So I have decided to start another new story! I wasn't really planning on it, but after speaking to one of my reviewers (the name will stay anonymous) I felt very inspired to write this. It might sound similar to "45 Things we do Together" but its going to be very different. You might like it, you might not, but either way give it a try ;-)

This story is slightly ooc for both Eli and Clare personality wise, and I am not basing any of this off of what's happened so far on the show! This whole story WILL be in Clare's POV. It's based off a true story, and by that I think we ALL have been there before, or anyone who hasn't will someday.

Enjoy ;-)

"First Times"

Chapter 1: First real crush

(Clare Edwards-14 years old, Eli Goldsworthy-15 years old.)

I have always been so shy around boys. I'm of course at that awkward age, where everything happens. Most of the girls in my school are already taken by some boy. They walk in the halls hand in hand, snuggled up in the cafeteria, or sneaking kisses.

I myself feel very pressured when I see this, but at the same time I cant help but wonder what is it like? I want to know what it is like to be in a relationship. I want to have a special someone to call my boyfriend. I want to know what its like to hold hands, hold each other, whisper endless sweet things to each other, cuddle, and just about everything I know of in a relationship.

But what I really wanted was that first kiss. A first kiss is always so special to every girl. My whole life I dreamt that I would get my first kiss.

I sighed as I walked down the hallway, and gazed at him. Yes you are correct, there is a him. His name is Elijah Goldsworthy. My best friend since grade 6.

Eli means so much to me. We met in 7 grade honors English, at Degrassi Jr High. I didn't know anyone considering I had transferred from a parochial school, so I walked into that classroom terrified as hell. I was the first to walk into that classroom, and the minute I sat in my chair, I started bawling. Eli took a seat right in front of me and got at my level. He asked, "Hey, Hey, what's wrong?"

I had told him about how I was just scared and didn't know anyone, and he giving the best first impression stood up and held out his arms to hug me. From there we became friends, and within that week I started to develop feelings for him.

Today we are still very close friends, and are almost inseparable, but sadly he is taken by Imogen Moreno. Spoiled skinny little harajuku girl who wants everything to go her way.

Before I could even try to walk over to Eli, Imogen pushed me out of the way and ran over to Eli to give him a hug and kiss.

I frowned and walked away towards the outside.

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I sat on the bench and covered my teary eyed face. I just can't take the fact that the boy who I like is already with someone else. He doesn't even know that I like him more than a friend. I'm just hopeless.

I felt a hand on my shoulder. "Clare?"

I removed my hands from my face and looked up at the voice. It was Eli. Oh crap how am I going to explain this? I stayed silent and just looked at him with my sad eyes.

Eli moved his hand off of my shoulder. "Why are you crying?" He asked casually.

I looked at his as if he was stupid and shook my head and got off the bench walking away from him.

Eli followed me, and grabbed my wrist. "No, don't you walk away from me." He pulled my arm slightly.

I stopped and gave him a hurt look. "Why? All you ever do is ditch me for your girlfriend!" I raised my voice of anger and snatched my wrist out of his grip.

Eli stopped in his track and gave me a hurt look back. "Really? Cause I was just about to tell you that Imogen cheated on me, and that I broke up with her."

My face turned to shock. "Oh. I-I'm sorry." I walked over to him and tried to wrap my arms around him to hug him, but he pushed me off."

"An I was going to ask if we could go see a movie." He continued looking the other way.

"B-but we still ca." I got cut off by him.

"No if that's really how you're going to act, then no. Just forget it." He said sternly and walked away.

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I sat at the dot with my other friend Adam, drinking a latte.

"Hey everything alright?" he asked. "You're being awfully quiet."

I smiled small. "Eli's mad at me."

"What happened? You know he just broke up with Imogen, and isn't exactly pleased that she cheated and got pregnant with another man?"

I didn't know the last part. "She got pregnant? But she's only 15."

Adam sighed. "Yeah kind of a shame. She apparently had been seeing Owen for the past 3 months of her and Eli's relationship."

I looked down at my feet. "Wow and he really cared about her. I'm such a horrible friend."

Adam placed his hand comfort over mine. "You're not a horrible friend. Eli loves and cares about you so much."

My eyes widened. And looked up at Adam.

Adam moved his hand away to cover his mouth. "oops!"

"He really said that? About me?" I asked Adam with wide eyes.

"Well I don't know about the love part, but he told me that he cares so much about you and by love, I don't really know if he meant…you know?" He gestured in air quotes.

I sighed and picked up my latte.

"Clare I know you like him, and I think it's very sweet that you care so much about him, but don't be hurt. He will turn around and apologize. I'm sure of it."

I smiled. "Thanks Adam."

Adam smiled back. "Anytime."

I heard my phone go off. It was a text from Eli.

Eli: "Meet me at the school at 7:30 tonight. We need to talk."

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