A/N; I don't own Harry potter . I haven't written fanfiction in a long time due to mental health issues and I recently found out in partially dyslexic and dyspraxia so please bear with me.
Warning this fic deals with Self Harm
Chapter 1 Back again:
Hermione Granger looked up at the castle in front of her. The war ended two years ago Hogwarts was finally reopening and Hermione was going to sit her NEWTS. There was one small problem Hermione granger was no longer a lost little girl she had once been. She had seen things done things in the war which she was not proud of . She step out into kings cross. "Hermione over her" Ron was waving to her across the station near the entrance to platform 9 and three quarters. Next to him stood Harry and Ginny. Hermione took a last breathe and walked over to her friends. "hey guys are you ready for this."
Severus Snape looked out of the window onto the ground of Hogwarts and once again cursed his luck. He should of died in the final battle. but he made that stupid bet he made with Lucius Malfoy, when he was young. "of course I can put a stopper in death Lucius if I was to drink this potion I cant die till Im at lease 150 years old" Severus once again cursed his stupid youth and was pulled out of his thoughts by: "Severus the meeting about to start I would appreciate you joining us," "Of course Mivera."
The Journey to Hogwarts was rather uneventful having Harry and Ginny as head boy and girl meant Ron, Hermione, Neville, Luna all shared the Heads carriage so they didn't have to put up with the large masses of Hogwarts student trying to get a glimpse at the order of Merlin first class. The war had changed then but when they where all together nobody really saw a difference in them. Yet Hermione did. Hermione sat and said nothing when they all talked or played exploding snap. If anyone asked a question she would answer "I need to read this Newts aren't far away you know. Nobody saw past that fake smile or interest in learning nobody saw how fake Hermione felt and nobody saw the scars she hid.
The train pulled up and as the entire students got out of the carriages the Thestrals could been see by all, as after all everybody lost somebody in the final battle. "quick over here I've got us a carriage." "thanks Neville" Hermione sat by Neville and he blushed. " So what do you think is going to happen at the feast"
Severus was sitting at the teachers table waiting for all the student to arrive another year with Potter and his pals. Was the only thing going through Snape head was: the realisation that Potter knew about Lilly. He knew Potter got his name saved and knew once again that he would never truly be free his old two master where dead but as long as Potter was alive he still was a slave after all he owed potter a wizards debt so large it would never be repaid.
The feast started and the sorting had begun
Welcome to Hogwarts young and old
The time of trouble has past
So let the truth be told
In times of darkness
When there seems no light
Look to someone like you
To help you through that dark night
Now which house to place you I can see
But when you need a true friend
Don't only rely on thine house
"I think the hats truly lost it." "Ron shh." Hermione looked up at the hat was he talking to her. Yes the war was won but the darkness was something she felt know something in which she felt so strong. "Herm I was only saying." "you was only saying what Ronald only Gryfindor won the battle did they" Ginny Luna and Neville rolled there eyes at the argument. They all though, some things would never change. Harry however was looking at Severus he saw him in a new light now but the professor seemed to have the same loathing on his face and no matter what Harry knew that look still scared him.
Severus looked at the student but listened to the song how could someone be like me he though. As Severus looked around he saw Potter and put on his usal glare. Then I noticed something different about Granger. The girl was wearing a glamour he couldn't tell which but he noticed something.
That night Hermione was glad to get to her room. All older student were allowed to have there own rooms away from the dorms. It was only fair since they where all over age and most had there own lives after all Harry and Ginny where married and so should be able to live together. Hermione hastily unpacked till she got to it. There at the bottom of her bag The razor blade shone to her. She just sat there looking at it. Hermione look of the glamour she had been wearing all day the cuts and scars where visible across her arms and legs. Revulsion ran through her for a moment then the calm. I deserve this she thinks and pick up the blade.