ?
Arizona - I cheated on Callie. I betrayed her...I betrayed us. I wanted to blame someone for my fall...so i blamed her...It wasn't until I walked into an empty house that I realised what I have done...that I destroyed her... I destroyed us... I destroyed my family. *cracking voice* and it killed me, knowing that it was my hands that set fire to our beautiful world killed me from inside...it still do. It tore me apart, it flay my heart. It caused pain that I couldn't imagine I could handle...but then I hoped that Callie would hold me...she would hold my grounds the way she always had...she would save me from dying everyday. I never imagined that she would leave me. I never imagined that...I thought together we could fix all this...but then she walked away...she left. *tears in eyes* and then it dawned on me that it's not her, it's me. One night without her & Sofia and it all settled on me that there's something terribly wrong in all this...and it's me. I kept crying...I kept choking to the emptiness of our house... I kept thinking how could I do this ? How could I destroy us ? What's wrong with me ? And then I got the answer... that there might be something wrong with me .
April - You did try to talk to her about it ? Right ?
Arizona - yeah i did but at that point the feeling of deception & betrayal was too strong on her... She just couldn't be my saviour anymore when she was herself drowning...
April - And then you found me.
Arizona - *smiling* and then I found you. Remember how we got drunk and talked so much at the night of the gala.
April - Indeed I do. That was crazy fun. I'm so glad we are so close as friends now... So...you & Callie , you guys had lots of common friends. What was their take in all this ?
Arizona - They choose her. And I thank god everyday that they choose her. She was without me...god she couldn't have survived if they wouldn't have been there for her.
April - Then how did you survived? *Arizona looks down* How did you survived Arizona?
Arizona - I didn't .
April - So what did you do then ?
Arizona - I seeked help. I seeked you. And you diagnosed me with Post Trauma Stress Disorder...
April - The first time you acknowledged that you do have a disorder...How was it ?
Arizona - I don't know... Awful ? I'm a world-class pedes surgeon...How could be any mental setback be any good for me...that's why I was in denial for a very long time...
April - And then one day you agreed that you do have PTSD... When was that ?
Arizona - It was the day Callie kicked me out of our house... I mean her house...
April - Your house ! How was it ? Getting kicked out of your own house ?
Arizona - Yeah...my house ! When she left me...I kept myself together with our memories...they eased out the pain...the loneliness... I used to sleep at night looking at the empty pillow besides mine...remembering that we used to be together...inseparable? *tears rolling down the face* .. I could just feel her in that house...feel near me... I would just picture everything and breathe my days out...fight the lonely nights out... But then...then...
April - She kicked you out.
Arizona - yeah...and it took every last ounce of life out of me...it took every hope I ever had to seek forgiveness out of me...it crushed my every dream to get back together with her. I was dead. I was dead for her a longtime ago. But now i was dead for me. The pain, the guilt, the remorse...it was just too much... Too much for me to bear.
April - Why didn't you tell her that ?
Arizona - Why do you think it was any easy on her ? She was in as much pain as I was. I could see her pain. See how much i have shooked her... I destroyed her faith in love...love has been her only saviour...and i destroyed that. She needed something to fight her pain & if hurting me back was her way to ease out the pain...then i was happy to be that person that she could hate...that she could blame...that she could bash...It was what keeping her steady ...
April - What about you ? Clearly you had nobody...
Arizona - I.. I.. *looking desperate*
April - Ok... So Callie, she was married to George, who cheated on her...then there was Erica & as you have told me...she walked on her too and then there was the Mark Sloan...Sofia's father ! Callie's resume in love isn't exactly shiny either. But she gave second chances...she was ready to give George another chance. Then why it wasn't the same for you ?
Arizona - George & Erica both broke her heart...how much more heart-break do you think she would've handled ? Everyone just keep failing her...i was'nt different either..
April - So you do agree that Callie's decision to end your relationship had everything to do with her earlier heart breaks ?
Arizona - *looking confused* No. No...Where are you going with this ? It wasn't like this in our previous sessions ?
April - *thumping the table* Just answer the questions Dr. Robbins !
Arizona - *leaning on table* I WAS DIFFERENT . I wasn't George or Erica for her. She loved me beyond them. So it hurt her more when I broke her heart...
April - *raising her voice* But it COULD have been different if you WOULD have been the first person to break her heart...Callie could have been compassionate...
Arizona - *standing up* I didn't deserve that compassion !
