Hi guys. Okay so I have decided to go for a sad story but don't worry I promise it will get better and much more happier like near the end. So this is all from Dimitri's POV. it's like seven years in the future or something. Lissa has two kids. Anna who is five and Rose who is one and a half but they will come into the story later. So this story is my new one and I hope you enjoy it. I just got the idea from reading a book. So enjoy. I Don't own vampire academy but I will hehehe.

Heaven is not the place you when you die

it's the place you go when your ALIVE

Chapter one: The feeling of loss

I stared down at my Rose. There would be no hugging. No kissing. No nothing. It's not like she would hug me back or kiss me. She wouldn't be able to do any of that anymore. She can't say my name or make one of her ridiculous comments that she always makes. Everyone was waiting on me. Just me. Not Lissa or Abe. Me. I was the one to decided weather to keep her here in this body or let her explore. I stroked her cold cheek. There was no life in her face at all. Everyone knew she was gone but I was holding on. I had a dream that night before I made my final decision. She was telling me to let go. That I would find another that would make me happy. I wouldn't think so. She was my soul. My only one. The doctor was waiting on me. I glanced at the switch that kept her alive. I kissed her four head for the last time and reach over turning it off. Setting her free. The doctor nodded writing down something on his sheet "She will be missed" He told me patting me on the back and walking out. I sighed and pulled the cover up over her face. This will be the last time I see her.

Months earlier

We took a trip through the nearest town. It was our day off for me and Rose. We swung our hands in time with our walk. We were talking and laughing. "I love you Dimitri" She told me. I smiled down at her "I love you too Roza" She reaches up and kisses me. Seconds later we were fighting for our lives. I reached for my steak and threw it into the strigois heart. He screamed and fell to the floor. I finished with my strigoi and looked over at Rose. She was struggling with the two she had. I rushed over but I was two late. They had punched her in the chest and face and she fell to the ground. I saw their heads burst into flames followed by the rest of their bodies. I fell down beside Rose. She was coughing "It's okay" I told her "Don't close your eye's" She nodded keeping her eye's on me as we raced to the nearest hospital. Of cause we didn't save her. She went into a deep coma to never come out.

Present day

I sat in the back of the church. Not being seen or heard. I don't think Valissa knew where I was or Christan. I kept my head low. I saw Abe and Janine, Jill and Adrian, Eddie and Mia plus many others who new her personally. I watched as Abe approached the podium. He cleared his face. He, I can tell, is a man who does not cry but sadness was going through his eye's in big waves. "Rose was very dear to me. She was always there. She was sarcastic, smart, beautiful, strong and just a smart ass sometimes" There was a few chuckles "But all I saw was a girl who may of died young but she died is the arms of the one she loved. She was happy and I know I only knew her for a matter of years but some of you were friends for life" I lifted my gaze to see Jesse Zelos and his small party. He was covered in grief even though him and Rose didn't get along they still had a relationship in the past. I looked at Abe "If I may. Can Valissa come up and say a few words about Rose?" I watched Valissa walk up to the stage. Tears still on her face.

"Rose was my sister. She was my only family I really had since my family died. She helped me through everything" She took a shaky breath and whipped away many tears "She was the best friend I could of asked for. She saved my life more times then I could count. If I was in trouble with spirit she would help me out and when we were bonded she would go mad with madness. Dimitri was her cure though. He took away her darkness with just his touch. More then I could. Thank you Dimitri" She looked right at me and nodded then stumbled off the stage. More people said things about Rose. Rose went through this in Russia. Now I have to go through it. When everyone was finished and people started leaving I staid and cried. I haven't cried in many years. A hand was placed lightly on my shoulder. "Dimka" I thought it was tasha for a moment but then remembered she was in jail. I looked up to see my mother. She sat down next to me "Oh my poor boy" I saw Victoria was crying as she sat down next to me and hugged my arm. "I am so sorry Dimitri" She told me "I-I don't know how to feel" I rubbed her back and cried into my mothers shoulder. She didn't care that when I sat up it was wet. I would of never thought that I ,Dimitri Belikov, would cry. I sat up and stood up on my shaky legs "I'm coming home" I told them trying to be strong. She nodded and patted my back "I promise" I told her. She nodded.

"I know Dimka. I know."

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