AN: The usual first: I'm French and I am sorry for the possible mistakes you might find in this story.

This is the third part of the Kadam serie. If you're new here, you should (or have?) to read "What if" and "The knight in the red armor" first to understand what's basicaly going on.

Surprise, I'm early! I know I told you I'd put this in two or three weeks but I've been inspired. And what can I say...this serie grows on me. Anyway, enjoy ;)

Alex Danvers was a confident person. Mostly. She could handle extremely stressful situations, she could fight and defeat aliens. But there was one thing that Alex coudln't do: talking about her romantic life. She had been in relationships before, several even. She was comfortable flirting with someone but as soon as she had to say those three little words to someone other than her sister, it was always a failure. Most of the time it didn't last longer than a few months but Alex was happy with it. She didn't really need someone in her life since it was already pretty complete.

Talking about sex and relationships in general was easier with only one person and it was Kara. But even with her little sister, as soon as the conversation would shift from Kara's love life to Alex's, the agent would always try to avoid it and give as little information as she could. Kara wouldn't insist of course. Firstly because she knew it made Alex uncompfortable, and secondly because she wasn't that at ease with it herself.

So when a few months ago an awkward conversation with Vasquez had made Alex question her whole life, she had been more than embarrassed. Since that day, she had become more careful and attentive to all of her moves. Alex was watching herself in a mirror more often, sighing at the short hair and the incredible amout of flannels she owned. And she became angry. What was she? A walking stereoptype? That was ridiculous. And she had noticed some habits that she hadn't been aware of. She even wondered if they were there before. The glances at people in the streets, often directed towards women more than men, the strange satisfaction watching a same sex couple interact on a TV show... Damnit.

Alex didn't know what to think anymore. Had she been lying to herself all these years? Did people on the street categorized her just by looking at her the way Vasquez had done? Was she that blind? Obviously not everyone thought of her that way. Kara never had. But Kara was naive and oblivious Alex thought.

Alex had stayed still for long moments, after walking out of the shower, looking at her face in the mirror. She didn't even know who she was anymore. Was she straight, gay, bi, queer, something else? Just thinking about it would give her a headache.

Alex had been alone and helpless for three whole weeks. She would talk to Vasquez from time to time but she felt it was awkward so she would never go into details. Even if she had to admit, knowing that someone she knew had been in the same situation was comforting. But after the third week, Alex had met someone. A woman. Long dark hair, green eyes, slightly smaller than her. It was at one of those girls night with Hamilton and Vasquez. They had been drinking in a popular bar of the city, talking and laughing. And at one point, a woman had joined them. Just like that. She had heard them talking about some guy on TV that Alex would gladly to punch in the face for the trash talk he had given on Supergirl. She had made a comment and soon had been included in the group. Alex hadn't thought about it at first but she liked that woman. Later in the night, Vasquez and Hamilton had left since they had a longer way home than Alex. And so the agent had been left alone with the woman. They had talked some more and smiled at each other. And then, when the woman said she had to leave and had written her number on a napkin before giving it to her new friend, something had clicked in Alex's mind. She had watched her leave, gaping slightly. She liked the woman; and not just as a friend. Alex was attracted to her.

And so they had seen each other more. Alone. And after a few dates, they were officially together. It had been weird for Alex kissing a woman in public at first. She was afraid. Not of what other people could think but of what her entourage would think. But then, it was easier; even if it was still impossible for her to tell anyone. But this relationship only lasted three months. Alex didn't mind. The two weren't compatible for a long term relationship and had separated on a mutual agreement. Still, in those three months, Alex had experienced what it was like to be with a woman in every sense of the term. She had tried to compare it to her previous expreriences with men but it was almost impossible. It felt so different and yet so right at the same time. When she thought about it, Alex had prefered sex with her ex-girlfriend rather than with her ex-boyfriends. Even simply being with the person, talking, walking down the street, cuddling... It felt better. She didn't want to jump to conclusion with just one experience but still...she was feeling more gay than anything. It was new, fresh and natural. And she felt good about it.

She was feeling horrible. Alex had kept her secret too long and there was only one person on this planet she had to share it with. The agent was about to knock on Kara's door. It was early in the morning, Alex knew her sister was alone and that day of the week was when her and Kara would have breakfast together. The agent breathed deeply to calm her nerves before exhaling loudly. She knocked three time on the door and waited. The few seconds that passed made Alex want to run away as fast as she could. She was so nervous.

After that brief moment, Kara appeared on the other side, dressed but not ready yet. Her hair and make-up weren't done. The young woman welcomed her sister with a big smile as usual but it soon faded when Alex stormed in, visibly troubled.

"You just forgot the donuts. You don't have to be angry about it." Kara said as she closed the door and watched her sister pace in her kitchen.

