A/N: Wow, my first fanfic...ever! I will admit I've read more than my share of various stories but I never thought that I would never post something but here I am on this site showing you guys and gals the method that is my madness; or is that madness that is my method...I forget which LOL;). I've never seen much of a Alistair/Leliana pairing so I'm filling that quota; at least I hope so. Anyway drop a line if you like or not. Don't be afraid to voice you're opinion. I'm a tough kid...I can take it.

Oh yea before I forget: Everything having to do with Dragon Age is copyrighted and owned by the fine people at Bioware. I glad they allow people like us to borrow them from time to time.

Alistair could only look on with clenched fists, eyes filled with sadness and a face contorted into a visage of anger and resentment as his brain tried to comprehend what he was witnessing. Kayla Amell, his love, his heart was in his arms; touching the way he touches her, kissing the way he kisses her, showing him her face of ecstasy and bliss that was supposed to be meant for him. He could only think if she didn't love me then why accept the rose, my declaration of love and why even bother spending the night together if all she wanted was him. As Alistair feels his heart begin to beat faster and tear an all too familiar Orlesian accent fill his ears.

"Oh Alistair there you are; I was getting worried you would never come back with the firewood; we still have to cook the fish you caught no?".

But her words fell on deaf ears as he continued to stare; he could feel his tears begin to fall as Leliana cocks her head slightly wondering what has hurt him this badly.

"Alistair are you okay? What are you staring- Oh Maker!".

Leliana could only gasp in horror as she takes in heart-breaking sight. What surprises her is the the fact that Zevran hasn't even notice that he and Kayla have an audience. To Leliana the romance of Alistair and Kayla is something worthy of legends; how the last two Grey Wardens in Ferelden fell in love during the blight. But like Alistair she feels like this is a personal betrayal since its no secret to the other companions that Leliana cared deeply for Zevran but now she could now only feel disgust for the former crow. She grabs Alistair by his elbow trying to lead him away from the depressing sight. It wasn't easy since his body felt rooted to the ground; as if everything about him died that night and all that was left was a shell that used to go by the name Alistair.

Back at camp Wynne, Sten and Kayla's dog Jonas are sitting by the fire eating and enjoying the comfortable silence when they hear Leliana and Alistair come back to camp in a hurry. The others tried their best not to listen in but it became apparent that to them that both of them are troubled.

"Alistair are you okay". Leliana lets go of his elbow and wraps an arm around his shoulder in an attempt to comfort him. She tries to sound concern but she can't help but be angry and outraged by Kayla and Zevran's betrayal.

"Tell me that wasn't real, please Leliana, tell me I didn't just see them together. Just tell to wake up and I'll wake up in my tent with Kayla in my arms and I can hold her close and say it was all a dream. I j-just w-want t-t-this-". Alistair suddenly collapses under his own weight while putting his hands on his face. He just couldn't get the images out of his head; his beloved and the former crow naked and their bodies intertwined with each other. He wanted to cry more but he couldn't find anymore tears, just this perpetual numbness in his body, mind and soul. To Alistair this was his first relationship. He had fallen hard for the beautiful circle mage since Ostagar and confessed his feelings before going to the circle tower; Kayla was even the first woman he had slept with. His only thoughts were now what changed? What did I do wrong? What can I do to make it better?

As he continued to ponder what else he did wrong he didn't notice Leliana throw her other arm around him and tighten her hold on him as Kayla and Zevran can back to camp from their session. She could only glare daggers at them both as she continued to hold Alistair as tightly as she can.

"Leliana, whats wrong with Alistair?" Kayla said with look of curiosity and concern. As she reaches out to touch Alistair's face, Leliana immediately slaps away her hand and continues to hold him.

"Seriously Leliana what happened?".

Leliana simply lets go of Alistair, walks up Kayla while ignoring Zevran, gets inches away from her face and simply says in an angry, seething whisper:

"We saw everything"

As Leliana gathers Alistair and leads him to his tent, Kayla's face twists into a look of shock and shame. She gives Zevran a quick glance not giving him enough time to comfort or reassure her, walks back , enters her tent and plops down on her bedroll. Everything catches to her and she sobs quietly. She knows that sooner or later she would have to talk to Alistair. But for right now she would give him space. Her quiet sobs grew louder and became actually tears of regret as she has now realize the full brunt of her mistakes; knowing that they soon will have dire consequences. She knows that this single act of impulse with ruin relationships and create problems that may never be solved.

As Kayla continues to cry herself to sleep only three words repeat in her mind over and over again:

I'm sorry Alistair...

A/N: hope you like it. I haven't really figured out a updating schedule so I'll update when I can. I let all of you know when I can find a steady schedule. Anyway till next chapter...Peace;)