In Transit

Chapter One

Rated: T

Author's Note- This takes place during How to Succeed in Bassness. The permit from Jack Bass is legit. This is supposed to be a bit confusing, especially Blair's thought process. I love her, but the girl is crazy.

He had the pieces but he couldn't figure out. A clue here or a clue there, but the way she left without a single goodbye made it all too difficult. Blair had always loved to plot, and she had outdone herself with her final scheme.

Chuck knew he was short on time. This was a race, and Jack had as many resources at his disposal as he did.

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"This isn't about last week. It's about you, Blair. It's the reason I couldn't say I love you. It's because I can't trust you."

The words were haunting. But, when she looked at it from all the angles it really made sense. It wasn't as if Serena had never told her the truth before. She used everyone to get what she thought she deserved. Blair was not trustable.

France would be far too predictable, they would eventually come looking and France would not keep her hidden.

It was good this way. She had gotten her chance- Chuck had loved her. But, she ruined it; she always ruined it.

Sitting in her dorm room alone she understood that. Blair Waldorf, friendless in NYU, had just pushed the man she loved too far.

England was a good choice because she wouldn't have to worry about languages, but even the slightest possibility of running into Marcus would be an undesirable result. The country was only so big.

Marcus. The thought of him still made her queasy. No wonder he wouldn't lay a finger on her since he was sleeping with his stepmother. Disgusting.

Australia was another option if she wanted an English speaking country.

Jack.

No, she wouldn't go to Australia.

Jack Bass had got her into this mess. Blair shook away the thought from her mind- she had got herself into this mess.

Blair still didn't completely understand what she did wrong. Yes, Chuck hated Jack, but that proved her love. She was willing to do whatever it took to get Chuck what he wanted. It was utilitarianism if the ends justified the means. Maybe she should be disgusted with Jack, but he was a means to an end. She never would have gotten Chuck back without Jack. Everyone had his or her value and she would always owe Jack that. Not to mention Jack and Chuck shared too much of the same personality for her to hate one without hating the other.

South East Asia was new territory to her.

Chuck. Thailand.

No, if she was going to escape him she clearly couldn't go anywhere that would remind her of Chuck at every moment. Erasing him from her memories would be difficult enough as it was.

Blair had to leave for Chuck's own good. He had redeemed himself and she would only bring him down into her web of deceit and manipulation. But, this was how she would prove she truly loved him. She was giving up her chance for her perfect love story to save him.

If anyone could romanticize this it was Blair Waldorf. She was Boggie putting Elsa onto the plane at the end of the movie.

Morocco. Perfect! No one would ever think to check Morocco.

Clearly, nobody would check there because Morocco doesn't have a Ritz- or even a Four Seasons. Blair wrinkled her nose at the thought because even if she was being selfless she still had her standards.

Dubai. Dubai would be the best place for her to escape. She would still be in luxury—Carter.

No, Dubai would not work either. Her mental globe was quickly being colonized by ex-boyfriends.

Carter was still too fresh in her mind as an example of her last downward spiral.

Everyone in her life was growing up and maturing and Blair was digressing. Maybe she should have ended up with Carter- he was clearly as out of control as she was.

Carter Baizen.

Blair squinted her eye trying to picture it. He was in Texas. Hmm. No one would expect her to run away somewhere in the U.S.

The idea had potential, but Carter Baizen. He definitely was the go to resource on jumping ship. Serena was a close second, but she couldn't turn to her either. Serena had chosen Chuck over her, and Chuck had chosen Serena over her too.

He made the right decision, Blair thought bitterly.

Blair picked up the stem of her Grey Goose martini and finished the glass in two quick sips. She would need a bit of courage before she called him. If Serena were still amendable to salvaging their friendship this would be the final straw. It still ate away at her that Carter had left her without a word, and then reappeared dating Serena. Everyone always chose Serena.

Tomorrow, she would leave tomorrow. Tonight she would enjoy her last party in New York. She would be unwelcome at Chuck's opening, but she had to see him one last time. She needed the party to say her mental goodbyes to her friends. They would be better without her, Nate was proof of that.

Tonight she would call Carter, but for now she would dress for the party, for Chuck's party. She would give them a sight they would not soon forget; it would be there last sight of Blair Waldorf, after all.

