Disclaimer: I do not own Pretear.
MAWATA'S POV:
I hate them. Hayate. Himeno. Takako. Sasame. Goh. Rin. Mannen. Kae. I hate them all. They leave me alone to suffer by myself. Sure, they're all happy. Why wouldn't they be? Himeno has Hayate, Sasame has Takako, and Mother has Mr. Awayuki. There's no room for me in their perfect lives. Why do I always have to be the one left out of the picture?
After the Great Tree of Fenril had been destroyed and all that drama had been done with, everyone had gone right back to ignoring me again. I hate being alone. Why do I always have to be alone? I mused about this as I sullenly walked home from school.
"Hey! Mawata! Wait up!" The annoying voice of Himeno said piercing my thoughts. Great! Just great! Why was she always bothering me? Finally she caught up to me, Hayate not far behind and said, "Do you want to go to the video arcade with Hayate and me later?"
I forced a smile on my face and said, "No thanks. I've got a lot of homework. I really need to get started on it."
"Oh come on!" Himeno said tugging my arm playfully, annoying me even more. "It'll be a lot of fun! Everyone will be there! Sasame, Goh, Kae, and everbody! Even mom and dad are going!"
Why the hell would I want to go there and be with them or you, for that matter? I was almost tempted to ask her that question, but instead said, "I've really got a lot of work to do and I don't wan tot go to sleep too late. And besides I'm kinda tired."
"Oh," Himeno said hanging her head low and then suddenly cheering up when Hayate laid a hand on her shoulder. "I guess that's alright! See you later then!"
What does she mean she "guesses it's alright"? I watched the pair walk away and decided that I didn't want to go home right away. Instead I walked to the park and sat on one of the many benches and listened to the mournful classical songs I had grown fond of after I stopped listening to Sasame's Word Gate.
Sasame. It still hurt to think about him. That bastard had tricked me, just so that he could prove his love for Takako. I was used… and I still am. I sighed and a single tear rolled down my cheek. Dad what would you do if you were me?
"Why are you crying?" I whipped my head up to see a boy around my own age looking at me closely.
"None of your business." I said coldly, wiping away the single tear. "Leave me alone."
"Why? It doesn't look like you want to be left alone." He waited for me to answer but I simply just glared at him, trying to ward him off. Instead he continued, "I know what it feels like. To always be the one ignored by everyone else. I know what it feels like to never quite be able to fit in."
I stared at this kid. Who the hell was he? I certainly didn't recognize his wild black hair or rugged good looks. "Who the hell are you?"
"You're not exactly the friendliest person are you?" He asked more to himself than to me and took a seat beside me. "My name is Kagomaru." He waited for me to give my own name and he laughed aloud when I didn't.
"My name is Mawata." I mumbled softly. "Now leave me alone."
"Fine." The boy said standing up. "I see I'm not going to get anywhere siting here talking to you… But if you ever truly need me, you know where to find me. I'll be waiting for you." With that he turned and walked away and in the blink-of-an-eye he disappeared.
Who was that? What does he mean I'll know where to find him? He didn't even leave an address! And why is he waiting for me? I sighed and decided to just go home. Right about now I just wanted to curl up in my bed and put everything behind me. This day had been too much and homework could wait. Besides, it's not like anyone cares. With those morbid thoughts chasing through my head, I headed home.