Alex gave her a look slightly confused and stopped, putting a hand on the kitchen counter.

"What? Yeah, the donuts. Sorry I forgot and then it was too late to go back." she said, more nervous as the sense of unease grew

"Are you ok?" Kara asked a little worried, putting a bag of waffles on the counter. "Are you ill or something?" she added, trying to put a hand on Alex's forehead

"No, I'm ok." the agent answered, frustrated, waving her sister's hand off.

Alex paused and looked at her feet before looking back at Kara.

"Ok." she started, putting her hair behind her ears with both hands. "What I'm about to tell you...It's difficult for me. You know it is when it comes to this kind of things" she chuckled on her last words

"Alex?" Kara said, confused and concerned to see her sister rambling

"There's a good chance...It's possible that...I'm gay." Alex finally stated.

She watched, afraid and feeling so vulnerable and tiny, as Kara's eyes widened in surprise. They stared at each other for less than two seconds before Kara eventually reacted. And it wasn't like Alex had expected.

"You're a lesbian? Well that's unexpected." she said, astonished, before pacing. "How is that even possible!? I-I don't understand. I can't even believe it."

"You're mad at me because I'm gay?" Alex started, getting angry and upset at her sister's visible frustration. "I thought if anyone would understand and accept me for being different it would be you." she added, pointing a still pacing Kara with her hand

"I'm not mad at you for being gay." Kara started, calmer, stopping in front of her sister. "I'm mad at you because you didn't tell me." she added, a little sad. "Alex, I thought that we trusted each other to never keep secrets again."

"I know." Alex admitted, looking at her feet. "But you know how I get when we talk about relationships. And it's new to me, I only discovered it like after the red kryptonite."

"Alex, that was six months ago." Kara said with a high voice. "You should've told me. I would've been there for you." she added lowering her head so she could look at Alex, putting her hands on her shoulders and causing her to finally look up

"I guess I was scared." the woman confessed, tears in her eyes.

Kara pulled Alex into a hug, rubbing small circles on her back. She hated to see her sister like this. The news had been like a bomb for her. Kara didn't really care about Alex's sexual orientation. She was her sister and that was what only mattered but it was still a big thing to know about someone. Kara thought she knew everything about Alex, from her biggest crush in highschool to the fact that she liked to add coconut chips on her ice cream. And knowing that she had hidden something that huge felt like a betrayal. But Kara could understand. Like Alex had said, she knew how it felt to be different and all the insecurities that came with it.

The silence was only broken by the quiet sobs of Alex who was clinging at Kara's shirt. Occasional tears were falling on Kara's shoulder. Crying felt so good for Alex. It was tears of relief. She knew her sister would never reject her but there was still this part of her brain, the one that never shuts up, the one that makes you feel less than what you are. It had been so hard to come out to herself, and just a week ago, coming out to Kara was inimaginable. Alex's body felt so light and liberated. All that stress, that fear... Everything had been worth it just for this moment. When Kara had wrapped her in a tight hug, rubbing her back, caressing her hair. It was the best sensation in the world. The feeling of being accepted.

Alex sniffed a few times to make the tears stop. And when she felt she was ready, she pulled back from the hug. Kara smiled at her and Alex wiped her wet cheeks with her sleeve.

"Are you feeling better?" Kara asked softly, looking in those dark teary eyes

"Yes, much better. Thank you."

"You know you can tell me anything, right? We can just...change the subject from boys to girls." Kara said, causing Alex to grin. "So...What's her name?" Kara asked on a lighter note

"What?" Alex questionned, confused

"You met a girl, right?" Kara asked again, suddenly afraid she had made a mistake

"Yes, I did." Alex confirmed with a small smile. "But we weren't right for each other so it lasted only three months or so."

"Ow..." Kara said, embarrassed

"No, it's ok." Alex quickly added. "It was a mutual decision."

Alex actually saw Kara breathe out in relief.

"Let's eat, shall we." the agent said with a smile.

SSSSSSSSSS

So Alex was gay. That was the kind of news Kara wasn't expecting. It had kept her mind occupied all day. It was a big thing but it's not like it was changing everything between them. Frankly, Kara couldn't care less about who sister was involved with. It was just love after all. But why did it felt so strange at the same time? Kara shrugged and decided to get over it. But Winn knew his best friend and saw that the young woman had been troubled all day. So when Kara started to pack to leave the office, he decided to ask.

"So...What's going on with you?" he said spining in his chair

"Me? Nothing." Kara answered slightly puzzled by the question

"Come on I can see something is on your mind. It's written on your forehead." the IT insited.

Damn it. Kara had forgotten to ask Alex if she wanted to keep it between them.

