A/N: Hey y'all! It's me, Becca, and I'm back with some more one-shot songfics. Eh, maybe some will be a couple chapters long, but mostly one-shots. They will all be troyellas…you don't like? Too bad…find your own stories. As for reviews, please if you are going to flame, please do it constructively. I'll most likely have a lot of angsty one-shots, some fluffy ones too though. Also, a lot of the songs will be The Fray…. not all but some. And one last thing: I'm thinking about co-writing a story with someone, it'll be like a pen pal thing between Troy and Gabriella, like they never met and are pen pals over an internet pen pal service. Anyone who is interested, please e-mail me or add in your review! O.K., enough rambling…on with the story!
P.S. (the following is a small spoiler for the story that contains a reader warning. If you don't want to know what happens in the story, please don't highlight the following, but it does contain a reader warning for the content of the story, so please don't review me with flames because I didn't warn you! Warning starts here: This story contains suicide and death of main character and Troy and Gabriella breaking up. If it offends please don't read. Warning ends here.
How to Save a Life
The Fray
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
"Troy, calm down, everything will be okay. You need sit down, calm down baby. Troy, don't walk away we're just talking!"
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
His smile, it's just so…angelic. Every time he smiles at me, my heart just melts.
I sit down on a bench, and pat the area next to me, and motion for him to sit next to me. I look at him, but I know I'm not really looking at him.
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Oh, this was a bad idea, I can't tell him, it will break him. I already see the fear in his eyes, the hurt, the blame. I can see him running away, leaving me here.
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
I think back, when did we lose us? When did I realize that we… we were never meant to be, never clicking just so? Where did I go wrong, where did I take a wrong turn? All along I had known I had lost the best thing that had ever happened to me?
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
I would have held your hand, I would have sat by your bedside the whole entire time if I had known how to, how to comfort you, how to be your rock.
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
I look over at him, and I try to explain to him that what I'm about to say is for the best, for the both of us. I know that it'll hurt for a while, but it's really for the best.
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
I try to get inside his mind, try and slip past the wall he has put up against me, against the world. I try to get into his heart without letting myself fall apart.
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
Trying to explain to him how I was wrong, I did so much wrong; I've told him this all before, but not like this. I can't explain it all fully without falling to pieces, without breaking like a fragile doll.
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
I pray silently, I pray, I hope he'll listen to me, understand why I have to do this, to save him, to save his life.
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
I remember the first time we kissed, the first time we had a date…. the first time I lied to him, the first time I realized I had betrayed him, and the first time I had realized we weren't us anymore.
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
I would have explained this all to him if I had known how to, I would have sat him down and told him this all before. I would have done al this if I had known how to, if I had known it could be the one thing that saved him.
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
As I begin my long story, he starts to yell and I know now that's it's all over. I lower my voice till it's gone, and I close my eyes. When they open, I find he's gone, and I know it's all over. Had I known that it was truly over for him, I would have chased him.
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
I run to my car, and I drive to the one place where I know I am safe, the lake. I drive until I realized that the road has long left me, and I'm just driving through the woods now. I stop the car, and I break down, letting all the emotions that I had bundled inside me go, and I shake with sobs.
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
I notice my cell phone ring, and I see that's it Troy calling. I pick it up, and he starts to talk, ramble. He's crying and tries to tell me that he's gone, and we won't ever see each other again, no one will ever see him again. He says a teary good bye and before he hangs up, I hear a gunshot in the background.
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
I drop the phone and let out a sob, and I know that it was my entire fault. I killed him, because I didn't stop him, I let him go. I could have saved him, if I had known how to have him, how to save his life.
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
I lay on the steering wheel, sobbing. Somewhere along the road I had traveled with Troy, I made a mistake, and now he's dead. I killed him because I didn't help him, I didn't stop him from running way, or talk him down from killing himself. I broke him, and now I've broken myself.
How to save a life
How to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
I can't go on like this, and I can't go back to stop this. It's all over now, for Troy and for me. I don't think that I can go on living my life and letting someone else end theirs. If I had paid attention to him, if I hadn't been unfaithful, if I hadn't let myself wander. If I attempted to save him.
How to save a life
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