Title: Confused

Rating: G

Type: Nathan/ Haley

Disclaimer: The thoughts are only mine, the show and character aren't

Background: Inside of Haley's mind after Nathan had left when coming to get her on tour

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She couldn't believe it had all happened so quickly. How the sands of time seem to run out. He had left without a word of goodbye. She was sure that people blamed her. She was sure that people didn't understand. She was young, too young almost, and while she loved him dearly... sometimes that wasn't enough.

When they had first gotten married, that first day- the first hour- the first kiss as husband and wife, she had been happy. She had been without regrets. But so many people were against this now. His parents suddenly didn't approve of her. Sure, his dad had never really shown geniune kindness to her, but then again- he never did to anybody. What surprised her was his mother. The words coming from her mouth had stung alone.

She wasn't sure who was anymore. She wasn't sure if there were people talking about them behind her back. How could she anymore?

So when he had came her, she just stood there for a moment. Not really knowing what to say, and afraid to say anything all at the same time. Yes, she loved him. But could love be enough? Could love always carry them through?

Many blamed it on Chris. Many thought that she had left because of him. But they were wrong, terribly so, and she wasn't sure if they'd ever understand. The music, brightly colored lights and beautiful notes, was her dream. Not many would have the strength to turn down an offer such as this one, and she had been one of them.

Some would call that irresponsible, and immature. But she was a teenager, and she had pushed herself to grow too quickly. She could look in the mirror for hours, and never really see herself. She didn't know who she was, and she wasn't liking who she was becoming. How could she be everything to someone else with this uncertainity? This is mainly what made her stop, take a step back and think.

She knew she would go back to him eventually, but when she'd have the strength was unsure. She seemed so weak anymore- weak in her decisions. She had hoped that everyone would understand and maybe over time they could all move past this. And maybe over time this wouldn't seem as reckless. And maybe over time they would be able to overcome these faults.

She wasn't sure he'd ever forgive her now. She wasn't sure if she'd forgive herself. She wasn't sure she was ready yet. But she was sure that she was confused.