April - Yes you did ! You lost your friend, you almost died in a plane crash, you lost your leg, your baby died...you made a mistake and lost your family...what makes you think you didn't deserve compassion? *Arizona was speechless*
On The Left Side of Glass -
Callie was speechless. Shocked, confused, overwhelmed all at the same time. She couldn't think, there were no words in her mouth. She was just staring at Arizona behind the glass, listening to her voice, who even through all this was still defending her. She didn't know whether she should feel happy to have Arizona in her life, to have someone who'll love her through everything, who'll love her even when all she did in return was hate her. Or she should feel sad for hurting Arizona so much, for giving upon on their relationship...for not being able to see her pain. She just kept staring...
Meredith - God ! I feel awful for not seeing all this...
Bailey - This woman is stronger than we all can imagine...look at her...still standing strong...holding herself together...
On The Right Side of Glass -
April knew she's taking things beyond limits and Arizona might never forgive her for all this, that she might lose this project completely but still she wanted to help her friend rise above all the loads of coal thrown at her. She wanted the respect in everyone else's eyes that she had for Arizona. She knew that she's kind of putting Arizona's relationship on stake with all this but a part of her knew that Callie & Arizona aren't exactly doing any better. Yes they are on mend but they aren't going any further by holding back stuffs that should have been on platter a long time ago. Holding back the true feelings had costed April her marriage, she didn't want that for Arizona. She calmed her down.
April - So ... What's done is done. How was it after Callie threw you out ?
Arizona - Miserable ! I...checked into a hotel...to spent my miserable sleepless nights... tried to pretend that nothing affects me anymore..
April - Did you had any hopes that Callie might forgive you ?
Arizona - No. None... I didn't even imagined a universe in which she'll forgive me...
April - Why ? *Arizona looks downwards*... Why Arizona?
Arizona - *raising her voice* because I never forgive myself for what I did to her...to us. Why on earth should she ? Where are you going with all this...this is not how it was in our previous sessions?
April - *extending some water* Breath in Ok. I know we didn't discuss this earlier...but we're gonna discuss it now...just be honest to yourself and let it all out... So...at that time we had already started these sessions...did it helped ?
Arizona - of course! Definitely! Talking to you...had helped me think straight through all this...
April - But it still wasn't easy...So i suggested some shutting down of emotions...some ignoring the pain and crap stuffs and seeking some...
Arizona - physical comfort ! *laughs*
April - *winks* Well I told you to keep it out of the hospital... *laughs*
On The Left Side of Glass -
Callie had enough. She couldn't handle any of this anymore. She was looking at others who were looking at her relationship being flayed piece by piece. No. They don't have any rights to dive in her personal life. They don't get to judge her or Arizona or their relationship.
Callie - *standing up* OK ENOUGH ! ENOUGH OF ALL THIS. I'm calling this off. None of you get to have any response in my life or our relationship.
*All of them were so engrossed in April & Arizona's conversation that Callie's shouting startled them*
Meredith - Callie...
Callie - NO. *making her way to the glass door*
Cristina - Callie stop...listen to Arizona...
Callie was too much pissed off at the whole scenario that she wasn't paying much attention to where April & Arizona's conversation has reached. But it was all buzzing clearly through the intercom.
April - So when was it that I suggested you to seek physical comfort ? * Arizona looks crestfallen*... When was it ?
Arizona - we don't have to go there...
April - YES. We do ! WHEN WAS IT ?
Arizona - It was after I had those surges ...
April - What kind of surges ? * Arizona goes speechless *... WHAT KIND OF SURGE ARIZONA?
Arizona - *standing up & backing off* I can't go there again.
April - *thumping the table* WHAT KIND OF SURGE ARIZONA !?
Arizona - APRIL !
April - WHAT KIND OF SURGE ARIZONA ?
Arizona - *shouting* SURGE TO KILL MYSELF. SURGE TO END THIS LIFE. SURGE TO END IT ALL !
Callie went numb. Her hands that have just reached the door knob go cold & stoned. It was like the ground beneath her has shifted. It was like a blow to her...to even think that she would've lost Arizona...that she almost killed her, shooked her ground. She went boneless in an instant and slipped to the floor. Cristina tried to reach out for her but Meredith held her back.
Meredith - no ! Let her think for herself...nothing you say can comfort her.
Karev - God ! Robbins had been through hell already and yet Torres pushed her deeper...
