***

Amber eyes met silver across the dark room, a mutual hunger immediately seeming to form – a tentative, secret, smile being shared between them before they reluctantly looked the other way – the smiles and the sparkles gone until their eyes should fortunately meet again.

Some moments that I've had
Some moments of pleasure

***

'I can't stand this, Remus. This house. These rules. This secrecy. I want us to be what we were, Remy – not... not this, this shadow of what we should be. I want us to have those adventures we planned- going around the world together...'

A gentle sigh came from the other side of the room, 'I know, Padfoot but...'

'We can't even be us around this Merlin forsaken place. Why can't we just go somewhere else, Remy? Why do we have to stay here? There's a whole world out there... Different places, times... why can't we just run?'

I think about us lying
Lying on a beach somewhere
I think about us diving
Diving off a rock, into another moment

***

'Remember when I decided to make Snape wear a hot pink tutu and charmed it to make him dance all day?'

Remus looked up over his book and smiled gently in recollection. 'I never forget your stupid pranks on him, Sirius. It is very hard to forget such events, you know.'

'And how about that time where we broke into his dorm and banished him to that island in the middle of the great lake?'

'Now that, Sirius, that was genius – and all my idea if I remember correctly.'
A bark of laughter from the other side of the bed shook Remus' attention from the page, yet for once he didn't care it was 2am, didn't care Sirius kept interrupting him and simply joined in the laughter. For once. Just like old times.

The case of George the Wipe
Oh God I can't stop laughing
This sense of humour of mine
It isn't funny at all
Oh but we sit up all night
Talking about it

***

He was shaking. It was that what awoke the man beside him. Taking a weathered hand in his own he put a tentative hand on his lovers' chest.

'Siri? What's wrong?'

'I...' his voice dropped to a barely audible whisper 'I'm so tired, Remus... so, so tired. The nightmares, the whole pointlessness of me being here – I've gone from one prison to another... I want freedom, Remus... I want to be... I want to be with you and not have to hide it any more. I want to be me.
'I miss Prongs and Lily. I want happiness back, Remus. I want everything back. I want to remember...'

Sobs overtook him. The man beside him simply held him – a few silent tears of his own mingling with those of the man in his arms

Just being alive
It can really hurt
And these moments given
Are a gift from time

***

Watching him duel, watching him free. It made him smile. Smile for him. Smile because he was finally doing something he wanted to, something he believed in.
His makeshift family. Their makeshift family.

Then the world stopped turning. Loss immediately constricted his heart and a frosty atmosphere engulfed those around him. That smile. Those eyes. His laugh.
Gone.

He clung to the enraged teenager in front of him and tried to hold it together. Tried to be strong. But from that moment he knew that his other half was gone for good this time. Never coming back.
And it hurt.

Just being alive
It can really hurt
And these moments given
Are a gift from time
Just let us try
To give these moments back
To those we love
To those who will survive

And I can hear my mother saying
'Every old sock meets an old shoe'
Isn't that a great saying?
'Every old sock meets an old shoe'
Here come the Hills of Time