The Spiderweb Trampoline Extravaganza
Or how two Arachnae changed everything.
(Trigger warning this post will contain the topic of Suicide, the right to die, as well as physical, violence.)
Thursday, As a child you never really cared for Thursdays. Not only because of Geography class happened on that day, but also because you hate it even more now as the weekly Bin people do their best to spread trash from your bins across the whole road.
Depression comes and goes in waves, sometimes it's an endless torrent which pushes you to one conclusion. You are Better off Dead. Other times you are treading water almost about to drown.. Gasping desperately for air which always seems just out of reach.
Depression is something which, unfortunately, even when you go to the Doctor, especially here unless someone finds you basically half dead from the attempt, they are not going to do anything, At least in personal experience.
You can beg for help, you get your 8 sessions at mindfulness therapy and if it's not cured, sorry, No more help for you.
Despite interactions with a certain Harpy, things had come to a point where ultimately yours truly was just tired of it. Nothing had helped, my cats.. my friends are the only reason to wake up and now... well... and I'm ashamed to write this... it just wasn't enough.
As Sausage sits on my legs now as he does every evening. All thoughts back then screamed at me to just end it... quickly.
Preparing a noose for a one armed man was difficult enough... but after all it needed to be quick.
People say suicide is cowardly, but honestly is it? To take that step and fail.. doesn't make you happy it makes you feel your so pathetic, so worthless you can't even do that correctly.
There was a scream... one that pieces your soul, followed by a loud group of rowdy laughs. The neighbours I thought, well they are up to their antics early... very early, it was barely ten am then you hear the words .." No please, NO!".. that voice is not the slurred Drunk, or the Drug addicts... that usually grace the area with their .. let me just say they only have one volume setting.. screaming.
The police sniffing around when your trying to hang yourself ... " fff..Frick's sake" I shouted
I opened the door and saw a group of standing over two people... no two Demihumans
"Go back inside Cripple..." one said, one added "Hey maybe he's Quarter chicken monster.. " added another
You could say it was bravery, however it was more a reaction to a single word, if any word has been used in more spite, and hatred to describe my arm.. or what's left of it it was Chicken...
Hobbling out.. Coming about barely to the guys chest my temper.. The vileness against myself errupted into spite and rage
" f...Fuck you, you fucking piece of ss..sshh..shit... Go back to whatever drug or booze hole you crawled out of and go back there... beating up on girls... or maybe you need a weaker target.. go on hit me.. or can you only hit people who have laws in place where they will be deported if they fight back.. welp.. I was born here fuck... Uck face.. but I'm sure whatever primordial sss ss lllllime you crawled out from fucked off because it was ash..."
I was smacked in the stomach even before I could finish.. I coughed and blood trickled out of my nose... " go ggg oo on one more... fucking do it .. " I fell to my knees and things got woozy..
"You're not worth it... " said one
They looked at me at the blood and thought it was worse than it was.. One kicked me as he passed but it was more to see if I was still alive rather than to cause pain
"I know where you live " said another ...
" yessss.. and I know your mother as does most of the road.. " I replied
" You waana die ?" he said pulling me by the hair
" Yes.. are you going to do it, or are you just a bunch of loudmouths who only can hit girls? " I spat out..
He just gave me this look thinking if I was serious... and you know it could have been that way, however unfortunately or fortunately.. sirens were in the distance and they decided to slink off.. " Called the Police have you.. what a fucking pussy.. " was the last coherent words out of one of their mouths
They made a lot of noise but left.. the sirens passed and I pulled myself up.. the two girls held onto each other looking at each other then me.
They stood up... they were Arachne.. half spider.. they towered over me.. and would have over those... people..
One was more furry looking than the other, both wore a sort of tracksuit top with a odd logo on the front.. the none furry one had two green eyes, and red hair which matched her spider half.
The furry one had six orange eyes, her skin was a blue... Which instantly brought to my mind Drow from D&D. Her hair was blonde with purple like patterns resembling the letter U
" You you should be okay nnn n now, do you need me to call anybody, or something? " I asked leaning on the metal rail " Or a Tea? "
You know in England, Tea seems to be the answer to most problems, broke leg, have a Tea and go to the hospital, whatever the problem.. Tea is kinda the first step in the solution.
" You didn't fight back? " the red haired girl said..
" But you didn't run either.. " said the yellow furry Arachnae.
They looked at each other, then whispered something
The yellow one held out her hand, it was clawed but gentle.. I shook it. Stuck on what to say.
The three of us stood like that for a moment.. When the red-haired one broke the silence " The leaflets.. There all ruined.. "
"ll...l...leaflets...? " I said quietly
" Shit I left my phone at the center.. You have yours Yara? ... "the red-haired Arachnae said again... " Oooh, long legs is gonna be mad... "
Yara pulled out her phone.. It looked.. Poorly... " She doesn't like being called that... Oh... " She looked at me then the other Arachnae.. Tears started to appear.
Depression is like a virus... The little voice is insidious.. Unending and often unyielding, It wants to destroy you.. Make no doubts about it..
I started to walk away.. Partly due to cowardess, partly just to get the phone..
" y..y..you can borrow mine.. " I walked up the path to the door and felt something touch me.
jumping out if fear the adrenalin was too much for me and things got very sparkly very quickly..
" don't go.. " a voice said..
" jjj..Just gonna let you borrow my mobile.. Not going to leave you.. " the words blurted out
" Promise? " Asked Yara
" yeah "said the other " You promise? "
A few moments later both had followed me up the steps to my flat.
" would www...would you like to come in... it's a mess and.. "
" yeah you can make us that Tea... " said the red haired girl.
" Rachée ...maybe you shouldn't tease him..." Yara said
The flat is small, the corridor is just larger wide than the door.. however the Arachne seemed to say nothing ...
we went into the living room...
" You have cats... " said Rachée... noticing the scratching post and various boxes made to be toys.
" yeah... " as I handed her the phone "that okay? "
" We haven't seen a cat since we left home... to come here.. " Rachée said looking around
" Arachnae consider cats good luck " Yara said
" I'll make the tea... " I said and hobbled into the kitchen " the loos just on the left if you need..
" aww I'll find you cats.. after I phone long legs " said Rachée
Going into the kitchen I heard muffled voices.. but the sound of the kettle boiling blocked a lot out... in my hand was one of their leaflets... breathing in and out trying to focus
I read "Spiderweb Trampoline Extravaganza... made with genuine Arachnae silk!
Come learn how to jump like a spider ... I noticed three Arachnae on the picture... plus two other people
"WHAT THE HELL IS THIS" one of them yelled
To be continued...