Love Is Destined To Be Bittersweet
A year had passed since the day I had eternally bound myself to Draco, and in turn, set in motion a small chain of events that I couldn't have seen comming. Fred had stopped talking to me, and every day it killed me just a little bit more inside. Harry didn't trust me anymore and I overheard him telling Dumbledore that the amulet should be taken from me and kept safe since I was no longer a suitable guardian. I just wanted to cry. Draco was extremely distant, and has been especially avoiding me lately. And now, it's the first night back at Hogwarts, and I had changed drastically.
My long brown hair, which I had actually maintained, and cherished, was frizzy, full of split ends, and always up in a tight bun at the base of my skull. I didn't wear my usual makeup, and didn't bother with anything of the sort. Josephine had not yet given up on me, she still insisted on dragging me to quidditch matches to cheer on the team, to Hogs Meade for window shopping, and was in fact, sitting across from me on her bed chattering away and laughing at her own jokes, while I sat quietly, twirling a strand of hair and trying to think of better days when I would have sincerely enjoyed this time with her.
"And then, you will never believe what he said! He wants to get married after Hogwarts! Isn't that so sweet?" she gushed, hands clasped in her lap, eyes searching my face for any sort of reaction or approval on my part.
I couldn't answer, I couldn't even breathe, memories of the dark room, and all those people, whom I never met staring at me, Voldemort leering at me in the darkest of ways, Punching Draco, all of those images flooded my mind at once without even the slightest warning. And I hadn't even realized I had started crying.
"What, did I say something wrong? Oh babes, don't cry." She scooted over beside me and hugged me, letting me rest my forehead on her shoulder as I sniffed and tried to stop crying.
"That's it; you have been acting so weird. I've tried to help you, but I really cant do a thing unless you tell me, what happened? This is our final year here; we have to have happy memories. So please, open up."
I took some shaky, but deep breathes and sat up straight, and looked her in the eyes, and figured, Voldemort knew already, why not?
"It's really complicated, so, wait until I'm completely finished. You know I've been dating Draco for like, ever. Well, I've also been keeping a few things from you." I went into detail about the amulet, and my aunt, my parents, and the whole background story. That the amulet was the key to defeating Voldemort and that I was to protect it until the time was right. And that, though I wasn't completely sure on that aspect, there were certain things I could unleash, and do with the amulet without it scalding me.
"and then, I was captured and forced to marry Draco so that Voldemort could legally basically kidnap me and force me to use the amulet for him, have a kid with Draco, and then he would kill us both and raise the child for evil. And now, Fred wont talk to me, all my other friends don't trust me, and Draco won't look at me. I don't know if he's angry at me, or if he's trying to protect me. So yeah, my life fucking sucks." I let out all at once, feeling a weight lift off of my shoulders, while bracing myself for the inevitable anger from Josephine over keeping all of this from her for so long.
"Oh poor babes! Why didn't you tell me?" she asked, hugging me tighter, successfully squishing the remaining air out of my lungs and nearly killing me due to shock.
"You're not mad?" I squeaked out, as she sheepishly let go of me.
"Of course not! You're going through too much right now! And I'm your friend, is my job to forgive all you screw ups, no matter how major they just happen to be." She said smiling, her eyes shining earnestly .
"Thanks." I said, smiling at her, thankful for at least having one person to rely on these days.
"And you've screwed up a lot! I mean, in times like these, if you can't trust your friends who can you trust? And if he who must not be named is after you, you shouldn't isolate yourself away from friends and loved ones. That's the dumbest thing you could do."
"Way to heighten my self-esteem oh great all knowing one." I said quietly, rolling my eyes and cringing when she slapped my arm.
"Don't be a cry baby! Now first things first, you gotta make up with your hubby!" she exclaimed, sitting up straighter, I could see the wheels in her head turning.
Hearing somebody call him my husband made me smile a bit, though it wasnt under the best circumstances I had married a guy I was in love with. I still remembered the scene when he told me he loved me, before I sorta kinda punched him in the jaw. Maybe that's why he was mad. Oh well, we was always sort of strange and moody, and he was the one who told me to punch him in the first place!
"ok, so tomorrow you will corner him and demand that he talk to you!" Josephine said triumphantly as she stood from my bed and sifted through my clothes in a rather savage manner. "we will certainly need to fix you up a tad before hand though." She murmered before jumping up from the bed and rushing over to my clothes trunk and immediately setting out to find the perfect outfit to win back me "hubby".
"Oh, you have a pushup bra! Perfect!" she exclaimed happily.
I smiled and rolled my eyes at her excitement, I used that bra for, 'emergencies'. I watched her pull out my uniform, and toss the grey wool vest over her shoulder with a look of pure disgust. When she all of a sudden yelped and fell onto the bed, terror clearly evident in her eyes.
I looked at her hand and saw horrible scorch marks covering her palms and pink sores coating her fingers and i immediately retrieved the first aid kit that every dorm had next to the entrance to the bathroom.
I wrapped her hand up as she whimpered and looked into my suitcase to see what had done it. There sat the Amulet of Apollo, in all of its horrible glory, holding dark secrets within.
I'm terribly sorry this is so short! I promise to do better, and I beg of you to review so that when I update I can do better, and so that when this whole series is done I can edit and make it even better.! Pleaseplease review!