It was hard that night. I didn't want to leave, but I had searched time and again for a sign, something to tell me I should stay...
I had looked to Starclan to help me, to guide me...
But either there was no sign, or I had not found it, because now, I was sitting on the edge of Sorrelclan territory, ready to leave.
I wasn't a fool. I knew what leaving meant.
It meant I would never see the ones I loved again. It meant I would never be the leader I had always wanted to be, but most of all, it meant that in the wise eyes of Starclan, I would never be worthy.
Yet, somehow, I was prepared to accept those terms.
It had been nearly a moon since I had found out about my... the taint in my lineage. I was glad that Dapplestar had been honest, and had told me, but that didn't change the fact that it was still my problem.
My parents, loners, rogues, or worse, kittypets. And me? Deserving of being a part of this clan? No. Certainly not.
This place had so many memories. I remembered moons upon moons of things here in Sorrelclan. I remembered my apprentice ceremony, and how excited I was when Dapplefur, who had been the deputy, was announced as my mentor, and not to long after, how the leader had lost his last life and Dapplefur was announced as Dapplestar. I remembered countless days training with Dapplestar and her brother, Rowanblaze when Dapplestar was busy. I remembered my warrior ceremony, and so much more. But the memories couldn't matter. How could they matter if the one thing I didn't remember was the reason for all of this.
So, one last time, I sat at the edge of the territory and gazed up to the silverpelt, which sparkled above me like fresh dew. And there, I waited. I waited for a long time, or at least, it felt like a long time. I wanted a sign. I wanted something to point me back, something to tell me that I was making the wrong decision. But nothing came.
"Fine." I hissed under my breath. "Be that way, Starclan. Just watch. I don't need you."
And so, I turned my back on that territory and its inhabitants. And as I ran, there was only one thing on my mind: Don't look back, Stealthbreeze. Don't look back.