Ok hello once again it's EMC! This is my new story. I want to thank Vampireegirl and Amber is a Jasper's girl. And for you who read my stories review because I won't upate intill I get at least 20! Thanks and read on.

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I Isabella Swan was 16 and was moving back to my home town of Forks, Washington. For the last 2 years I had been going to a boarding school in Australia leaving my brothers and father by themselves. I should start of saying that I have 4 brothers. Emmett the oldest, Jasper and Austen the middle boys, and Jack my twin. Our father Charlie was the police chief for all of Forks which wasn't very much I should say. Our mother Renee died when Jack and I were around 3. She had been in a car accident and spent almost a year in the hospital before she died.

After our mom's death Charlie began working more and more in till he was so rich he had no clue what to do with it. So after buying a new house and cars I went to him. I asked him if I could go to boarding school and learn how to write one my favorite passions. After 10 minutes he was done. I packed up all my old not pretty looking clothes and got on a plane to Aussie land.

It was hard leaving my brothers. Seeing as now that I was back it was probably in destruction but I loved them anyways.

I ran towards my dad at full speed unable to think about what I was doing. I hugged him as he spun me around. I giggled as I was planted back on my feet.

"The boys don't know do they?" Charlie shook his head laughing. I was always able to read Charlie. From when he wanted to kill the boys to was secretly cheering them on.

"Nope. I kinda wanted you to surprise them. See Jack made the football team and it's the last game…"

"Of course I'm surprising them! What kind of sister would I be if I didn't?" We laughed as Charlie drove through rainy Forks. He pulled into Forks high as I got I kissed my father's cheek telling him I'd catch I ride with one of the boys.

I walked towards the field seeing as the game had just ended. I found my brothers easily in the crowded field. There they were hugging and cheering at the top of their lungs together.

I walked over and jumped as I put my hands over Jack's eyes. He and I of course were the closest seeing as we were twins.

My tight low rise jeans and huddie seemed to amaze my brothers. I realized they didn't know it was me.

"Guess who." I commanded as I jumped on Jack's back.

"Is that Tina?" Jack asked my brothers. They shook their heads still ugooling me.

I jumped down and went in front of them with my hands on my hips.

"You don't remember me?" I turned to all my brothers.

"I think I would remember you honey." Austen said. I pretend to gag. "Are you really denining one of the S-bros?!"

"Well seeing as I'm S-sis then yes. And Austen we aren't from one of those families that marry the brothers." It was like four light bulbs went off at once. Jack picked me up and me on his shoulders. I shrieked as he started running around the field.

"Hey it's my turn!" Emmett yelled as he tackled Jack in pursuit to get me.

I started to fall off of Jack's shoulders only to end up in Jasper's arms. I smiled hugging him before I went over to Emmett and Jack who were now on the ground rolling around fighting. I bent down and whistled loudly in their ears. They gasped and pulled apart.

"Bella." They groaned. I put my hands on my hips.

"Go change…" When they didn't move I pointed my finger towards the locker room and yelled, "NOW!" They jumped up and ran off. I smiled walking over to the Lamborghini that was Jasper's. I lay down on the hood looking up at the sky. The stars twinkled in the sky.

"The sky so bright

The stars shinning

My family back to together

Just missin' you Ma

You don't know how much I miss you

But I see you when I look at your boys

We miss you Ma

I'll see you one day."

"Bella…" I looked up to see my brother's staring at me. I blushed before I looked down. I could tell they heard everything I just said.

"I don't want to talk about it." I said sliding off Jasper's car. "Jasper can I ride with you?" I knew Jasper didn't talk as much as the other boys.

"Yeah sure Bells." I slide into the car tears falling again.

"Brothers don't know

Broken pieces they just can't see

She wants them to hold her

But they don't know why

She misses the old days of fun and games

Her life will be different from then on

The piece that she wishes they could heal

But they can't they just simply can't."

Jasper stared at me and I looked out the window. I had a tendency to start a poem in the middle of nowhere. Like on Christmas when I knew my family were opening presents and I was upstairs because everyone left on a holiday.

"Bella…" I shook my head hoping he would understand. He became quite but I could tell he still wanted to comfort me but what he didn't know is no one could. Not Jasper, Emmett, nor Jack, especially not Austen. See Austen and I weren't close at all. I was that girl. No one special to him.

"The brother that didn't want me

The brother that didn't care

Laughed at me making me cry

He doesn't see I love him so

But I will never be enough for him my dear older bro

Austen why can't you tell I want you to care

Not Jasper nor Emmett or Jack could dare

You hurt me

You make me cry

Yet you seem to not care

Wither I'm dead or alive."

There that should get him off of my back for awhile. His eyes grew wide and I nodded before getting out of the car. I walked into the house and up to my room. I opened the bag that was now in my room. I pulled out pictures putting them all over my room. There were some from my school to my friends and brothers. I held the last picture in my hands more tears falling. "Mommy why'd you have to leave?" I asked as I put the picture up.

In the picture you could see me and my mother sleeping on the couch. I was just a baby and had a little bit of brown hair on my head.

"Hey baby girl can I come in?" I heard Charlie say from outside my door. I quickly whipped my tears away and opened the door wide so he could come in.

"Wow lots of pictures." He commented looking at them smiling at the ones with the boys and me.

"My other hobby." I told him sitting on my bed. My room was childish still the bright pink my father had painted when he first bought the house.

"Well I heard that you…good I was never supposed to have this talk with my daughter."

"Dad if this is a sex talk you don't have to tell me I know all about that stuff. I asked one of my favorite girl teachers."

"No that's not that talk but thank God I didn't have to give that talk either. No…baby girl are you…thinking about…killing yourself?" He asked reserved.

"What's life if your life is nothing?

That life you hoped for

But for some life is all

Something you can trust upon

Always to be there for you."

He nodded unsure what to take out of that. "I'm not thinking about that Dad. Don't worry now leave and watch that game you want to!" He smiled and kissing my forehead before leaving.

"Mother and father as always there

Brothers there to hold

Friends there to care

But yet you feel so alone

You don't know what to do

With your empty life

But there may be that one shinning light."

I closed my eyes and let sleep over come me. Sometimes a girl just needs her mommy.

Hm... maybe I don't know Edward is her shinning light? Guess you'll have to wait and see!!