Joker's POV

Have you ever felt insane and sane at the same time? Like you feel fine but to everyone else something is seriously wrong with you. I mean why be so serious anyway? Do you know how it feels when someone says that they understand how you feel, when they haven't gone through the same thing as you? They haven't lived your life they haven't felt YOUR PAIN! Well that's how I've felt my entire life...People never truely know how you feel. Throw on a fake smile and they think every thing is fine. But when that fake smile falls from your face...and when people start to see the distance and the confusion and...and the anger it'll be too late. The sane part of your mind is now offically gone and there's no going back because all those fake smiles were eating you up on the inside...to the point when you..finally..break. My whole life I've felt this way I've been called a freak, a MONSTER!...a-a clown. It's been that way for 28 long years! Starting the day I was born.

28 years ago

Bood curtiling screams filled the thundering evening air. Rain began to pour as the shear screams continued.

"Ok Mrs. Napier just push a little more for me" cooed the nurse that was standing to the side of the young mother. Glanceing at the heart monator momentarily seeing the jumps in the womans heart rate.

"But it's too early for him to come out!" screamed the mother She was only six months pregnant. "He's not due for three more months!" Her hands gripped the sides of the hospital bed as her contractions came closer and closer together.

"I know honey but you just have to push for us ok everything will be fine just breath for me ok deep breaths." The nurse was trying to calm the young mother. The nurse knew it was best for mother and child for the baby to come out as soon as possible, and in order for that to happen the mother had to stay calm.

Jacalin Napier was only twenty years old she never went to college because she ran away with her boyfriend, Jason Napier,right after high school. Her parents tried to stop her,but he promised her a better future where they would be happy,laugh, and be carefree. He put that perfect image in her head that he would do everything for her...She thought he would take care of her and she thought that sounded wonderful and exciteing so, against her parents wishes,she chose him. They ran away together and got married she thought her fairytale had just begun. But when reality soon set in she saw that she made the wrong decision.

They struggled for two long years. Jason stuggled to keep a job, they lived in the poor part of town in a run down apartment. Paying the bills was a pain and at one point they had to sell their car and some of their belongings to make ends meet. Jason started to get into deep depression and grew distant from his wife. He was never happy anymore he would stay out for hours drinking,doing drugs and sometimes, not to her knowledge, he would cheat on her. Things weren't really going well in their life or with one another. And it only got worse when she found out that she was preagnant.

She was was extremly happy with the news but her husband on the other hand wasn't. Once she told him he lashed out in a fit of anger. He didn't want a child an he honestly didn't want her anymore. He only kept her around so she could cook and clean. He flipped over furniture, broke dishes, threw bottles,swore, and he even hit her for the first time that night. Jacalin was never really scared of Jason, not even when he was drunk. But after that night she was. He was no longer her husband... he was a monster.

"He's almost here Mrs. Napier he's crowning, just one more big push please." the docter yelledd over her ear banging screams. He was stationed at her entrance awaiting the arrival of the next pride and joy to the world.

The nurse now knew the labor was drawing to a close, taking Jacalin's clammy hand in hers she urged her on "Ok honey he's almost here one more big push and you get to see your son."

Jacalin mustered all the strength she could from her body and gave it her all in just one more big push. She let out a long blood cruttling scream as the pain hit her with so much force,her body began to shake, but she refused to stop until the deed was done. She was NOT going to push like this another time if she stopped now.

Moments later she felt a wave of relief as her first and only son slid his way into the world. Once she heard his soft cries she was overwhelmed with joy as her body sank back into the cozy comforts of the hospital bed. Her body visibly relaxed as she started to cry along with her baby.

The doctor gasped in a mix of horror and disbelief once he set his eyes on the baby. In his arms before him was something he'd never seen before. He didn't know what he was seeing. "oh my god...nurse...come here please."

The nurse congulated the young mother for bringing a new gift into the world and finally released her hand. "yes doctor?" Coming too his side she too was in shock when she set eyes on the new baby.

Clearing his throat the doctor quickly shook off his disturbed dameaner to prevent alarming the mother. An inraged mother was the last thing her needed today "nurse cut the cord and put him in the incubator and await further instructions please."

The nurse was skeptical at first but she slowly reached for the baby taking him in her arms. "y-yes doctor." Once she cut the cord she wrapped the baby in a blanket as quickly as she could making sure to lightly cover his face and hurried out the room to clean him not wasteing any time at all.

Taking a deep breath the doctor slowly processed what he needed to say to the mother before he addressed her "Umm..Ok Mrs. Napier right now your baby is being cleaned and dressed. I will send a nurse into clean you up and once she is done I will come back in here so we can dicsuss this whole situation. Is that ok with you?"

Jacalin took a much needed deep breathe and decided to streach her arms "Yes that's fine do what you need to doc." floppping her arms back down the doctor nodded his head and turned to leave the room. "oh doc." She called after him stopping him at the door.

With as much professionism as he could muster he asked "Yes Mrs. Napier?"

With little hope in her voice she asked him the unthinkable "Could you see if my husband came please?" Her gut was telling her that he wasn't there but there was this little sliver of hope left for her husband that said she might be wrong.

Giving her a warm smile the doctor promised the mother that he would check and swiftly left the hospital room like a person trying to escape and look professional at the same time. Jacaline thought his display was strange yet amusing.

True to his word a nurse shortly came in after he left. She was an older woman with short black hair. The nurse cleaned and positioned her in a cozier position all in swift movement then quickly left without so much as a word.

Leaving Jacalin Napier all alone in the confines of a white hospital room once again with a sad worn out night stand to her left bedside and a small television. Less than an hour after giving birth.

The doctor returned shortly after she left. He came back in his lab coat and clean blue scrubs "Well Mrs. Napier we certanly have alot to talk about" He casually walked over to her side and took a seat.

