Clueless

He was always so clueless, but she was still debating as to whether that was a good thing or not. On the one hand, he would never figure out her feelings on his own and feel awkward around her, but on the other hand, he would never figure out her feelings on his own and find the courage to come forward about his own.

What if it made their friendship awkward? She hated to admit it, but she loved those moments when a fake-out make-out would help to keep their cover. She didn't know if she'd ever get the real thing, so she settled for what she could get. She just wanted to feel his lips on hers, even if it wasn't real. It's funny how he never questioned why she was so willing to do it. If her feelings made their close friendship awkward, would she ever get even that much again?

She really did hope he felt the same way, but every day she questioned whether or not it would be worth it to tell him the truth. Sure, Tucker swore he felt the same way she did, but what if he was wrong? What if he really didn't know and was just saying that to get her to tell him?

And what if Tucker was right? Then if she stayed quiet, they'd never have the relationship they could have. They'd never come to realize the full extent of their feelings.

Then again, Tucker could be right without everything having a happy ending. If they did start a relationship, where would they be if it failed and ended badly? Would they still be friends? Or would she lose the love of her life all together? She couldn't afford to lose him, damn it!

But could she really afford the pain of seeing him live happily with someone else? Would she be able to move on if he was happy? Or would she keeping hanging on to a lost hope that was slowly eating her alive?

Maybe she should just keep her feeling to herself and tell him if he ever said something about his own feelings.

But what if he randomly disappeared off the face of the planet on her and she never even got the chance to try telling him the truth?

Would she wait for him at the risk of being alone all her life? Or would she try to move on with her life at the risk of breaking someone's heart if he ever came back?

But this was Amity Park, and her ghost boy was attached to it. He'd never leave it, he'd never leave her behind.

He'd always be there, so she would wait. Wait for the right time to tell him the truth. To tell him that she loved him. Until then, it was probably best he was oblivious.

It was probably best that he was completely and utterly clueless.

This attacked me last night and refused to leave me alone...

Comments and feedback are as welcome as always! :D

Invisible One