Author's Note: I have entered (more like re-entered) my vampire phase and so ta-da, we have this! An Edward/Bella story (I'll call it Edella for short). Vampires are just that cool. Now I'm going to say this right now: I hardly ever write for the "Book" section because I compare my work to the author's work way to much. I'm very picky about what I read too mostly because I hate OC's which are littered in a lot of my favourite sections. But since I love Twilight/New Moon so much, I decided to try my hand at writing fanfiction for books. Thus we have my debut piece. It takes place directly after New Moon. Now with that all said I hope you enjoy it. I had fun writing it.
Summary: Two-shot. They each had three wishes.
Disclaimer: Alice saw me with the rights to Twilight/New Moon and gave them back to the wonderful Stephanie Meyer. So, I own only my pathetic adoration of her and her awesome characters.
There are some things in life that are not meant for us.
There are some places in life that we can never reach.
There are some people in life that we can never know.
I cannot have that one thing I wish for, I cannot reach the place I long for, and I can not have him. Of all the things I want in this world, I want him more than anything else. I want to go to that special place that is only for us; the place that only we know. I want to be held in his iron tight embrace forever without end.
And yet I cannot have any of these things. It's not his fault I can't have any of them; he agreed that I would have them all (well maybe not quite 'agreed' to the first one; consented would be batter word). No, it isn't his fault. It's not even my fault. If I could convince him, if there was nothing and no one standing in our way then I would have him give me what I want right now. I know he would; I know now that he loves me; that he always loved me. He can't deny me anything.
He does not deny me my first wish any longer. The votes made sure of that. I made sure of that; he might not like it now but I guarantee he will come to like it. I chose this path myself and I won't shy away from walking it. Besides, he's always with me. When he's with me, there's nothing I can't do. I am always strong when he is with me. I don't fear anything when he is with me.
He is my strength.
He is my courage.
He is my love.
He is what makes me complete. I don't need anyone else when I have him and I always have him. Of course, I don't deny that I like having others around; his family, my family, my friends…but in reality, he is all that I need. I have him and with him I can reach that special place that is ours alone both in a physical and spiritual sense.
So will I ever have the one thing I continue to wish for, the one thing he finally promised me I could have? I want to be just like him. I know I'm not worthy of his attention or his love but I crave it all the same. The deepest wish in my heart right now is to be just like him. I have him, I have that special place. Yet I don't deserve him, I don't deserve that special place. I'm just a weak girl who manages to nearly get herself killed on a daily basis. Why does he love me?
I want to be just like him. If I'm just like him, I'll be just a little more worthy of his love, of that special place. Yet there is one thing that stands in my way–our way—and it makes me want to cry. At this rate I'll become an old lady and die without ever having my last wish fulfilled. I no longer have to fear him leaving my side but me leaving his side. If it weren't for that stupid treaty I wouldn't cry during the few times I am alone.
Crying is for those who are weak.
Crying is for those who cannot accept their fate.
Crying is for me.
Whenever I start to cry though, my angel is suddenly by my side and gently kisses my tears away. He speaks softly to me, oh so gently. He holds me in the circle of his arms and he strokes my hair. He assures me I'll have what I want somehow. When I ask when I'll have it he says 'soon'. How soon is soon? Yet whenever he says that I feel better and I know it's true. I don't question it; surely there must be a loophole; there is always a loophole.
My tears always stop then. He has promised me that he'll fulfill my final wish. He already fulfilled the other two; the third is his for the taking. I'll be just like him one day soon. I don't care what anyone else thinks either. I no longer care if it hurts my best friend because this is what I want. It is my choice, my final wish, and at least my beloved has come to understand that. Maybe my best friend will come to understand that one day too.
My longing, he promises me, will be sated. Soon, oh so soon, I'll be what I've dreamed of being ever since I met him. I'll be worthy of him. I won't have to cry anymore. Eternity with Edward is what I want. It is what I long for, my deepest and most selfish desire. I want to spend all of eternity with the man I love.
For him, I would give up my best friend.
For him, I would give up my family.
For him, I would do anything.
I wonder…can you figure out what Bella's three wishes are? Edward is next up.