Edward
Everybody thinks that there is something wrong with me; they think I'm depressed or suffer badly from a lack of anger management. The dearest parents, who have enough money to build the Titanic and then sink it again by putting the rest of their money onto it, believe the solution is therapy. Throw money at me… That might work. I am the only one in this perfect picturesque family that doesn't fit in perfectly. I'm not depressed, I'm just bored. And I'm not angry, just impatient.
Laying down in the infuriatingly tepid bath water, as the rest of the family has already hustled all of the hot water, I get a chance to reflect and calm down. I hear all of the busy nonsense going on downstairs like Alice running around trying to find the right handbag to take to school today or Rosalie yelling at Emmett to stop playing the computer games, I take a deep breath before pushing myself underwater and letting all the chaotic crap from my life slip away as I concentrate on my steady heart beat and the bubbles that slip from my mouth. It was times like these that I truly relished, I hate the drivel of everything else it is so plain and stereotypical. These times I get very few of; at school – no chance, it's only ever in my sleep or when I go into the woods to get away from the disgusting warmness of my family. But not my sleep anymore; I can't even get rest when I'm asleep. My imagination has run away with the annoying little fairies and created hell… A girl that I can't get.
Not that I want her, she is irritating and stupid. But not like the other girls around Forks, or anywhere that I have heard off. In Forks, the girls are as stupid as they are willing and ugly. I could have any of them I wanted, they all but throw themselves upon me and personally if I wasn't a hormone driven seventeen year old it would sicken me. But seeing as I am… I find a way to deal with it. This idiotic girl in my dream – or nightmare – however is completely oblivious and obnoxious! It's just her and me in this ridiculous green mess and I'm there yelling at her and she won't even turn around, I find something to chuck at her – it hits her and she doesn't even flinch. I run up to her and shake her but she only turns slightly and I get her profile. What a stupid face! Her big puffy lips and her bland dull eyes make me want to scream but even if I did she wouldn't hear me she just flips her head back around and her tedious brown hair flicks in my eyes and I wake up even angrier than when I went to sleep.
"Edward!" Alice yelled in her chirpy high-pitch voice, running up the stairs and then she proceeded to bang loudly on the door. I pulled my head out of the water only a little bit calmer.
"For f**k sake Edward, we are all waiting for you!" She whined on and I slinked lazily out of the bath and sighed heavily.
"I didn't ask you to!" I yelled back at her and I heard her huff back down the stairs. I jogged back to my room slowly with a towel around my waist and a look of apathy plastered across my face as usual. The indifference between every day life was getting so tiresome. I clambered into a plain dark red shirt, although my family have enough money to take me to the moon and back; I don't like spending it. I'm sure it's just a part of my utter hatred for material possessions that do not entertain me. So I stick to the same cheap clothes, much to my sister's complete disgust. I pulled on my dull grey jeans and my dark grey hoodie; my appearance means very little to me, I carelessly ran a hand through my messy hair and skipped down stairs to meet the glaring eyes of my adoring family.
"I told you not to wait" I moaned as the glares followed me into the kitchen and I slumped against the counter and downed a cool glass of water.
"We thought you'd enjoy it more if you took us to school today" Alice said happily and annoyingly.
"Of course, you know me so well" I replied sarcastically leading the way to my one of my few true loves in life. My Volvo, now this was a thing of beauty. The dynamics, the shape, the geometrics and most significant: the speed. I couldn't help the grin that crept onto my face as I twitched the keys in the ignition and as it started to purr alive. The large family rustled into the car and I was actually pleased to see that Jasper had chosen, or volunteered, to sit next to me on the way to school. Jasper was the only boyfriend of Alice's that I have ever liked, not that she has had many but I could deal with Jasper. He was easy and relaxing and didn't chatter nonsense like the others, especially Rosalie. Emmett's girlfriend already considers herself part of the family, loving the luxuries of nearly being a Cullen. She's shallow and callous but Emmett enjoys her so I resist the never-ending list of blonde jokes and the on-slaught of insults I could unleash on her.
"So, what has you so cheery today Eddie?" Emmett asked from the back, I glared at him in the rear view mirror but his smile merely grew.
"Can't sleep" I mumbled grumpily, turning my attention back to the many fabulous details of my wondrous car. That way the car journey was considerably shorter.
