Disclaimer: Don't own Vampire Diaries, otherwise Daroline would be together :(

Summary: Damon died from the werewolf bite and everyone is taking it badly. Caroline hadn't slept because of the nightmares and she misses Damon terribly. When given a second chance will she take it?

Ever heard this saying "You don't know what you had until you lose it"? Caroline had felt it too many times. When she was little she had a best friend, his name was Kyle. At first they couldn't stand each other. She was too loud and she was always getting on his nerves. He was too silent and he was always getting on her nerves. One day he came over and they fighted as usual. He ended the fight with "Good thing I'm moving away soon, so I won't have to spend any more time with you." He didn't know that that sentence broke her heart. The day came when Kyle was moving. Caroline went over to say goodbye and surprisingly Kyle cried and said he was going to miss her. She did the same. They hugged and promised to keep in touch. One month later Kyle was in an car accident and died before reaching the hospital. Caroline cried that day and locked herself in her room and wouldn't come out until two months later. She promised herself that she would never lose someone again. But that she did. Several times.

She lost her father, when he was moving out.

She lost Elena when her parents died.

She lost Bonnie, her mother and her father again when they found out she was a vampire.

She lost everyone. including herself when Damon Salvatore died.

She wouldn't go out in the sunlight. She hadn't fed for weeks and haven't spoken to anyone. Her mother was extremely worried. None of her friends had visited her. They were always making sure that Stefan an Elena was okay, busy masking their own grief and trying to hold everything together.

"This is all your fault Caroline, if I had known this would have happened, I wouldn't have stopped Damon from staking you in the first place."

Was what Elena said right after his funeral in the middle of the cemetery. Our friends gasped but did nothing to disagree with her. Bonnie rushed over Elena and hugged her.

"Everything's going to be okay..."

Everyone heard the obvious lie in Bonnie's words. Bonnie herself was crushed over Damon's death as much as everyone else.

"There's nothing you could have done to save him, Caroline."

What Stefan said hurts the most. It wasn't reassuring it was more like a statement, proving that he still thought she was weak, even after everything.

She knew they were trying to move on but in truth they all blamed her. Not Tyler, but her.

Caroline sighed. The funeral was three months ago and she hadn't talked to any of her friends. Caroline refused to talk to Tyler after it was him who bit Damon. Caroline felt fresh tears as she relived his scream over and over again.

She quickly wiped her eyes before any tears could fall. She had promised herself she wouldn't cry anymore. She turned her lights off and crawled underneath the covers.

Sweat...ragged breath...a hand clasping hers...a small kiss...a sob..."There's nothing you could have done to save him, Caroline. Nothing you could have done..."You're weak, shallow and useless" "You'll never be his first choice"..."Save me Caroline please don't leave me..." Please...

Caroline screamed as she woke up. She gasped and put a hand over her amazingly beating heart. She looked up to see Damon starring at her, then blinked and he was gone. She looked around to see him smirking at her, blink, and there was nothing but air. She breathed in short gasps as she saw him all over her room.

By her window, blink, gone.

Leaning against her door, blink, nothing.

Then by her bed, sweat clearly visible on his skin. He reached out a hand to her and whispered "Help me..." Caroline sobbed as she ran out of her house. She couldn't take this anymore.

It won't go away
These aching memories still dance around me
Spilling over everything with beauty
I see your face in everything before me
Your voice is haunting me

She ran as fast as she could. She didn't care where she was going, as long as it was far away from here. She hadn't noticed until now that her cheeks were wet with tears. She suddenly stopped and noticed she was at the bridge where Elena's parents had drowned. Without hesitation she jumped. She landed in the cold water and screamed her frustration out. She cried and sobbed and punched the water. After a while she felt emotionally tired but didn't care. As she saw it she had two options.

One, she could turn her emotions off and leave Mystic Falls.

Two, she could kill herself.

Damon's face showed itself in front of her. Even if she turned her emotions off, what good would it do?

Above the water dawn was breaking through. Caroline swam to the surface and pulled herself out of the water. She walked away.