XOXO.

The dress Chuck had given her fit perfectly. He always knew what looked good on her even if he preferred it off of her. A sad smile graced Blair's lips as the limo stopped at the evening's destination. He knew her so well.

"You're not on the list, Blair." Serena said the moment Blair approached.

"C'mon S, are you really going to keep me out?" Blair challenged Serena pushing all plans out of her mind momentarily.

"He's not going to be happy to see you."

Blair's lips thinned at the words. It's true he wouldn't be happy to see her. She couldn't even pretend that for just for tonight things would be perfect.

"It doesn't matter. He will still talk to me." She said as she nodded her head trying to make herself believe the words. In truth, he was so upset he might ignore her or make her leave.

"B, when are you going to stop playing these games?" Serena asked with her lecture forming. "Not only did you hurt Chuck, but you could've messed everything up for me here. KC is looking for any reason to get rid of me. You could have cost me my job." With her hand on her hip she looked down at Blair.

How Blair wished she could be as tall as Serena. Everyone always got to look down at her.

"I know, Serena"

"No, Blair, I don't think you do. You're pushing him too far."

Blair looked up at Serena. She was so beautiful. When she wanted to she could make Blair feel like she was worth everything, but she could take it all away just as quickly.

"Goodbye, Serena." Blair said quietly as she looked her in the eye.

Serena rolled her eyes and waited for her friend to pass.

She had to admit he had done amazing all on his own. The club had it's own distinct style that only Chuck Bass could have created. She felt such pride that he had made this come true, that he had risked everything.

Her eyes lit up the moment she found him; her boyfriend wasn't difficult to find- Chuck Bass always stood out. Unfortunately, his eyes did not have the same reaction.

Free from it all, I'm not going to change till I want to.

"Your powers of disguise have fallen off a bit."

"I know you don't want to see me.

By the way she looked I should have calmed down.

"What exactly are you doing here," He asked not denying her statement. "I have more important things to deal with than your little surprises."

"I came to apologize." Blair told him honestly. She would leave tomorrow, but she had to see him this one last time and let him know the truth. "I was trying to help you, so you would see you needed me that we make a good team, but you were right not to trust me. I ruined everything."

I went to far that's all I have to say.

"Heartfelt. Honest," Chuck said as he nodded his head.

"Blair, we have things we need to discuss."

Blair smiled sadly knowing what he would want to discuss later. She would take the preemptive strike for him.

"You're busy with the club. We can talk later." Blair said knowing he was rushed and walked away.

"Chuck?" she asked turning around one last time to look at him. He raised his eyebrow symbolizing his attention. "I am sorry- sorry for everything I've done and that I do to you, but it is because I love you."

He nodded once before leaving her.

"Goodbye, Chuck."

And I'm free from the world.

And it was finished. Her mission was accomplished, and she could leave. She walked out the exit content in the fact Serena was no longer working the door. She walked past her waiting limo- it was her last night in New York so she would walk.

"Blair- wait!" A voice yelled behind her. She smiled as she turned around.

"Of course, how could I have forgotten," she whispered softly.

He looked confused for a moment, but then again he always looked confused.

"Nothing." She said waving it off dismissively.

"You don't even say hi, Blair."

She smiled a genuine smile. "I'm sorry, Nate, I'm just a bit preoccupied."

"Yeah, Chuck told me about everything. You know, I'm sure he wants you here. You should stay, keep me company?" He said. It was good to have Nate as a friend.

She shook her head no.

"Not tonight. This is his night, and I need to take care of some things." She said as she bit her lip worrying she had given too much away.

"Are you o.k.?"

Blair pulled him into a hug. He was her first love after all. She would miss him.

"Go celebrate with Chuck!" She demanded playfully. "And tell him I love him and I'm proud of him!" She demanded without the playfulness.

"Ok." He laughed more used to this bossy demanding Blair.

She watched as he walked back toward the club before fishing her phone out of her clutch.

"Carter?" she asked once she heard his surprised greeting.

"I need your help."

tbc

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Author's Note- So, I'm back! I've got a computer again so I'm starting a new story. I don't know if I will pick my other stories up or not. I hate leaving things unfinished so I probably will. Any input? Should I just ditch this and work on my old neglected stories?