My first TRC fanfic. Kuro X Fay X Yui.

I love them. they are great.

I never know that fate is this unpredictable. In a second, I get what I wanted. The chance I have been waiting or whole life… the opportunity that paid with my twin brother's soul.

As we lay together on the road, full of blood; both of us look exactly the same; I wonder whether we even look symmetrical when you viewed in from the sky. Both of us, in the middle of blood pool, sharing exact physique and state; just that I am still having my soul whilst my dear brother has lost his.

People were screaming and an ambulance came. But it is too late, people. I can feel my brother's soul is gone. Some parts of my heart were gone with him too, since he and I had shared the same womb. But I don't care. I don't need that part of my heart. Now I can be him all I like and pretend… no, I can steal his life! How good is that?

As my consciousness drifted away, I could see some people came with ambulance siren. They were panicked and tried their best to lift us without hurting. Well, I might just as well succumb to this sleepiness...

"Are you awake?" Ashura (44) asked softly to his son. "can you hear me?"

"…dad?" the boy opened his eyes and spoke in painful tone, but audible. People were waiting around them; they were all waiting for an answer.

"Son… I am sorry… but your brother has died…"

"what? Yui died?" the golden haired boy shouted in surprised and immediately fall into tears. His blue orbs were shimmering with crystal clear liquid; beautiful craved. "you are joking!"

Ashura smiled. So this is Fay, his other son. He has two sons, Fay and Yui. They are twins, their genes are 100% identical to each other and they were having some difficulties separating which one is who. And although unspoken, everybody knows that they wished Fay is the one who survived.

People smiled. They left the room to give the father-son some privacy. Ashura was so glad, he didn't even reserved himself from hugging his survivor son.

"I am glad it's you, Fay."

The boy flinched a bit; but he hugged back. "but it is so awful… being alone… without Yui…"

"You will get over it, of course." Ashura assured his son. "Dad will be here for you."

"…thanks dad."

"Now we have only each other. But I promise I will be there for you as much as I can." Ashura smiled. However, his cell phone immediately rings. Both of them know what is that means. Ashura is a famous graphic designer that is always in demand. The call is mostly from his manager, Yuuko, who is a very strict and independent but competent and dependable woman of 28. They are engaged last month; the twins' mother has died 12 years ago because of a traffic accident.

"Dad… I think she is calling…"

"Let her be! I am tired of working…" Although he looked serious and mature, Ashura is a childish and selfish brat inside. He always looks for excuses from working behind his computer; be is being with his beloved son or being sick with ridiculous make believe illness. But Yuuko knows whom she is working with and always found her way to make sure Ashura is working properly.

"Dad… she will be angry, and it's not good for both of us…" Fay chuckled and patted his father's hair. "I will be fine. You should return to work. When will I be release from hospital, dad?"

"I heard that you may come home the day after tomorrow. You are surprisingly fine, Fay. Only some first degree burns, but it's so light that you won't have scar marks. And I am glad, cause you have the most beautiful skin, just like your mother."

"How about Yui?"

"…his body has been cremated. He died on the spot; we couldn't help him, you know…"

Fay looked serene. His dad hugged him for the last time, pecked a kiss on his forehead.

"am I intruding something?" a man, tall and muscular with dark hair and red eyes entered the room. He smiled. Ashura and Fay smiled too. They were already like a family. The man, known as Kurogane, is Fay's boyfriend and their neighbour.

The fact that they are homosexual couple had been overlooked by many since Fay is simply adorable and feminine. Fay, the older of the twins, is always the assertive and responsible with gentle manner that instantly likeable. Ashura has already given them his blessing; he was glad his son gets a real competent man. Yui, on the other hand, is the opposite of Fay. He is a famous delinquent; although sharing the same angelic face, he is the troublemaker and kinda antisocial. People were actually afraid of him and his harsh way. Many called them the angel and devil of Ashura family.

"Dad, I am OK since Kurogane is here… so please return to Yuuko."

Ashura, trapped within the reality and the will to run away from job, in the end gave up and sighed. "Fine; since you had your boyfriend, daddy is now lonely… see you soon then. Kurogane, I trust him into your care."

"Thank you, Mr. Ashura. I won't disappoint you." Kurogane chuckled, opening the door for the long haired father. After he closed the door and took a seat beside the bed, he touched his lover's hand.

"I was shocked when I heard the accident. Are you ok?"

Fay smiled. "I am fine. But Yui…"

"Yes, I know. I have heard the news."

"…Are you glad I am the one who survived?"

Kurogane sensed something was off. The question somehow may have double meaning in it. They were childhood friends; Fay and Yui is practically undistinguishable. Kurogane has learned to differentiate them in some ways or the other, but now he wouldn't need to think who was in front of him anymore and although he should be happy, he couldn't help but feeling something was lost.

"… I am glad you are alive. But I will be more happy if both of you are safe."

"will you … miss Yui?"

"…Yeah. Kinda. He's like the little brother to us, isn't he?"Kurogane smiled and patted his lover's cheek. "Don't think too much. It's not your fault he passed away. It's all fate and be glad you are here."

Fay smiled as usual and closed his eyes. Kurogane, catching the hint, moved closer and kissed him full in the lips.

Somehow it felt different; but it's similar. Kurogane didn't have time to think about it, as his lover drifted back into his slumber sleep.

When the door closed behind me, I opened my eyes.

Kuro has gone. The visit hour has ended and I will be alone now. Now, I can freely cursing myself.

I could see it clearly; everybody was glad Fay is the one who survived. Nobody wanted Yui. Well, being a hard child for so long, no wonder no one loves me or wished I am alive. Nobody even shed a tear for me.

I am Fay. No, actually I am Yui that has taken my dead brother's name.

I actually liked the name Fay better. Fay has some exotic feeling associated to it while Yui… is simply Yui. Fay is the better one between two of us. We shared 100% same gene; we shared the same golden hair and blue eyes. We shared the same properties. We shared the same face structure. We shared the same womb. We have the same house, we have the same parents. But everybody especially pa loves Fay better. Since I was small I was always compared to him. Our intelligent level is the same. It's just he is hardworking and always aiming for the top while I spend my time smoking and shagging girls behind the school yard. Our face and body structure is identical. It's just that I always fight and have scars all over my body, so my body tainted and not as pure as his skin. Fay is always excellent in everything; he could do housework perfectly; he could balance study and his school activity, and he is a step away from becoming the school's president. Me, on the other hand, have no interest whatsoever in housekeeping (although actually I can cook and clean, I never bothered because Fay will do it for us and anyway, people will believe that Fay is the one cooking although I was the one who did it. It happened last time when we were small. I was the first one who can cook; I did dinner for us, but pa only praised Fay for making dishes he didn't made and Fay, being Fay, never disagree and let himself get the praise in my place) and one step away from being expelled from the school.

We should have shared the same fate.

But no; we are not. Pa likes him better than me. Fay is everybody favourite; Fay is better than me; he is more assertive and I am always the one in the down side, like they said when they thought I wasn't listening:

"Look, that child; why can't he be more like his brother?"

"Fay is such a wonderful child; I wonder why his brother is like that."

"Gloomy, yes. I wonder were they even came from the same parent?"

"Well, Fay is enough. Don't mind him."

What 'don't mind him'? I want to be minded! I am customized to blend into the background while Fay has all the spot light. People adore him and they loathed me. I never have the feeling of accomplishment whenever Fay is beside me or doing the same thing. Moreover, Fay got everything I want… he get the boy I liked since long time ago… our neighbour, Kuro.

But now it is changed. I am Fay and I can live happily as Fay.

Goodbye, Yui.

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