I've been here in this moment too long. I've allowed myself to be consumed by him. Now at his wedding, I feel everything that's happen- damn it hurts. It isn't about him not loving me, no, that I had known all along- but what hurts is how much space I allowed him to occupy in my life.

I've heard that love is about having enough courage to say something, but I've learned that real courage is not speaking, it's listening. Listening how they talk and what they say because the answers are always there. Always.

I remember when my heart shattered in my chest, leaving me hollow. He had just got into work and I had decided to tell him how I felt...

Flashback

I walked into Morgan's office, hoping to talk, we haven't really seen each other much.

"Hey hotstuff, can we talk for a moment?"

He looked up with a half smile, "Sure Garcia. What's up?"

I wince a bit at his formal-ness. "Um...I know we haven't talked much lately, or hangout as much but I really want to change that. I miss you and I also,..."

He cut her off, "I know Garcia, and it's nothing wrong your doing. It's just well, I met someone..." And his smile widen and I saw the twinkle in his eyes, and I restrained my tears from spilling out. "And she's the one, you know. We're getting married, and I've been busy getting the plans ready. Our wedding is in a couple month. Hotch is going to be my best man, Reid and Rossi groomsmen. JJ and Emily are going to be bridesmaids- Katherine and them really hit it off."

I fought those damn tears, and said, "Congrats, Agent Morgan, I'm so happy for you and her both." I walked out thinking how they all knew and we're going to participant in the wedding and I was hurt. I realized that now it all made sense, the no invite to drinks after work, no more girls night. I realized that I had no family here. I also made the decision that I was going to leave the BAU for good.

End of flashback

I sat at my table watching everyone smiling and laughing. I was happy for them all. Even if soon, I won't see them again. This, seeing Hotch laugh and smile with Emily, JJ and Reid dancing sweetly and Rossi with Strauss, it was nothing less than beautiful- even Morgan and Katherine. Looking at them whispering and smiling, didn't hurt as much as I expected. I bid everyone goodbye. Not that they really noticed, that too no longer hurt.

I went home to finish packing, and start painting the walls back to a Normal color. As I packed all the pictures, it was bittersweet. I didn't want to forget them or him. We did have good memories and even if they moved on and we stopped being the family we once were. I am going to cherish the memories of the times we were.