"See you guys at lunch" I called as I jumped out from the car and hastily walked towards school – the quicker you're in the faster you're out. Kind of. I was speeding towards my locker, careful to not look any idiots in the eyes – they could possibly view it as an invitation for some conversation – and I think I would rather jump into the Earth's core. Concentrating on my feet was normally easy but apparently somebody had to really annoy me by walking straight into me. It slammed against me with a large crash and floored me.
"Want to watch where you're going?" I scowled rudely, gathering my stuff together to get a good look at the loser who was going to get a nice face full of revenge.
"I was, it is actually one of my hobbies – maybe you should try" Crap, it was a girl. I couldn't hit her. Her come-back was surprising but only irritated me more, she was still fumbling around on the floor picking up her stuff and I made no motion to help her.
"I don't struggle to walk, I know it comes tricky to the brain dead" I replied with a harsh smile on my face but it all disappeared when she flicked her hair backwards out of her face and stared at me angrily.
"Well, thanks for nothing" She mumbled pushing past me. I was almost paralysed in shock.
It was her. It was the girl from the nightmare. And I wasn't imagining things. It was exactly her, the irritating puffy lips, the flicking of the brown hair and the exact same eyes. What right does she have to be in my head? I turned from my original direction and followed her. It wasn't hard to catch her up; she was useless at walking.
"Hey!" I yelled after her, she turned to me, completely flustered but once she realised it was me her friendly scowl returned, creasing her forehead and she turned to walk away again. I reached out and grabbed her by the arm.
"Wha-" She started, entirely appalled by my behaviour but I interrupted her,
"Who the hell are you?" I asked angrily, she yanked her arm out of my hold and looked up at me; disgusted.
"None of your f***ing business but I think I already know your name though" She replied angrily, staring me down. Good luck with that, I've had a lot of practise. I smiled smugly; of course she would know who I am. I'm Edward Cullen.
"Yeah, you must be Jack, last name Ass. I recognise you by your complete and utter arrogance" She said quickly, at first I was impressed with her speed and her relentless anger but then, she succeeded by angering me.
"Tell me your name! It can't be worth this much effort" I demanded, trying to control my ever growing impatience and anger.
"If it's not worth it then why are you still here?" She replied with a devilish grin and turning her back on me once again. I was left standing there completely dumbfounded as she wandered off down the crowded hall-way. Why would my mind torture me with somebody so immensely nauseatingly annoying? And then make her real? I really hope that I'm still asleep trapped in some hideously vivid nightmare. No it's not my fault. She's doing this to me, that nameless witch is clearly out to get me some way. She just reached the top of my death-list, an accomplishment by far – there were plenty of people on there. Silver lining; it could entertain me for a while.
…..
It was lunch time and I was sitting at our usual table and the rest of them were being hideously couple-like. I had my iPod in and was trying to drown out the world with a better sounding one but to no avail. Luckily I hadn't seen the girl…Yet. Hopefully I had scared her off with my unforgiving stares in the hallway. I got bored quickly after finishing the hideous excuse for lunch; you would have thought with the amount of money my family had donated they could serve us higher quality slush. I left my friends behind and they barely noticed that I had even moved. I knew where I as going; the one place of peace in this hell. And to my knowledge no body else knew about it or they were clever enough not to disturb me.
I skipped up the two flights of stairs now eager to feel the higher, cooler clean air from the roof of the cafeteria. I pushed open the door dramatically and breathed in slowly, savouring the sweetness. I flashed my eyes over the space and was horrified when I saw a tiny form leaning over the corner of the low wall around the roof. Nobody would be so stupid as to come up here. I stood there fuming, waiting for my prey to turn around. And it did. It was her. Again. I stormed towards her,
"Get the f**k out of my head!" I spat out at her, pulling on her headphones so she got the full wrath of my anger. She was going positively red;
"How about you get the f**k out of my personal space" She replied as she pushed me backwards, making me stumble backwards but she just sat casually on the low wall, swinging her legs, the temptation was too much to bear to push her a tiny bit so she would topple of the edge.
"Clearly I'm alone up there" She said tapping her forehead and then pointing at mine.
"What are you doing up here?" I asked harshly, bored of her endless mocking
"Being alone, oh no wait – not anymore. If you could leave that'd be great" I turned away from her and stood a few steps backwards. I was about to scream until I was purple at her.
"This is my place. You have to leave" I instructed, not turning to her and concentrating on my breathing.
