So I get these idea's in my head but I never write them down. It was 2 am when I decided to start writing this (My first Swan Queen Fic). I'm not really a writer but I love Swan Queen and really wanted to write this. So be warned the writing is probably terrible and the grammar worse. Review if you want, but don't feel obliged to tell me how bad something is because I probably already know ;)
It was almost 3 am by the time Emma made it back to their motel room. She probably shouldn't have slipped out on Regina like she did, but she had to see Lily alone first. She certainly didn't want Regina to see her get slapped for pushing Lily away and hurting her like she did. Even though Emma felt that it was what she deserved. It turned out to be a waste of time anyway because Lily wasn't even home.
After knocking to no answer and seeing no one able to form a coherent sentence inside the entire building Emma had sat in her bug watching it for several hours, waiting to see if she could at least catch a glimpse of her old friend. When no one entered or exited the building for almost two hours Emma decided to give up and return the following day as she and Regina had originally planned.
She slipped the key in the old door and pressed it open as quietly as possible, hoping that Regina was asleep. The musty smell of the old room seeped out as she edged open the door to see Regina curled under the blanket of the double bed with her back to the door. She turned the door knob as she pressed the door closed to silence the click of it latching shut. Emma stripped off her jacket, shirt and bra, leaving her in her tank top, and had just managed to unbuckle her belt and pop the top button of her jeans when the lamp next to the bed was flicked on and Regina was sitting up in the bed with a look of raw fury on her face. Emma would have been frightened if she didn't look adorably cute with her tousled hair flicking to one side and remnants of sleep still evident in her eyes.
"What the hell is wrong with you?" The former queen demanded. "Where the hell have you been?".
"I had to see Lily on my own first" Emma shrugged in defeat. She finished undoing her pants before kicking them off and letting them stay wherever they landed and slipping into the other side of the bed next to Regina.
"You had to see her on your own first!?" Regina glared at Emma in disbelief.
"Yeah." She replied simply, shrugging her shoulders and slipping further under the warmth of the only blanket in their room.
Regina stared down at Emma as she snuggled herself in the blanket. She noticed the physical signs of exhaustion that had become a permanent feature of the Saviour's face of late, but refused to let it excuse Emma for sneaking away while she had showered. "So literally two minutes after we both agreed that it was too late to go visit your old friend, you disappear, without a single word, and do exactly that?!". Regina could hear her voice rising as her disbelief in Emma's actions intensified, but didn't have the mindset to control her emotions.
"I don't owe you an explanation Regina." Emma sighed.
Regina scoffed and internally kicked herself for not being able to maintain her composure. "No," Regina started, finally able to keep her volume at a neutral level, "I suppose you don't." She clipped. "It would be nice however to be let aware of the fact that you haven't been kidnapped or left me here in a dingy motel to find my own way back to Storybooke."
Emma sat up to face Regina then, her eyes wide with her own disbelief. "I would never leave you behind Regina! Surely you don't actually believe that."
Regina sniffed and folded her arms across her chest as she lay back against her pillows to look at the ceiling. "Well, it's hard to know what to believe when you disappear without leaving so much as a note... or sending a text! Anything could have happened to you Emma."
Emma continued to stare down at Regina, her brow bending into a slight frown. "I'm sorry Regina. I didn't think.."
"Exactly, you didn't think!"
Emma's frown deepened as she continued to stare down Regina who was astutely avoiding eye contact with her, instead choosing to stare at the paint peeling off the water damaged roof. "I told you I didn't need a babysitter Regina. I can take care of myself."
Regina scoffed again. "You know what?" Regina asked, finally turning to meet Emma's glare. "Fine. I'm sorry for worrying about you. It won't happen again.'
Emma's face softened then. "Hey," Emma ducked her head to look Regina in the eyes "I really am sorry. I should have told you what I was doing." She gave her an apologetic smile then as Regina's glare turned into that concerned frown which Emma suddenly realized was becoming more frequent lately. "I don't even know why I didn't " she added.
Regina eyed Emma suspiciously. Her face was pale and she had heavy marks under her eyes, and had she lost weight? Despite voicing the opposite seconds earlier, Regina couldn't help worrying about the Saviour. She was exhausted, perhaps both physically and mentally, and now she was giving her those puppy dog eyes and Regina's resolve faltered.
"No, I'm sorry" she sighed " You're right. You don't owe me anything."
Emma wanted to tell Regina that that wasn't true. That she owed Regina more than she could know. Because Regina gave her a happy ending, even if it only lasted a year, and Emma had cost Regina her own. But telling Regina that would open her up to a myriad of emotions that she couldn't deal with right now. So instead she gave Regina a tired smile as she leaned over her to turn off the lamp.
"Lets just get some sleep okay?". She said softly.
"Yeah.." Regina replies, and it's barely a whisper, breathed out into her neck as Emma stares down at her, a small crease creeping into her brow. Regina licks her lips subconsciously because Emma face is so close to her own that it would feel completely natural if she had leaned down to kiss her. She can feel her breath hot on her skin and she wonders when it was that she had started to fantasize about Emma kissing her. Holding her. Making her scream in ecstasy.
Seemingly forgetting that she had moved to turn off the lamp, and that people generally like to have a bubble personal space, Emma continued to stare down at Regina. If the small frown on Emma's face was anything to go by, she seemed to be thinking hard about something, contemplating. Then, Emma did lean down and pressed her lips to Regina's cheek.
"Thank you.' She whispers, and her breath is hot on Regina's face, rolling down her cheek and into her ear, sending a tingle through Regina's body, straight to her core. And all she can do is close her eyes and breath in the Emma's presence, so close to her own.
"Yeah.." Is Regina's breathy reply again. She doesn't know exactly what she is being thanked for and she doesn't ask because right now she doesn't care.
Then the light is flicked off and Emma is back on her own side of the bed and Regina seems to be able to think clearly again. She remembers where they are, and why they are here, and what it is they have to do. The weight of everything hits Regina like a truck and she suddenly realises that her attraction to Emma is far deeper than she thought. Because when Emma is close, she forgets that Gold want's to ruin everyone's happy endings. She forgets that her own happy ending was ruined and that her sister is still alive and living with her soul mate. She forgets that Emma has the potential to go down a dark path that would ruin her.
Regina closes her eyes and wills herself not to cry, because everything is so messed up and all she wants to do is pull Emma close and tell her that everything is going to work out. Even if she doesn't believe it herself. But that's not who they are to each other. Emma has her pirate and Regina will have Robin again, that is what fate has decided for them. Regina feels her anger flare at the thought. Fate. Weren't they supposed to be beating fate? Regina scoffs in her head at her own delusions.
"You're cute when you are petulant by the way." She can hear the humour in Emma's voice and can't help the smile that forms on her own face as she is pulled from the torments in her mind.
Regina rolls over to find Emma on her side, smirking at Regina in the darkness. Regina realises that he has missed this Emma. The cocky blonde who takes no shit and finds light in the darkest corners.
"Shut up." Regina replies, but the smile never leaves her face.