Owen - They both had been through hell...it just could had been easier if they would have been there for each other.
Webber - Universe screwed them big time.. I guess...
Arizona was trembling with tears. April reached out for her.
April - I think this call for a break. You ok !
Arizona - Yeah... I guess...I could use a break
April - We will talk about your amputation after the break..
Arizona - *with a nervous laugh* hmmm Charming ! * Arizona makes her way out*
After Arizona is gone, April makes her way towards the other side of the glass. One look at the disheveled Callie sitting on the floor & others looking a bit ashamed and April knew that she had hit the right spot. None of them could even pull a pleasantry .
April - So we are done for this session. I'll hopefully see y'all at 6pm again.
Everyone nodded and walked out except Callie. She pulled herself together, stood up and turned towards April. Before she could say anything, April stopped her.
April - Go ahead. Yell at me. Yell all you want. But that won't change the truth. She was hurt...as much as you were.
Callie - You think you can get away with this Kepner ? You think you are a good friend ? You think she's gonna forgive you for making a show out of her miseries... Well guess what... We're done. This is it. I'm gonna tell her all about it & then you & your project can go to hell.
April - Go ahead. Tell her. But then you'll never find out why it all happened. Why she fall apart...what exactly was her PTSD. *Callie storms off, April calls out* . She's never gonna tell you on her own Callie, cause she knows that it'll hurt you. And she can never hurt you on purpose.
➡Callie was distressed. She was frantically searching for Arizona when Leah walked into her.
Leah - Dr. Torres I'm on your service today and I checked all your post ops...
Callie - *pissed* Not now Murphy *she makes her way to the lab, Leah follows*
Leah - But Dr. Torres this patient has some complications and i would like you to have a look on her charts...
Callie - You're a resident now Murphy. You can't even figure out some random complications? I guess you need to spend more time concentrating on your work then screwing an attending.
Leah was in shock with Callie's outburst. Callie knew she went a little overboard. So she took the charts and gave it a look.
Leah - you don't have any right to comment on my personal life.
Callie - *pissed* and you have rights to screw my wife ?
Leah - You guys were separated... I didn't lure her out of your relationship. She was single...
Callie - She was married...
Leah - SEPARATED ! You guys broke up. You kicked her out...
Callie - That's none of your business!
Leah - It is damn business. Whether you like it or not...i'm here in this equation. I tell you what... I'll tell you why you are so pissed...You're not mad because your wife got involved with me. You're mad cause you did everything so everyone could hate Arizona's gut and yet she found me.
Callie - Stop It !
Leah - I mean who likes a cheating wife right ? Who likes a cheater ? You did everything Dr. Torres. You did everything so that everybody in this dam hospital would just hate Arizona.
Callie - YOU'RE CROSSING YOUR LIMITS MURPHY...
Leah - You think i fall for her ? NO. I FALL FOR HER LOVE FOR YOU. I WANTED TO BE YOU. Cause even through all this, nothing could shake her love for you. I wanted to become you in her life. *Callie went speechless* But that was never possible. Cause all she ever wanted was you, your happiness.
Callie - *ignoring Leah* I know it sucks for you...
Leah - You didn't hear me. I didn't wanna be like you...i wanted her love for you...but I never wanted to become like you. You think you are some epitome of love or something? No ! Look at yourself...look inside. You never loved her...
Callie - What ?
Leah - YOU NEVER LOVED HER. YOU NEVER LOVED HER FOR HERSELF. YOU LOVED HER FOR YOURSELF . You loved her not because she was she, you loved her because she made you happy. And you walked away when she couldn't make you happy anymore...
Callie - What the hell do you mean...I loved her even when we were not happy... I did everything for her when she lost her leg...I always loved her...
Leah - When she lost her leg ? Really ? She did the same 'everything' for you when you almost died in the car crash. And you guys weren't even tied to a marriage back then. She did that for love. What you did, was for your marriage. All you ever wanted from her, was to make you happy. You never looked for her happiness...
Callie - *handing the charts back to Leah* Book a OR for surgery tomorrow AM. *starts walking away*
Leah - I was nothing. *Callie stops* I always knew that I am nothing for her. But i admired her...i admired her love for you. You think she was unaffected with whatever you were doing to her ? Ask her the length of time you guys were apart & you'll now the depth of her pain... the pain you gave her... I was just...I was easing out the pain that you caused her...I mean I tried that...I don't think it worked though...Cause all she ever wanted was you. *Callie walks away*
➡Arizona made her way to the daycare first. Sofia was asleep, but one look at her daughter calmed her down. She went to the NICU, checked on some of her patients, crossed Karev who gave her a weird look and then finally she settled on her office couch. It always felt better after talking to April.
