Author's Note: I also have this story posted on my Archive of Our Own account, if you want to check out stories that I don't have on here then you can find me under yourrhinestoneeyes on there...Same name really...Different fics though.

Skwisgaar wrapped his legs around the younger man's back drawing him closer, drawing him in deeper. Fuck he needed this, needed him. Sharp teeth bit into the side of his neck, he tilted his head to the side exposing more of his neck to the younger musician. Toki's nails dug into his hips forming crescent shaped bruises in pale flesh. Skwisgaar moaned, his lover's name falling from his lips like a desperate prayer. He met him thrust for thrust, arms wrapped around his neck and fingers digging into his scarred back. Toki kissed him roughly, he swallowed every moan and desperate plea for him to fuck him harder. Skwisgaar wanted to feel everything, he wanted to be fucked until he was seeing stars and couldn't walk for a week. He knew the younger musician was one of the very few men he could count to give that to him. With each hard deep thrust he hit against Skwisgaar's prostate, each shock of pleasure bringing him closer to cumming. He bucked his hips when a hand wrapped around his hard cock, squeezing, stroking slowly. Too slowly, he hated being teased. He whined against Toki's lips, the younger man smirked and ran the tip of his tongue along his jawline before biting down on his neck. Close. God he was so fucking close.

He heard a phone ringing somewhere on the floor. The younger man's thrusts slowed to a stop, Toki glanced towards the phone laying on the floor.

"Don't you fucking dare answer that." Skwisgaar said voice thick, breathing uneven.

Toki looked from him to the phone again, "What if it's something important?"

"I don't care, I'm really fucking close right now. Please Toki"

The brunette was looking at the still ringing phone again, he muttered a quick 'sorry' as he pulled out of the older musician and went to retrieve the phone from the floor. Skwisgaar flopped down onto his back groaning, his dick was hard to the point that it hurt and he swore he could start crying from the frustration he was feeling right now.

"Hello? Oh hi Mag-hey"

Skwisgaar raised his head now less focused on his painful arousal and more interested in his partner's phone conversation. He watched as the younger man tried to pull his jeans on while cradling the phone against his shoulder and carrying on a not as quiet as he figured phone conversation.

"I'm not busy...Yeah I can, we can hang out tomorrow."

Toki looked towards Skwisgaar, he looked nervous and guilty when he met the older man's questioning gaze.

The blond watched as his boyfriend left the room closing the door behind him. All thoughts of getting off were out the window at this point.

Skwisgaar retrieved his pants from the floor and pulled them back on, he sat back down waiting for Toki to come back into the room. Unless he just went somewhere else after he got done talking to Magnus. How dumb did he think Skwisgaar was, he knew who he was talking to. He spent half of his time going between Dr. Rockso and Magnus, but mostly Magnus. They had told him multiple times to stay away from the band's ex-guitarist, never exactly why. They didn't want to explain it, they didn't really want to think about it. Back after Magnus had been kicked out of the band they just agreed to forget him, to not bring him up again amongst themselves or whatever asshole they replaced him with. Up until a couple of months ago they had been doing very good with that, but now it seemed hard to avoid.

When Toki came back into the room he kept his eyes on the floor, brown hair falling over his shoulders and hiding his face from view so he didn't have to look at Skwisgaar.

"Who were you talking to?"

"Nobody"

"Bull shit you were talking to Magnus."

"So what if I was?" He countered finally feeling brave enough to look the older man in the eye.

"We keep telling you to stay away from him Tokis, he's not...You don't need to be around him."

Magnus was crazy, violently crazy; Skwisgaar still had marks to prove how violently crazy he could be with his 'friends'.

"Why not, you keep saying that, but never tell me what the fuck it means."

"He's a crap person, alright? He's a lying abusive asshole who treats people like shit."

"Hm sounds really familiar." Toki replied, he crossed his arms over his chest as he glared down at the blond haired man.

Skwisgaar stood up from the bed and approached him.

"Are you still whining about that, I told you I'm sorry. I'm really fucking sorry."

"Yeah I'm still whining about that, you made me feel like shit."

"You ruined my fucking career." Skwisgaar yelled.

"You made me feel like shit for nearly five years, it's the least I could fucking do."

Skwisgaar sighed heavily, they didn't need to have this fight again. He didn't really want to think about that, growing list of things he didn't need or want to think about.

"Just...Just stay away from Magnus, please I really mean it Toki." He said voice softer this time.

Toki still looked angry with him, he wasn't letting his guard down or listening to what Skwisgaar had to say on the subject. Why the hell did it seem like everybody hated each other anymore?

"Why?"

"He's a bad person, we've all told you that."

"That isn't a fucking reason. At least he wants to be around me, he doesn't demean me, and he treats me like a person. He doesn't treat me like I'm in the fucking way or like I don't belong."

Hurt and hate wavered in light colored blue eyes as he looked up at the taller man, daring him to say or do the wrong thing to push this over the line.

"He doesn't care about you, he's just out for himself."

"How dare you say that, you don't even know him. You guys just tossed him to the side and replaced him."

"We had to, he wasn't doing any good for the band."

"He's my friend, he understands how I feel. If I want to hang out with him then I will."

Skwisgaar didn't want to see him get hurt, Toki was always getting hurt. Physical pain he could handle, he could handle it rather fine, but it was the emotional pain that seemed to be wearing him down to nothing. Skwisgaar didn't want to see what would happen to him when Magnus finally turned on him, what there would be left if anything at all.

"I don't want to see you hurt, you're acting like a fucking child. Just listen to me for once, I'm telling you this to help you."

"So now you want to help me and now you care about me, maybe I don't need you anymore. Maybe I found somebody who actually gives a shit and actually wants what's best for me. All you fucking do is what benefits you, you don't really give a shit about me."

"That has to be the dumbest thing I've ever heard you say." Skwisgaar said.

For a second he expected Toki to punch him.

"Fuck you Skwisgaar. I'm through with this...I can't deal with this anymore, any of this. Pickles and Nathan won't talk, you've been a bastard to me lately and now you suddenly care about me? Fuck that, I don't fucking need you. I have a friend who actually cares about me now, I don't need this."

His tone of voice said that he was done, fed up; everybody was fed up lately. Fed up with each other, with the electric tension going through their mansion. Nobody could be in a room with one another without it ending in a fight or somebody storming out. Skwisgaar had hoped him and Toki could salvage something; they fought a lot, they always had, but it never lasted long. It never felt like it meant anything beyond a few harsh words, maybe a fist fight, and then they would be okay again. This felt different; nobody wanted to mend what was breaking before their eyes.

"What do you mean by that?" Skwisgaar asked, he knew, but he wanted to hear it.

"I'm...I'm ending whatever this is, I want to say that we're dating, but we aren't. I can't even really say that we're friends, I hate your fucking guts. I don't want to be around you anymore, I'm done feeling like shit."

Skwisgaar watched as he turned and started to walk away.

"Fine fucking be a baby over this, I don't fucking need you either. You think Magnus is going to be there for you, you're a fucking idiot. He'll use you then he's going to turn on you, don't fucking expect me to be here for you when it happens." Skwisgaar yelled after him.

Toki slammed the door shut behind him.

It's funny how deafening silence is when somebody realizes exactly how alone they are.