"Excuse me?" She asked dumbfounded, I turned to stare her down but her eyes were already fierce.
"God you're stupid – leave, you know as in to go away?" I mocked without laughter.
"Huh, I actually like it here" She replied confidently, 'admiring' the view
"Okay, you're new I get it – can't you prove yourself to somebody else that is dull enough to care?" I said, making my glare fractionally lighter.
"Whatever" She replied with a strong nonchalance and swung her legs around so they were dangling of off the edge of the building and she put her iPod back in and started humming tunelessly to herself, like I had never been there. I clenched my jaw tightly and squeezed my fists so the knuckles were practically white but she showed no evidence that I was even real. I let a loud aggravated roar and paced back down into the canteen. I crashed back down on the same seat that I had sat in not ten minutes before. It was nearing the end of lunch and I still hadn't calmed down. I knew if I walked into biology this mad, somebody would say something so insignificant it would make me blow and I'd be suspended, at least. When everybody else was getting ready to leave they gave me strange cautious smiles but still decided to leave me in peace.
After they were gone I put my iPod in to listen to some soothing classical music, it would calm me a lot quicker than my other peculiar taste in music. Calming down took not too long after that, and if I waited too long the teacher would scream at me and I wasn't ready for that. I jogged to biology and slinked into the room but stopped dead when I saw my new favourite person was sitting in my seat.
"Sir, there is something in my seat" I accused from the front; I didn't want to get too close to her. I didn't have that much self control.
"Yes, that would be you're new lab partner" Mr Banner said casually from his desk, "Nice of you to join us, by the way" I didn't remove my glower from her eyes, but I nodded a short greeting to Mr Banner. She was smiling coyly at me, like she knew that was my seat before she even sat in it.
"I don't need a lab partner" I said flatly, the rest of the ditsy class had turned their attention to the slight scene I had created.
"Well she does" Mr Banner explained, finally getting up and patting my shoulder sympathetically and raising his arm out – signalling for me to sit down and shut up. I looked back to him now, just to see if he was kidding. He wasn't. I sulked over to my desk and slammed my books dramatically on the table to further display my dislike of the current situation and the thing snigger beside me.
"Oh you're just a stupid little girl" I told her angrily staring blankly towards the board.
"And your about as mature as my middle finger" She replied quickly and I barely heard a single word, I turned to ask her 'what' and she had her middle finger proudly up at me, I scowled at her skinny finger as she continued to snigger to herself.
I sat there in silence, careful not to look at her again and tried to concentrate on what was happening up front; to the best of my knowledge I thought she was doing the same, but I was not going to be the one to give in first. I held my position strong and hard, resting all and any temptation to kill her, tensing and never releasing control of my muscles was a distraction to her scent that kept wafting over. It was as plain as her face, strawberries, how quaint? She was just as silent, I could hear the flutter of her annoyingly loud heart and the infuriating tapping of her pencil even though we were not once told to write anything down. When the bell rang I was the first up and shoved my books under my arm and gave her a warning look, 'mess with me again, I will not be as kind'
"Bye Jackass" She called as everybody else had left and I was nearing the door. Why was everybody so horrifically slow? Oh I remember the world and all its inhabitants were out to get me. Instead of replying I threw my arm up in the air and stuck up my middle finger at her walking out of the door proudly and a small winning smile crept onto my face but Mike Newton was waiting at the door and I looked at him completely baffled but he shrugged me off and turned his attention back to the now opening door. I decided to walk backwards to watch the on-coming charade. The curiosity of how well she played with others was just too tempting to pass up.
"Hi, I'm Mike Newton" He introduced himself cheerfully as she struggled out the door; she kicked it closed behind her and gave him a look that mirrored my previous look.
"Well hi there Mike, I'm-" She replied, looking up finally, down the corridor and met my on-looking eyes and stopped her sentence in its tracks.
"I'm busy – nice to meet you Mike" She covered up, shuffling quickly down the opposite corridor and he looked up to me, where her eyes had been. I shrugged as he gave me an asking look, and I turned back down the corridor and sulked to my next lesson.
This day had dragged on far too long, and I knew exactly who to blame. She was in my nightmare, she was in my head, my school, my peaceful place, my biology seat. She was pushing me, sooner or later my anger would explode onto her, and I was exciting to watch her squirm under my fury.