"There's nothing, really. Just this thing at the DEO." she tried

"This thing...At the DEO." Winn said, a bit exasperated, causing Kara to look down so she could hide her lie

"Yes. Anyway, I have to go." she said awkwardly, pointing her thumb at the elevator.

On that note, Kara almost ran toward the exit, sighing in relief. She really had to call her sister.

"Hey, Alex, I really have to ask you something." the young woman said on the phone, walking in the crowded street

"What is it?"

"It's about what you told me this morning. Uh, do you want me to keep it between us or is it ok if I tell someone?" Kara asked in a hurry

"Oh my God, you already told, didn't you." Alex said a bit irritated

"What? No!" the kryptonian started a bit upset by her sister's lack of faith. "I almost did." she added, guilty

"Kara." Alex sighed. "I would appreciate if you could let me choose the people I want to tell."

"Ok, right. I just needed to know." Kara stated nervously

"Actually, knowing you I should've make this very clear from the beginning." Alex teased. "You're just so bad at keeping secret."

"No I'm not!" Kara countered, knowing fully well it wasn't true

"Anyway. Do you want to eat pop corn and ice cream for dinner? I've discovered a brand new serie on Netflix." the agent proposed

"I can't. I have a thing with Adam tonight."

"Have fun then. I'll see you tomorrow for the briefing?"

"You will." Kara confirmed before hanging up.

SSSSSSSSS

A few minutes later, Kara was entering the park in front of the history faculty where Adam was studying. It wasn't planned but Kara wanted to make him a surprise and spend time with him before going to the restaurant tonight. She knew the exact time of the end of his class and according to her phone, Adam had finished since barely five minutes. And so Kara was appraoching the building with a bright smile on her face. The nine months spent with Adam had been a blast.

But when her eyes caught the scene playing just a few meters away, her smile disappeared instantly, letting the place to a look of huge surprise first and then extreme anger. Right in front of her, around twenty meters away, was Adam smiling and walking next to an other student. A woman, brunette, dressed casually but still sexier than Kara, and she obviously had bigger breasts than her. Why would that particular detail hit Kara first, she didn't know but it surely came with the feeling of burning heat building behind her eyes. And Adam's arm was wrapped around her shoulders for God's sake.

Kara was experiencing the feeling of true jealousy for the first time. Usually she was oblivious to anyone flirting with her but when an other woman was doing it to her man, she couldn't miss it. The young woman was actually too shocked to move. That was until the woman suddenly stopped, faced Adam and crashed her pink lips on his. Kara saw red and didn't think twice. Using her super-speed, she closed the distance between them in a second and yanked the woman away, placing her own body in front of Adam to seperate them.

"Hey!" the student exclaimed

"Who do you think you are!?" Kara asked, furious, glaring and taking advantage of her slightly taller frame

"Who do you think you are?" she retorted

"I'm his girlfriend!"

"Oh so you're the famous blondie Kara." the woman said with a smirk, detailing her up and down. "No wonder Adam spends all his time with me." she added, looking at Kara's chest.

The reaction from the young woman didn't take long to come but as soon as she took a step forward, clenching her fists, Adam put a hand on her shoulder, stopping her.

"Kara, please stop." he begged, catching the furious blue eyes ready to melt both of their faces

"Yes, Kara. Stop." the woman said with a tone that only made Kara angrier

"You have no idea who you are talking to." she threatened

"Ooh I can't wait to find out."

As Kara was about to litterally punch her, Adam moved first.

"You stay the hell away from me!" he shouted, pointing an accusator finger at the other student who backed away, upset. "Let's go." he said to Kara.

But as Adam was about to wrap his arm around his girlfriend's shoulder, she was already walking away.

"Hey I can explain." he called as he came running next to Kara

"There's nothing to explain!" she started, facing him

"Yes, there is!" he countered. "There's nothing between Emily and I."

"Really? Because what I saw said otherwise. She kissed you, and you didn't back away."

"Maybe if you hadn't jumped in less than a second later, I could have!" Adam snapped, frustrated. "Not everyone has super reflexes, Kara."

"What about the smiling and laughing, uh? The arm around the shoulders? What's your escuse for that?" the kryptonian started, causing the young man to look at his shoes for a second. "I'm waiting, Adam. How do you explain it?"

"I..." he only muttered, guilty and anxious

"That's what I thought." Kara said before storming away

"Kara, wait!" Adam called.

But it was too late. She didn't turn back and continued walking, fast. Until she disappeared in an alley and three seconds later, Adam watched Supergirl flying in National City's sky.

AN: Thanks for reading!

Feel free to tell me what you thought about Alex's coming out. I was really important to me. And a lot of you asked to see some jealousy so here it is! I would really appreciate if you could review or send me a PM. I will always respond.

Constructive critisms is always welcomed.

Next, Adam try to repent himself while the DEO hope to get more information on who they're up against.