well, here goes. this is the first poem i'm publishing on here, you an probably see what it's aboutfrom the title, anyway, i was just messing around with stuff and this happened. so yeah, enjoy!
You think I'm Fearless, Raphael?
Well here's something you maybe haven't considered,
Everytime i see that chip in your shell
I get shivers down mine.
I shiver in fear.
The fear of what might have happened if i wasn't there,
To carry you home after you made a mistake,
After I let you make a mistake
A mistake
A mis-take
I missed the take where you had fallen, and arrived too late
Arrive too late to save you
Save you from pain, and injury
I couldn't stop the ground from hitting you, after you fell
After you fell and got that chip in your shell
You think i'm Fearless, Raphael?
Every time you hit Mikey on his head, i think of his concussion
The one he got in a fight not too long ago
And i wince
In fear
In fear of what might happen when I'm not around to stop you
To stop you from hurting one of our brothers
Hurting them with your explosive anger you claim to control,
I can see the fear in your eyes when you fly
When you fly off the handle and explode
And explode
Because of me
And what i said to you
That makes you lash out at people you love
And i love
And we love
Whenever i see you get that flame in your eye,
The flame of anger
The flame that means duck and cover, that not everyone can understand
Understand enough to duck in time
You think i'm Fearless, Raphael?
You should feel the terror i felt when i faced the shredder,
When i realized i may never see your face again
Your face draped in red, with eyes of green
Or Mikey's face in orange and eyes of blue, like mine.
Or Donatello in purple, with eyes just like our father.
Fear as i realised i may never see my father again
My father
Your father as well
Our father
Our family
Who was so quick to give up on him, after he was thrown down that drain?
I know it wasn't your fault, you had nothing left to hope
I know i wasn't there those months,
The months you waited.
In fear.
In fear that i might not open my eyes again,
in fear that Mikey and Donnie
Your younger brothers,
Would be crushed and never return to you fully
To you
To April
To casey,
To our world.
To new york.
Fear that we would never ever return.
You think i'm Fearless, Raphael?
You should know that i was afraid when you were taken from me
By one you call a friend
Taken to our greatest enemy,
And turned against us
I was afraid
Afraid that i would not see a brother in red again
Your eyes were white, no green
No emerald green that makes me wonder,
What human DNA did you get it from?
Father has brown eyes
The shopkeeper blue.
I was afraid that you would leave us forever,
that day when the worm took your mind
You hate worms
Worms that steal memories and family,
I was afraid that you would beat me,
like you've done so many times before
I was afraid i would fail you all
You think I'm Fearless, Raphael?
You should see my greatest fear, is one that is not you
Or Mikey
Or Donnie
Or father
It is me
Only me,
Finally saying this all to you,
to see you walk away
Walk away from all of us,
I'll never hear your voice again
My greatest fear, is one where i'm alone
That i have failed you all
All of you are gone
And my greatest fear,
Is to never hear you
Hear you call me 'Fearless'
Call me 'Fearless' again
I'm not Fearless, Raphael.
ok, obviously i had to take some creative liberties with parts of their story like the crack in his shell and the color of his eyes, but hey, you liked it right? (not conceited) anyway, thanks for reading and please review!