Emma was never a fan of the life she was living, she wanted to be happy and she tried to be happy, but she never was. She had always tried to please her parents, and still does, but they were and still are always more interested in her younger brother, Neal.

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Emma had been adopted when she was five years old, at a time when her parents were having trouble conceiving and for one year she had the life that any orphan would wish. She was daddy's little girl always doing things with him like sword fighting with lightsabers and riding bikes in the mountains with him. She may have only been five years old but she was able to do anything a ten year old boy would do. Growing up in the system had done a number on her. When she had first met Mary Margaret and David she was shy and didn't want to talk much with them but by the third time they were together her and David had a special bond and it opened her up to being adopted.

But then a miracle happened. Mary Margaret had received the news that she was pregnant. Six months later a little boy was born and named Neal. After that Emma and her father never really did any of those fun things again and his excuse was always, "Neal's too young for that", or "Neal will be left out", and all of those girly things that her mother wanted her to do she wasn't into.

Now in the beginning of her Junior year at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill she was done with trying to impress her parents. She had gotten straight A+'s all through high school and continued those grades into college. She had gotten a full ride scholarship to the college though the lacrosse team. Now the star forward on the team is living the college life. She was always studying yet attended every single major party that anyone held. She was always traveling for lacrosse but continued to get her amazing grades. She had a best friend, the one and only Killian Jones, who was always there for her to talk too even if they were hundreds of miles away.

Her and Killian met when they were in the 5th grade. He had just moved to Long Island with his older brother Liam and from there they became best friends. She had helped him rise in lacrosse. Starting to play in 5th grade was hard for him, he had the skills but no one welcomed him at first. Then one day a coach saw him and Emma playing around and said, "Son, do you want to be a star?" and of course he said yes, who would say no. From then on you could catch him scoring a goal no matter what team he was playing against. In 7th grade you could catch both Emma and Killian on the varsity teams up at the high school and by the end of their sophomore years they had full ride offers to multiple colleges each but they both chose UNC so they could be together.

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It was her first game of the season but something felt different, almost wrong. She couldn't pinpoint what it was. She had done all her first game rituals, put her hair in a pony-tail and then split it into three braids, she had her good luck American Flag headband on, she had eaten a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and 6 oreos for breakfast. She still couldn't figure out what was wrong so she stepped onto the field with her teammates thinking it's just your nerves Em, everything will work out, it always has. First she warmed up with the rest of the field players doing 2 laps around the field and then stretching. Then she did drills with Ruby and the goalies. Her and Ruby were always on the same side of the field, you couldn't separate them or take just one of them down. If one messed up then the other one did too. It was always Ruby who would get Emma the ball and then Emma would be the one to carry it down the field and score or it she didn't carry it then Ruby did but Emma was always the one to score. She was left handed so it was much harder for the goalies to stop her.

The game was about to start and then it hit her. Killian Jones was nowhere to be found. He had never missed a game of hers. It was a ritual, she was always at his games and he was always at hers, if they both had away games or if one was a way and the other was home they would always facetime each other the night before and the morning of.

Now that she thought about it the last word from him was that he would see her at the game but that was two days ago now. She hadn't even received a good luck text from him. She bet it had something to do with the new girl, Milah. Killian had met her at a party the week all the athletes came back from their short summer break. Milah was on the soccer team, which Killian had never been a fan of but told Emma he could make an acception for her- "Emma, earth to Emma, are you here with us? The game is about to start."

She hears Ruby screaming towards her and jogs onto the field, "Sorry, just caught up in some thoughts."

The game starts and ends just as fast. Emma netting 6 goals and tallying 3 assists winning the game in the last 20 seconds. After the team has their meeting and they get released Emma calls Killian. The phone rings and rings but no one ever picks up. She texts him several times but no answers. Then she calls Rob, one of the guys on the team with Killian and he says that he left the house with Milah last night but never came back, he congratulates her on the big win and how well she played but then had to run off to practice. She figures she'll show up to the end of practice and corner Killian then.

She goes back to her house, one that she shares with Ruby and a couple other lacrosse girls. She gets a call from her mom but doesn't answer it, then another one and then texts all of which she ignores. She hops into a shower and changes into shorts and a UNC lax tshirt and lays down on her bed and then sets an alarm for an hour form now and falls asleep.

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She wakes up to her alarm ringing and jumps out of bed. She sneaks down the stairs and walks to the door hoping no one will hear her. She just wants to get to the field and ask her best friend why he wasn't at her opening game. She looks around and sees Ruby and Ashley on the couch watching some stupid show and the rest of the girls eating lunch in the kitchen. She opens the door slowly and quietly and slips out.

She gets to the field about 5 minutes later and spots Killian. She's about to yell over to him when she spots Milah waiting by his car. So instead she tries to call him. She knows that he knows that she's looking at him so instead of going to his car he turns towards her. "Swan, what brings you here?"

"Well first off, you missed my game and first one of the season to be exact. Secondly you've not picked up a single call or replyed to a single text I've sent in the past day. Third of all I haven't seen you in days and the last text I've recieved from you is, sorry can't talk now, so what's up Jones."

He's about to respond when his phone lights up, its Milah. He picks up and then soon after hangs up. "Sorry Swan I have to go, talk to you later?"

"Killian, seriously? Whats up with you? We've talked to eachother everyday since 5th grade and have never lied to eachother. Why can't you leave her for an hour? All I want to do is talk to my best friend."

"Swan, stop with this sillyness, I'll see you later but I have to go now."

Her eyes well up with tears but he's already turned around and can't see how close she is to crying. The moment they just had together reminds her of the day her father told her about her brother. Emma sweatheart I have to tell you something. "In about 4 months you will have a little brother! How exciting is that?"

"But I don't want one. What about riding bikes and sword playing?"

"Sweety, we can still do all of that, wait I think your mothers calling"

She watches as her father walks away from her to go attend to whatever her mother needs now. She's dying on the inside but no one can hear her calling out for help. She retreated to her room and cried and no one came up until dinner time.

School is starting tomorrow but is she ready to keep those good grades up? And what will she do with out her best friend? Will she be able to fix things or will she fall while trying.