Sooooo decided to start this story, still going to be continuing with you chose her though. Also I really need a beta so any volunteers? :)

Ziva woke up to an empty bed, which was unusual as of late. At first she was confused, usually jethro was snuggled in next to her, usually in his bed, at his house. More confusion followed as she realised she was in her own bed in her own apartment. Then the groggy haze lifted and the events of the previous night hit her like a ton of bricks. The team had all gone out for drinks, it had been Tony's idea, usually jethro refused but he'd shocked everyone, including her, by tagging along. The team didn't know about their relationship and still didn't and considering last night probably never would. Did they even have a relationship anymore? She doubted it, the way he acted last night she wasn't even sure if he'd given a shit about her really throughout the 8 months they'd been together. The evening had started out ok, relatively normal with the exception that their boss, her lover, was joining them aswell. Ziva had a vodka with Abby while Tony and Tim had beers. Jethro obviously had a bourbon whilst ducky had scotch. She had been on the right side of the group, Gibbs had been to the left, putting all of the team between them. A couple of drinks later they were all relatively tipsy, which is probably why they had agreed to playing a drinking game with Abby, who's sole intention that night had been to get everyone completely wasted. A few shots in was when it had happened.

They were all laughing and joking, Tony and Tim were leering at the various women in the bar, nothing out of the ordinary, when Tony piped up " Boss has got an admirer". This caught her attention, she swivelled round in her seat to see where Tony was looking and she saw a women, probably mid forties, clearly eyeing up her man. To make matters worse the women was a red head. She wasn't very good looking but they say that alcohol fogs the eye, well it must have because jethro was looking right back at the women with a cocky smirk on his face. Of course he was completely wasted, but so was she, and shed certainly recieved much more attention from the various men in the bar but she hadn't given any back. Unlike jethro. She had sat there sending him a murderous look, unable to verbally say anything without outing their relationship to the team, which he was either oblivious to or purposefully ignoring. Meanwhile the rest of their team had been egging him on with comments like " she's just your type", " go over there and say hello" and of course Tonys " the bossmans getting lucky tonight". She held on for dear life to her control that was in serious danger of completely abandoning her. However even with the team urging him and jethro so blatantly eyeing the women, never in a million years would she have believed that he would actualy get up from the table and go over to the women. With her sitting there. She had sat unable to stop her boyfriend from going to another women.

The rest of the team were catcalling and making a scene which seemed to amuse the redhead as she leant forward so she could see past jethro and gave them all a little wave. They had watched as gibbs had swayed were he stood, the alcohol obviously having a serious effect on him. The rest of them were in no better shape. He had a smirk plastered over his face as he slung an arm around the women's waist and tugged her into his side, he had leant in and wispered something in her ear causing the women to chuckle. With that ziva had stood and promptly informed the rest of the group that she was going to call it a night. She moved to the exit as fast as she could but not fast enough as she saw her lover tug the redheads mouth towards him and lock her in a sizzling kiss that had no rights being done in public. She had vowed she wouldn't cry, but it was in vain for as soon as she was outside in the cold night air hot angry tears forced there way out of her eyes leaving streaky trails down her cheeks. She loved him, had believed him when he had said it in return. She realised, stood outside the bar, that she wasn't worthy of his love, he had shown her that by his antics in the bar. Had proven what she had known deep down all along that no matter how much love she gave out, no one would ever truly give her it in return. She had hailed a cab and headed back to her apartment, she usually only slept there when jethro worked through the night, which nowdays wasn't often, and had collapsed in a sobbing heap the moment her feet were over the threshold. Her sobbing had only intensified when her phone had bleeped not once but twice with a text message. One was from Abby : OMG boss mans took his new lady friend into the toilets! She was all over him. You could hear her moans from outside the door! Go bossman huh? Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx . The other message from tony said : bossmans officially gotten laid. X. These messages meant by her friends as a fun way to have banter behind gibbs back had caused her body to wrack with sobs, her crying so hard that for a second she couldn't even breath. Jethro had cheated on her to her face, right in front of her and the team. Alcohol or no alcohol how could he have done that to her? If he didn't want to be with her he could have ended things. After what seemed like hours she had slowly crawled herself into her bed where her tears had lasted long into the night. Her mind working overtime knowing that whilst she was here, the man she was irreversibly in love with was sleeping with another women in the bed she usually shared with him. His hand were on another woman's body or more importantnly another woman's hands were on HIS body. Around 4 she must have slipped into an exhausted sleep which brought her to now, wishing she was still asleep, that this was all a nightmare. But it wasn't.

_ So shall I continue. Leave a review and let me know what you think.