" Is my husband here?" She didn't want to be as blunt with the doctor as she had been but she desperately needed to know if her husband even bothered to show up to see his only child or even his own wife for that matter.

A sad look developed on the man's face,just by looking at the doctors expression Jacalin knew the answer before he had the chance to speak. And honestly she wasn't surprised, she expected such from that man. He wasn't the man that she married. "I'm sorry Mrs. Napier but your husband hasn't come in. And from our knowledge he hasn't called or answered our calls."

A wave of pain hit Jacalin as she turned to face the wall. She knew this was going to happen yet she still felt all the pain from it. " I figured he wouldn't show up..." She whispered barely audible for the doctor to hear. He couldn't even imagine how she felt in this situation.

"So how's my baby?" A happier tone came to her voice as she turned to face him with a smile.

The doctor cleared his throat thinking of how to tell her the news."Well Mrs. Napier that's what I came to talk to you about. There were clearly complications with your pregnacy which caused him to be premature. Did anything happen before you came in that might have induced your labor?"

Dark images of her husband standing over her as she layed on the dingy floor of their apartment clutching her stomach in fear and pain flashed before her eyes. "ummm...yes auctually" Tears threatening to come to her eyes but not allowing them to spill she continued. "I slipped at home and fell hard onto the floor and landed on my stomach... I was really worried when I felt this terrible pain and..after i saw all...the blood." Thinking of those terrifiying moments she couldn't hold back her tears any longer her baby could be gone. He could've been take from her in the most grusome way. And it would've all been her husband's fault.

The doctor's heart begain to ache after hearing her story he felt bad for making the new mother relive that horrible moment. "Well Mrs. Napier i'm happy to tell you that even though your son was premature he is as healthy as any full term baby. His lungs were developed perfectly fine to where he could breathe on his own. He is truely lucky, he surprised myself and the nurses."

Jacalin's tears subsided as she heard the news. She was truely happy to hear that her baby was alright after the trama he and her went through "That is truely wonderful doc! Im glad that my baby is ok...sooo when do I get to see him?" She has been waiting patiently for a while to see her baby and she just couldn't wait any longer to see his adoring face.

"Ummm.. well auctually yes you can" Studdered the doctor "He is completly healthy after all but..."

Jacalin started to sit up from the bed anxiously waiting for the doctor to speak." But what doc? what aren't you telling me? Whats wrong with my baby!" He said that her baby was healthy and breathing fine so she demanded to know what the hold up was with seeing her baby.

Her motherly instincts were unleashed hard on the unsuspecting doctor. "Mrs. Napier i assure you he is fine!" The doctor said trying to calm her down "But...he had problems with his gentic code which I can't really explain in terms you will be able to understand" I can't even understand them myself he thought "you'll have to see for yourself Mrs. Napier."

He stood from his seat and headed towards the door. he poked his head out and called out to the nurse. "Nurse bring him in please." He walked back into the room and stood by Jacalin's side.

The nurse that was earlier by her side when she went into labor came into the room holding her baby. Jacalin was really excited to see him at this point but..thought it was odd that his face was lightly covered with the blanket he was swaddled in.

The nurse carefully placed the new born into his mother's arms and took a step back. "He will surely take your breath away Mrs. Napier." The nurse assured her with a sheepish smile.

Jacalin carefully rocked her baby in her arms. He was a small baby but he wasn't the normal size of a premie. She couldn't wait another second to finally see her baby so she carefully peeled the corner of the blanket away to reveal her baby's face. The nurse and the doctor prepared for her reaction as she lifted the blanket.

Jacalin gasped in astonishmeant. The nurse was right Jacalin was shocked but for a different reason. "He's amazing!" She cheered the nurse and the doctor surely weren't expecting this reaction from her. Her baby was the palest white she had ever seen but strangely enough it suited him quite well. Along with his pastey skin he had soft vibrant green locks that stuck to his head to compliment his unusual skin tone. She was unaware of his eye color because he was piecefully sleeping.

Curiosity getting the best of her she asked the nurse "What color are his eyes?" The nurse stepped up to the mother "well we don't know he hasn't opened his eyes to anyone yet which is quite unusual. Even when he was crying he didn't open them. He is quite the peculier child."

Jacalin chuckled at the nurse's kind words "Well everything about him is quite unusual." She started to rub her baby's soft smooth cheek with her thumb "Come on little guy wake up for mommy please. Mommy wants to see those beautiful eyes."

The baby started to stir from his mother's voice. Slowly he peeked his left eye open but not wide enough for his mommy to see the mysterious color. He quickly shut his eye and smiled at her. Jacalin giggled at his little display "Oh you wanna play with mommy smarty pants? Well lets see how u like being tickled!" She gently reached under his blanket to his little bare feet and gently begain tickling him. He wiggled a bit in his blanket and made a strange gurgling noise in the back of his throat.

"I can't believe it he's laughing." The doctor was completly surprised. 'Normal babies his age aren't even tickish let alone laughing! He was truly an astounding baby.' The doctor thought.

"Come on my little one open those eyes." Jacalin gently cooed to him in her soft voice. Giving into his mothers wishes he slowly opened his eyes revealing sparkling green eyes the same shade as his hair. "Oh you are just precious!" Jacalin told her baby kissing his forehead. "You have your father's eyes."

"So what are you going to name him?" The nurse asked while admiring the love between mother and child.

Jacalin looked over her precious baby. "That's right I haven't named you yet...how about...Jack?" The little bundle in her arms gave his mother a mischevious smile and playfully reached for his mothers finger. "That's it Jack Bartholomew Napier. My little jokester."

And at five pounds and three ounces The Joker begain his life.