'Older I Get' teaser
The walls between
You and I
Always pushing us apart nothing left but scars fight after fight
His face was full of pure anger, as he threw his blade at me. I evaded, but it still slashed through the flesh of my cheek. 'That's gonna be a scar,' I mumbled.
The space between
Our calm and rage
started growing shorter , disappearing slowly day after day
I didn't know why, but it seemed like all we did was argue. And our fights started earlier with every argue… I just wished we could keep calm and not fight all the time.
I was sitting there waiting in my room for you
You were waiting for me too
And it makes me wonder
I was sitting on my bed, waiting for something, someone. I didn't mind the fact that he might not come, anyway. Atleast I was waiting, what meant I did not only see him as enemy. Maybe…
The older I get
Will I get over it
It's been way too long for the times we missed
Maybe, when I'd get older, I'd get over it. I'd put it behind me.
'What's done is done.' He always says.. But I just can't let it go, as I always zero in on the place where his arm should've been…
I didn't know then it would hurt like this but I think
The older I get
Maybe I'll get over it
It's been way too long for the times we missed
I can't believe it still hurts like this
Everytime I did zero in on his arm, it tugged at my heart. It hurted to know that I had done it. That it was my fault. Even though we're so much farther, I can't believe it's still hurts like this.
The time between
Those cutting words
Built up our defenses never made no sense it just made me hurt
'You know what?'
Silence. Pure silence before the storm.
But I knew what was coming.
'I wished that you'd just misjudge a jump and would plummet down to your death. That's what I wish.'
That was another stab in the heart.
Do you believe
That time heals all wounds?
It started getting better but it's easy not to fight when I'm not with you
'There's nothing to apologize for.'
His voice rang, but it was nearly audible in my mind.
'I'm sorry.'
'I'd pay attention to what I say. Even if it's for once.'
'Sorry. Your words aren't worth paying attention to.'
And that answer reveived another knife to the head.
Maybe it'd be better if I just shut my mouth, or just never come near him.
What was I waiting for
I should've taken less and given you more
I should've weathered the storm
When it was still me and him, best friends forever…
Maybe I should've taken my chance then.
Maybe I should've told him what I really feel.
I shouldn't have taken his arm, and give nothing in return.
Now I'm too late.
I need to say so bad
What were you waiting for'What were you waiting for?'
The words rumbled through my head.
What was he been waiting for?
I could clearly see those unspoken words in his eyes…
But why was he waiting to let it out?
Maybe.. I was wrong after all.
Maybe he didn't feel the way I did.
This could have been the best we ever had…