A/N : My first Songfic (: (And my first submission.) Sorry for making Fang die ): It's how I interpreted the song.
Disclaimer : I do not own the song 'Keep Holding On' nor any of the characters from Maximum Ride. All rights go to Avril Lavigne and James Patterson respectively.
Max POV
I stared up at the night sky. The stars were beautiful. I remembered the first night we had arrived here. Fang was still with us then.
"With you standing here in comparison , they're nothing," Fang had whispered in my ear. It had been freezing cold that night. But with Fang's wings wrapping around us , it had created a warm bubble of heat and I had felt warm and cosy.
A single tear rolled down my cheek as I recalled the times I had with him. I sat alone by the edge of the cliff. The rest of the flock were asleep in the cave. I had volunteered to take first watch.
"It's been a year , Fang," I whispered to myself. "It's been hard without you. But I know you can't come back."
Fang had died a year ago. It wasn't until the day of the operation that he told me he had cancer.
You're not alone ,
Together we stand.I'll be by your side , you know I'll take your hand.
I sang to myself , remembering what I last told him before he went for the operation. "I'll always be with you , Fang." I said to myself , replaying the scene in my head.
When it gets cold ,
And it feels like the end ,
There's no place to go , you know I won't give in.
No , I won't give in.
I remembered his voice perfectly. He promised that he wouldn't give up , that he would make it through the operation.
Keep holding on.
'Cos you know we'll make it through , we'll make it through.
Just stay strong.
'Cos you know I'm here for you , I'm here for you.
There's nothing you could say ,
Nothing you could do ,
There's no other way when it comes to the truth , so
Keep holding on.
'Cos you know we'll make it through , we'll make it through.
I had to put on a brave front. I had to believe that Fang would make it. There was nothing else I could do but to have faith.
Fang POV
So far away ,
I wish you were here ,
Before it's too late , this could all disappear.
I watched Max sitting on the cliff. She looked so beautiful. I wished I could go down and talk to her , to comfort her , but I couldn't.
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end ,
With you by my side , I will fight and defend.
I'll fight and defend.
Before I went in for the operation , I had already known that my life was going to be over. There had been practically no chance of survival. But I had to promise Max that I would make it through. When I went into the operation , I imagined that Max was right by my side. I remembered the times we fought off the Erasers and Flyboys.
"It's the same thing," I told myself. "Only that this time , I'm alone in the fight."
Keep holding on.
'Cos you know we'll make it through , we'll make it through.
Just stay strong.
'Cos you know I'm here for you , I'm here for you.
There's nothing you could say ,
Nothing you could do ,There's no other way when it comes to the truth , so
Keep holding on.
'Cos you know we'll make it through , we'll make it through.
I played Max's voice in my head throughout the operation. Her last words to me. Slowly , I felt myself slip away.
Max POV
Hear me when I say , when I say I believe ,
Nothing's gonna change , nothing's gonna change destiny.
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly.
Yeah , yeah , yeah , yeah.
The tears streaked down my cheeks now. Fang had promised he would make it through. He told me that we were destined to be together , so he would survive. I had believed him. But he broke his promise to me. And now life was meaningless without him.
The flock had changed. We weren't as close as we used to be. Everybody seemed more pessimistic. Angel would usually spend the day sitting in a corner , crying. Nudge hardly ever talked anymore. Gazzy and Iggy stopped making bombs. I usually flew away from the flock so nobody would see me cry. At night we would gather back and just sleep.
Fang had been my right-hand man , my best friend , my comfort , my stronghold , and my soul mate. I felt hollow , empty and lost without him. Life was never the same without him. And it could never be the same again.
Ladadada
Ladadada
Ladadadadadadadadada
I got up on my feet and looked up at the sky again.
"I'm coming to join you , Fang!" I shouted. I had made up my mind. Since life wasn't worth living without Fang , I would just stop living and join him.
I walked backwards a few steps and stopped when I reached the mouth of the cave. I ran forward and jumped off the cliff. My natural instincts told me to snap my wings open and flap , but I ignored them. I watched as the ground came closer and closer. I was losing altitude fast.
"I'm coming , Fang," I thought to myself and smiled.
Keep holding on.
'Cos you know we'll make it through , we'll make it through.
Just stay strong.
'Cos you know I'm here for you , I'm here for 's nothing you could say ,
Nothing you could do ,
There's no other way when it comes to the truth , so
Keep holding on.
'Cos you know we'll make it through , we'll make it through.
Suddenly , I felt something grab me by my arms. I started to rise upwards again. I looked up and saw ……
Fang.
He switched from holding me by my arms to carrying me bridal style.
"What were you thinking?" he whispered in my ear. The sound of his voice was beautiful. I had missed it so much.
"I wanted to be with you , Fang. To join you in death."
"And abandon the flock? Max , you have to take care of the flock."
"Iggy can."
"I know what happened to the flock when I left. Imagine what would happen if you left. It would be a hundred times worse than this."
I knew he was right. The tears flowed down my cheeks again.
"I can't do this , Fang. Not without you." I whispered , knowing he could hear me despite how soft I was.
"For the flock , Max. Please. If not for them , then for me."
I looked at him.
"Just remember , I'll always be near. Even if you can't see or hear me , it will be as if I'm right next to you."
He set me down on the cliff and went over to wake Iggy up so that he could take second watch. Iggy didn't seem to notice it was Fang that woke him up. After all , he was blind.
Fang made me lie down and then traced soothing circles on my back in between my wings , just the way I liked it. I slowly drifted off to sleep. Just before I went into dreamland , Fang got up and kissed me on my forehead.
"Stay. For the flock and for me. Take care. I love you," he whispered in my ear and flew off into the darkness.
Keep holding on.
Keep holding on.
I dreamt of Fang that night. He wasn't with us , but he was watching over us from above.
Fang POV
There's nothing you could say ,
Nothing you could do ,
There's no other way when it comes to the truth , so
Keep holding on.
'Cos you know we'll make it through , we'll make it through.
I took Max's last words to me before I died and I sang it to her every night before she slept. To remind her to let destiny take its own course and that the time when she would join me would come on its own.
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