I wish I could rip out these eyes of mine
And never ever cry again
Maybe the pain in my heart would stop
Maybe I would forget all the things they have said and done
I wish I could tear away my soul
And maybe I would see how I truly am
Am I really the monster they fear?
Or the lonely child I believe I am
Maybe I could realize everything I'm doing wrong
I wish I could feel the kind of pain others feel
The sting of a cut
The sensation that is a bruise
But I am trapped within a wall of sand and cannot be touched
I wish I could love like others do
Or be loved like others are
But I know nothing of that I am devoid of feeling this emotion
And they are devoid of feeling for me
I wish I could sleep without fear of the monster
I will become
I wish I could dream like everyone else
Instead of staying up going mad with loneliness
I wish so many things
And I know they won't come true
But still every night when they are asleep
I silently close my eyes and wish for these things