Say Goodnight, Don't be Afraid
Sean's POV
Flashback
I saw Rick pointing the gun straight at Emma I couldn't let him pass. I mean we been through a lot but still we were trying to work out our differences and to be friends. I walk towards him making sure I could stop him. His finger wrapping quickly around the trigger.
I run over and grasp the gun tightly pushing it down. Suddenly I hear a blast and a sharp pain runs through my hand. My hand is covered in blood. The I grab the gun again pushing it down again and push it down all of a sudden BANG. Rick is lying dead on the floor with both my hands covered in blood.
I killed him I thought to myself.
I fell to the floor and all I saw was black.
I wake up covered in cold sweat. I realized I was safe in my bed. That was one month ago and it still haunts me. For the past month I barely slept all I saw was that moment passed quickly through my mind each night, along with bone chilling nightmares. The worse part of it is:
No one is there to help me!
Ellie left in the middle of the night because she couldn't take the screaming. She went to live with Alex. Jay yeah he's too traumatized to even talk about it. Him and Spinner kept blaming themselves for Jimmy's shooting! He comes back to school soon, they are too afraid to talk to him and tell them it was their fault he was shot.
My family big whoop. I don't even know where Tracker is. I keep calling his cell and he hasn't replied. I bet he's afraid to talk. Because he might say the wrong thing. My parents tried to get me back home with them. I don't wanna even see them I mean they practically hit me! How would they help?
I take my coat out into the rain to take a walk in tears. I am a mess.
I just wish someone would take the time to even help me!