Callie at last found Arizona in her office. She was half asleep on couch. She went near her. The lines on Arizona's forehead were telling her that her dreams aren't that pretty, she placed her hand on her face and slowly the lines vanished. Yes she loves her, she loves her more than anything and nobody gets to tell her that she doesn't. As if the sudden fear of loosing Arizona striked her, Callie made her way to the couch and snuggled up to her. She rested her head on Arizona's chest & held her. It was the first time after their break up that she was feeling Arizona's heartbeat so close to her. Obviously it stirred Arizona awake. Arizona sensed the touch, the warmth. It felt like heaven to her. But it also told her that Callie must have been went through a bad day. Rough day with a patient or something like that. She could feel Callie's discomfort.
Arizona - Heyy you okay !
Callie - *snuggling closer* yeah...just...hold me ok...
*Arizona settled her arm around Callie & held one of Callie's free hands *
Callie - No. Hold me tighter... *Arizona tightened her grip and placed a kiss on Callie's head*... Just don't let me go...
Arizona - I won't !
Callie - Just don't ever leave...
Arizona - *Holding Callie more closer to her* - I... I never did...
They lie there in each others arms for a while and then Arizona felt some wetness on her shirt...Callie was crying. She sat up & cupped Callie's face. Tears were rolling down Callie's face and she kept on looking down.
Arizona - *with sparkly eyes* hey what's wrong ?
Callie just kept staring down. She kept on asking herself...did she really went so low that she hurt Arizona so deeply?...Was her love so selfish that she never saw where Arizona's happiness was ? She knew she didn't have any answers...but she kept on searching herself.
Arizona couldn't bear it. Callie was hurting, and all she wanted do was to take away that pain from her. So she leaned closer and kissed her. Kissed her deeply...passionately. Her hands never left Callie's face and as soon as Callie warmed to her kiss, her hands reached Arizona's neck and held her. For Arizona, it was everything. It was fire, it was ice, and it was melting. And as Callie deepened the kiss more...Arizona became more fluid and she flattened beneath Callie on the couch again. She was ready to give everything to this moment. For Callie, it was pure heaven. It was the first time Arizona was kissing her on her own & it was nothing like their earlier kiss. It was more intimate cause it touched her soul, her heart. All she wanted to do was give her everything to this kiss... To Arizona...to the love of her life. But then suddenly it settled on her. This was what Arizona has done all along. Arizona has kept on giving her everything just to make her smile, to take away her pain...to give her happiness. And she's doing the same thing now again. Suddenly it all started making sense to Callie...so she pulled back from the kiss and stood up abruptly, ready to leave. As she was about to leave, Arizona lunged forward and took hold of her hands. She was still dizzy from the kiss.
Arizona - What's wrong ?
Callie - I have to go...
Arizona - *she pulled Callie & made her sit in front of her * is it me ? Did i do something wrong?
Callie - No. You never did anything wrong. I guess I'm the wrong one.
A part of Callie was hurt, because she was never able to see this side of Arizona, a part of her was pissed off because Arizona never showed her hurting side to her. Arizona never trusted her with her hurting side...or she didn't wanted to hurt her...maybe that's why. Maybe it was cause She always seeked happiness...She didn't knew. Her emotions were turmoil...
Arizona - No. God. Callie please tell me...what's wrong...
Callie was again staring into nothingness so Arizona cupped her face again...
Arizona - Look at me... *Callie didn't looked up* HEYYY ! DO. NOT. SHUT ME OUT. OKAY...
Callie - *removing Arizona's hands from her face & standing up* Shut you out ? I'm shutting you out ? I'M SHUTTING YOU OUT ? It's not me, it's you god dammit ! It's YOU ! You are the one shutting me out. You are the one plastering a shiny face just to make me happy...well congratulations! Look I 'm so happy.
Callie storms out of the room...leaving Arizona speechless.
↪↪ Will Callie & Arizona go back for the second session? Will there be a second session ? Will they come out stronger out of this or will they fall apart being unable to bear so much pain. Come back for chapter 2 for more on the story. Hope you guys enjoyed it.