God, It Hurts So Much, a wicked lovely fanfic

I love Seth

I love Keenan

What….no Seth

I meant Seth

Keenan is a self centred conceited jerk who has to learn to keep his hands to himself. He's supposed to be with Donia but he's always looking for a way to touch me.

Who am I kidding I love it.

I love the way it makes me feel when he just enters the room, and when he touches me WOW I feel like I'm about to explode. Fireworks go off around me.

I used to have fireworks with Seth but they disappeared. Now when he touches me I think about Keenan.

Scratch that I think about Keenan all the time. The way everyone turns to look at him when walks into a room, the way I'm drawn to him, the way his voice is so soft, how I get lost in his eyes when I look at him and how even though he is a douche I'm completely in love with him.

"Ash………… Ash………… Ash are you okay? You've been staring into space for ages" Seth shook me by the shoulders

"Umm yea I'm fine just thinking"

"Thinking about me?"

"Where did you come from?"

"I'll tell you where I could go if you let me" he replied with a wink

I'll let you, God I'll let you ……. Aislinn get a hold of yourself

"Keenan" I warned

"Just a suggestion" and with another wink and a quick peck on my cheek he walked out of the room towards her. Donia.

She was very pretty, lovely girl, funny, caring - well when her and Keenan weren't arguing. All I could do was stare after him hoping that one day I could be as good as her. Good enough for him.

And now we're back to square one. Convince yourself you love Seth

I love Seth

I love ……… I'm never going to get past number one

Sometime I love him so much it hurts

Sometimes I'm so jealous it hurts

Sometimes I pretend so much that it hurts

And sometimes I remember that I'm not good enough for him

And God it hurts so much.