Hey all, I'm a newcomer here, so please don't be too hard to me OK? This is a fanfic of Detective Conan's couple, Haibara Ai and Edogawa Conan

LOVE IS PAINFUL…

Haibara Ai

Night had fallen. I sat silently in the basement, listening to the voices outside. The only lighting inside the room was from the computer. Beside it, a piece of paper with formula and pictures of double helix lied. I drew a deep breath when I heard his voice; a voice that could warmth my icy cold heart.

"Finally, Hakase…I can live a peaceful life without any need to worry about confronting the black wolves anymore," said that voice. I leaned my head nearer to the door to hear clearly what Kudou-kun and Agasa Hakase is talking about.

"Yeah…it's true. And I think…now it's time for you to confess to Ran about all the things that had happened for the past two years…"

My heart twitched uncomfortably. Here it comes, I thought. The worst thing that I didn't want to face. Even worse than our confrontation with Black Organization for the past one week. I listened to every words that Kudou said before I couldn't hear it anymore.

"I will, Hakase…I'm going to her house now, no longer as Edogawa Conan…but as Kudou Shinichi, the only one that she's longing and waiting for sincerely…"

A little, painful smile tinged my lips. How lucky the lady who became his heart desire. And how I wish, how I wish, I could be the lucky lady…

"Ja ne, Hakase!"

"Ah…good luck!"

I made my way back to the computer desk when the basement's door swung open. From the footsteps, I knew it was Hakase.

"Ah…Ai-kun? Shall we have something to eat?"

I didn't give slightest attention to him. Not that I didn't respect him as my guardian. Only that I had no mood to talk as well as to eat at this time. I felt a tap on my shoulder and I stopped working on the antidote of APTX 4869.

"Doushite, Ai-kun? Aren't you suppose to be glad that you finally do not need to be afraid of those men in black anymore?"

I turned back to Hakase. Tears began rolling down my cheeks even though I fought so hard that my whole body was shaking.

"I'd prefer to face them…if that's the only thing that can keep Kudou-kun by my side…"

Hakase looked at me with pity in his eyes. After all, Hakase knew all along that I loved Kudou, even without any need to hear it from me. I wiped my tears and turned back into the computer again.

"Anyway I'm not in the mood for eating right now. I need to finish up the antidote as soon as possible," I said with the cold tone that I always used.

"You want him to be happy, even though deep inside you're bleeding?"

Oh, wow. Hakase is really something, I thought. I stopped typing the formula to give a sign to Hakase that he's correct.

"He's confessing his feeling to Ran right now, but it won't do any harm if you confess to him. Shinichi will understand your feeling, and he'll be grateful that someone as good as you loves him so much that you want to sacrifice your own happiness for his happiness…"

I shook my head weakly, "Nah, I can't do that, Hakase. I don't want to make him need to choose between me or Mouri-san, even though I'm pretty sure Kudou-kun will not choose me over Mouri-san…"

However, deep down, the urge of confessing grew bigger as the time passed by. I didn't know what had gotten into me; it's so not like me to confess my love to a man! And yeah, Kudou Shinichi happiness is to be with Mouri Ran, not Miyano Shiho.

"I'm going to leave you here, Ai-kun. If you need anything, just call me…"

Yeah, I thought sadly, the only thing I need right now is Kudou Shinichi…But I can't say it to you now, can I? Even if I say it, you won't be able to fulfill my wish, Hakase…

So, what do you think is going to happen? Is Haibara going to confess her feeling towards Shinichi? Well, we'll see it in the next chapter. Please give me your review, thank you!