This is where my imagination took me, Characters are not mine nor is Orphan Black
Cosima POV.
Panic attacks are episodes of intense fear or apprehension, when someone is stressed their sympathetic nervous system kicks in and prepares them for action by releasing energy
Then the parasympathetic nervous system steps in, and the body stabilizes to a calmer state. If the parasympathetic nervous system is somehow unable to do its job, a person will remain fired up and may experience the heightened arousal characteristic of a panic attack.
That is what is happening right now. My amygdala is hyperactive and that doesn't help seeing as it fear centre of my brain.
Sure there are times in my life when I have been scared for instance; when I was a child I climbed a tree in my back yard because I thought I had come up with a theory which would allow me to fly, but when i got to the highest peak of the tree I had an overwhelming feeling of panic and froze.. for hours I was stuck in the tree until my mother wondered where I was, and she got me down because that is what parents do, they help you when your scared.
When Helena decided to do a hit list of clones that scared me because she was an unreasonable person, at the time, who would shoot you down like a dog and not even flinch.. but she has changed because that is what people do, they change. They have too, evolution has proven that.
But all those event of panic and fear, even those added together would not out weigh the feeling of fear i have right now, I'm terrified too say the least.
''Ma Cherie you will be fine'' She whispers to me as I try and compose myself ''You will not hurt him''
''How can you be so sure?'' I ask my wife as i stare down at our son who is mearly an hour old, With his mothers features but my dark hair.
My son, who will look up at me for the rest of his life hoping to fine unconditional love and shelter from whatever life will throw at him, who will ask me all his questions and wonders of the world and expect answers, who will see me as a person he can trust and how he call call home
and he will, he can. Everything he will want or need in life I will do my best to give it too him because I am him mother and that is what mothers do, they provide for their children even if they have to go without
''I thought the love i had for you would drive me crazy Delph, but this little dude I have in my arms right now might just drive me insane''
''I know the feeling cherie, I feel it too'' She murmurs against my forehead, and that is what he will need the most, Love. A simple emotion but he will feel it everyday for his life
''I just realised a similarity between me and Jacques''
''And what is that Cosima?''
''We both started life in a test tube'' I say with a laugh.