Why I chose to run away from him, he will never understand. How can I expect him too? I ran away for him, married him, followed him into this world of darkness; I even bore him children to raise in the darkness. Malick was a nightmare from the start. He had dark hair and dark eyes, tall and built. He practically reeked of darkness but I was to blinded by my youth and my desire for love to see it. We at club "Giv22" when I was years old. I'll never forget that night because it was the first night I used my fake ID. Looking back, I see that he was everything bad for me, but at the time, he was everything I was looking for. He was five years older, five years more experience, and of all the beautiful adult women in the club that night, he chose little plain me. At fifteen, I was shaped awkwardly I think; Long untamable brown hair, tiny petite body with hardly any curves. I was short and spunky, or at least that's what he told me the first night we met.
That night we went back to his apartment in the city and talked all night. We talked about everything and about nothing. About halfway through the night, I told him my true age. I didn't want to prolong it because I didn't want to like him to much and then him dump me for my age.
"Malick, I have to tell you something. I want to tell you this before things go any further." I bowed my head as if I was already defeated.
A tear fell down my face as he lifted my chin and spoke ever so softly. "What is it? It cant be too bad." I pulled my face away and stood up and just said, "I'm only fifteen years old. I used a fake ID to get in tonight. I wanted to tell you earlier but-" he cut me off by giving me the kiss of a lifetime. His lips were so soft and wet that I just didn't want to stop. His tongue touched my lips begging for entry and I gladly allowed. I couldn't help but think if he could tell it was my first kiss. We both pulled back and he pulled my head on his chest. He smelled of cinnamon and aftershave. After a few moments of dead silence he pulled me back and held my hands. Then he looked me in the eyes and said literally the most romantic thing I could possible think of, " Your age doesn't matter, nothing matters anymore Melanie; you don't understand. I've been searching for you, not you exactly, but I've been searching for my soul mate. I can feel it when I look at you, when I touch you, I can feel it when we kiss, its like the whole world could fall down around us and I couldn't hear nor care about any of it." he stopped and just laughed at me. He grabbed my face and kissed me quickly and continued speaking because he could tell I was speechless, "I'm sorry, you just look so confused. I can't tell you everything now because you need to just accept this, I love you Melanie Tiferet Rivers. I saw you in that club and it was like looking at an angel, to me, you glowed. Please, don't think I'm crazy. I could've dated you and waited weeks or months before I said all of this, but it wouldn't' have been fair to me because I'd feel as if I was wasting time. I know at school and home, they tell you all I want is sex, but that's not true, I'll prove that to you, but I know you feel this, I know you can see my honesty. Look inside your heart and mine…" he placed his hand on my chest and I on his as we just looked at each other. I saw it, I saw his love for me. I felt like I had looked into those eyes a million times. I moved into his lap and kissed him more passionately than before. This time the kiss was completely lustful and I was okay with that. I stopped the kiss and put my forehead on his and said, " okay, show me you can wait. I feel everything you have said but…things from my past…I can't jump into this right away. I need to trust you completely before I tell you my secrets. I feel like I can but I can't be sure…can you give me time Malick, time to let go of the awful things of my past?" I began crying uncontrollably. I still to this day don't know why. Possibly for my past or for my confusion as to how this happened so fast, but he pulled me close and held me. He rubbed my back and kissed my chin and nose and once I'd finally calmed down, he said one simple word… "yes."